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just like what i have expected, she will mad when she cant have thing that she want. this attitude really sucks, thought that every girl are same, said by yi suen. obviously it is not.. i dont know what to do now, really, i am so mad and angry. she wanted to have last meet on sunday, so she must want? if not? she must accept is cannot, not everything you want, you can have it. what can you do if you just get mad about it? i dont know how to explain and teach you because you wont hear or realize your mistake. i think this must be de main reason and why i leave her before, it is because i dont understand her enough, whats the different if i know her more now? i cant still change the fact that she is so immature and childish, a very reasonable too and dont know how to think about others difficulty, only wants what she want.. proven that.. each time when she say, i will listen everything you commands, she will no, dont want.

end post for a moment, darn it

remember what i told you?

?? you just like forgetting something about relationship stuff, maybe you are a bit too young for it and i should admit that i am with a little girl now.. i am just like a suck, with a little girl??

she still haven't really know how to think about someone feels, only think about own.

example,when you do something, dont think about own only, try think about others, you will know more.. let's make an example from myself and what i am experience..

mark this date and read properly, this post is base on myself and correct date.

she is going to go back on Monday, she wanted me to accompany till her last moment to klang, i have no problem with it. okay, her mind and think now is, she want me to go no matter what, didn't about my difficulty.. doesn't ask too.. same like how i find her at klang, didnt even know how much i already sacrifices for her, still think that maybe i am temporarily to her only.

obvious all because i love her, thats all, i wanted her to learn to be more caring, mature, don't always mad on what you cant get, i will love you more if you are good. have to change to be more mature.i already loosed my confidence on helping you for change, it is yourself already, not a lot people can stand it.

hm.. k now, lets see

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Hm...

It is like something we cal too over...? I don’t know how to write it in English. Example, everyone know we can’t always fulfill someone wish by their request. Okay, you have what you wanted always now. One day if you can’t get what you want, you will be like, I want, I must want, I don’t care or ELSE. Can anyone understand what I mean? This situation is a bit like her but a bit different. She just want what she want, or she will like, whatever, can’t get then just feeling mad and not good about, won’t have a type of thinking like, can’t have okay, maybe I will have it next time.

Can’t get what she wanted, huh? Once she want, she must want it or.. ;( something like that..

special happy day .. hm..

my cute honey carmen =) wo de zui ai.. it is a very tiring day, dont know am i able to write a lot or not. i am quite shock when i know jia wen told her mother about me, luckily nothing bad happen, if her biao jie, then finish lu..her mother is a nice person actually but a bit corrupted in attitude and ways of treating, it is a fine one, not ask worse as her lo.

today me go midvalley with jia wen, so happy, then got meet my friend, color wolf, hamsap zai. wo de jia wen is so cute de lo, so many people like her de.

jia wen got come my house also, first time a girl i bring come to my house, she even went to my room and locked too but didnt do anything >< kissed in house =) feel so nice de, then hug, then she got sleep with me, so nice.

at movie, storm rider II not yet finish watch, not bad, quite nice, do something in movie too, hen shuang, thirsty kiss ><

tired tired lu, remark at blog, my memories

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post end ;)

wo hen ai jia wen o

taste of love

actually i am a bit upset on the time when pass 12am because i like wishing a lot more than a present.. she didnt greet me also but it is fine because she greet me a lot more than other people. sometime i am a bit cant stand the feel of commanding but it is okay.
my birthday, first time feeling so high and nice, it is on my birthday too, greatest gift!! love you so much, giving me such a nice feel and present. happiest moment in life, highest moment too.
we watches too movie, twilight new moon and JUMP, it is so nice, enjoying watching movie with kissing, very nice, feel very nice.
no one will believe that i almost or already loses my first time or almost, cant write here because it is sx21 hoho, done something very high, i dont believe myself actually try or do it, i really feel high and nice but i cannot do too much because i scare kena ar..
kiss, hug kiss, tight hug kiss, close contact with each other, squeezing, taking off, try try, see see, touch touch, taste taste, put put xD what the hell?

it is my greatest birthday, thanks, short post

no one know my post

shit browser make me rewrite my blog. there are something upset me and it is repeat again, over and over, i almost fed-up already.what can i do? you are dropping this command, you want to do or not? don't want do then suan, don't want care you. this is okay if it is just for playing. starting, yes, everything is just like playing, time longer, i cant breath anymore, she is choking me to death. okay, don't say the old case, say the current one first. she is asking me to call my boss now or she will ignore me. asking me to take leave for tomorrow, i already told her, boss is not nonchargeable for this because he is not in the office or working there, then i dont have other staff number plus i promise people that i am going to work on 8am, i need to go even if i know later i have to leave for an outing. i really hope i can have a nice birthday outing even if it is late one or simple without anything. darn it, my problem here is, i say it is okay then okay, dont ask me to this and that or you will ignore, okay, suan, not effecting anything.

you done something very wrong already, i know it is good for me but you do it on wrong way, you will slowly minus some mark from you to me. you cant ask or command someone on this matters, you are giving stress and pressure, making someone feel bad and hard. i already listen enough of you, but of course, you are the biggest one, who dare to disobey you? you say what ma what la, ignore me? it is your problem already. 8december2009 end.. + feedback, hm.. you should try understand my feel and problem, you think too much about yourself already and doesnt care about me at all. okay, it is okay..