my stupidity to dear, i am childish

i am so damn sucking stupid, i sad for my own mistake without reason. i am going to blame other for my own mistake too. that's why horoscope say that i am not worth being believe. i am not a good person to be with, my personality is so damn negative.. i hate myself so much. being so playful. i don't want to be like this!! being dislike and hate by others!! this is not what i want!!
i want to be people that bring laughter,  i hate unhappiness and reality!! i like to smile and play, hate being serious and sad!!
i am making others feeling bad!! what am i? fuck!!

rei, wo zhen de hen ben, wo fa shi, wo yi hou dou bu hui zhe yang, zi hui ling ni kai xin

哭了 you make me worry

Sagittarius, people that wont admit own got wrong. all the wrong it have, sure it is other people fault. it is true, i use blaming always. i don't know what to do now. who to blame. who to ask. she is weird, since the time i went out with my friend. she don't tell me everything. i have a bad feeling about this. dear, don't make me worry. i hope that you can speak more with me, tell me everything. i am struggling my feel now, i want you, i need you. treat me like your dear. make me to be part in your life. replace me as the most important person in life. i promise that i will give you the best i can.

i don't want to say so much le =)

I CRY 哭了