self secret admire

can i make you believe me? honestly, i believe everything that you say. i obey what command you drop on me, i listen whatever you say. (you tell me that, your love position is not top). i want to know why.. to me, if you dont put your love in top position, it is impossible to have future. i dont want to explain so much, dislike it.. if you think it is not important, fine, i give up, hate so many explain.

yesterday, i meet a girl in sdo. her name is yuting if i am not mistaken. meet? nah.. dont really meet.. just knew someone there~ i forget that i got display my phone number in game. she call me = = walao.. i just like blur liao.. wtf, why suddenly got a cute girl sound call me? so it is fine then. btw.. i talk quite lots with her in this two day. i feel like, wow, i got a new talking partner already. and i want to F horoscope!! it is not accurate at all, it prove that i can be myself in front of them. honestly, i quite like her but i need a lot explain from her

next, i like another person that always accompany me too

i feel down because of you

am i expecting you to read my blog? is this the reason i write this? okay i try not to write for you. i hate expecting things that wont come true. you wont know my feeling. it is so late now, my current time is 2.05am and i should be sleeping now because tomorrow i got work. i dont feel like sleeping now because of you. last night, you treat me very cold, you make me sleep late but i wanted to sleep early..
it is a problem here, at first, you told me that your sis intro you a guy. you say it is fine, but i feel very.. jealous. yesterday, you cure my jealousy but today morning, you make me down again. i feel down for whole day. YOU TELL ME THAT THE GUY IS NOTHING BUT THEN, HE MAKE SO MANY TROUBLE TO YOU KNOW? i just dont want to care you anymore.. if you like that guy, then you go for it, it is fine. i wont die if i dont have you.
i am officially single and available now. searching for new love and relationship.. every girl that around me.. it is a chance. feel is by accept. some people will say "no feel how?" actually it see yourself "want to accept it or not" just dont care what i write or what i am trying to explain.
+ i dont know why i want to fan your problem so much if you dont put me in your heart
why dont i take you out from my heart, and i put it to other person? i hate you