everyone have a heart, a heart that is very weak when they face thing about L.U.V. a lots of people always tell itself, i wont fall to anyone anymore (after breaking up) but most of them end up married. being hurt is temporarily and the wound in heart will recover. this is a very simple common reason, a human mind will slowly change, wont maintain a types of thinking forever.
after the first incident, i really hurt like hell, i am not breaking up, but being cheated.. i find out that she is having outing with other guy without my knowing. then lie's on me a lot. one stupid thing i never know, i used a lots of money on her, reloading and bank-in.. how come i am so stupid? thing already pass. after this injuries.. i have learn a lot. sweet talk, i dont have feel to it anymore and it is disgusting plus i have a grudge feel too.
my next love, my last one and my only one, hm.. will it be? everyone say relationship wont last song that easily.. you believe? of course i am. a relationship is troubling stuff, create a lots problem and unhappy thing, but it also give a lots of fun and happiness + memory too. love is sweet. maybe i am short in experience for being together with someone.. the problem i find out in myself.. is this the problem that cause ending in relationship?
i find out that i didnt take my first valentines seriously, i am just like fed up already.. when i really have mood for it.. something not right always keep on popping up.. making me pissing off.. did i really told someone about this? nah.. not even my closest sms friend xD sorry girl, haha. by the way.. is it wrong to feel pissing off and fed up? huh?
honestly, truthfully, and seriously.. am i still **** her? lol..
YES, i am.. i still love her a lot, i love being with her and i love the feel.. but there are something not right in between us.. i wonder, will either one of us say END? 100% she will be the one that say it in future, not me. my promise, never leave her. in my prediction, she will be the one that leave me someday.. hope it will change.
hm.. just like what i have said FEB16 a nightmare .. please pray for me.. be strong elric, you can do it ;) cb post, finish, publish!!!!!
