drepression about you.. am i too mian qiang?

keep viewing your facebook profile.. viewing all your post and thing.. i really wish to know much and more about you.. i feel like your life is really good now.. dont have the need for boyfriend.. i dont mean me as boyfriend..

you know.. i see jealous and some hatred from you.. about your friend and more.. where is mine.. by the way.. i really feel so lucky and happy last time.. while with my ex. although me and my ex never go out 2 person, mean she always bring her friend.. her friend is my friend.. i have friend.. all her friend is my friend.. haha.. i am sohai.. whatever.. just some depression.. sorry..

i dont mind if no one understand me.. but please dont ren ding and say about me.. all of you is wrong and not right.. but never mind..

are you waiting my sms.. i wish you sms me, and i hope to sms you too.. bla.. i know i miss you..

day by day..
maybe one day.. my feeling will dead and my mind will stop think of you..

good night =')

feeling so emotional today..

seriously i know this is disgusting and i am so sorry for this because in this kind of disgusting picture got your name in it.. maybe the time you see it wont got feel anymore? lol.. whatever.. i plan to create this, first.. is to test my patient and to test my heart and whatever thing. just like what i usually say.. i dont expect anything because i am afraid of disappointment.. or maybe i do really expect.. but.. fine..

i feel so weird toward you.. i really dont know whats wrong with me.. i starting to lose control.. i wish to see your laugh and smile.. dont like to see you angry and mad anymore.. i try not to disturb you already.. but sometime.. i am so wu liao.. apologize accepted ma?

one time, and one time.. i tell myself to give up my heart to you.. but.. i feel hard.. feel so difficult to let you go.. i wanted to see you all time.. day or night.. dont really wanted so much.. just want to know either you fine or what.. i wish to make call on you at night but.. who am i? why do i do that?

today my mind pop up something that i feel very upset until i feel like crying.. er.. i dont cry.. i feel like i being forgotten by you.. or feel like you dont care me a damn.. just like.. i dont know how to describe.. in my mind keep saying this "you will be more happy than having me in your life" your life dont suit me too.. you life is more on group.. and me.. =( haha.. you will let me join? sorry i no confidence..

one more thing is.. i like you.. and maybe it is very much.. but.. i dont feel safe with you.. it mean.. i feel like you dont take relationship seriously.. it is just like.. have it, then ok, dont have it.. then never mind.. no "an quan gan" be with you.. i will feel like hell everyday.. i am so afraid if you feel bored and leave me.. better dont be like miss liew lee yien.. LOL her full name xD she is a very unstable girl in relationship.. maybe..

today.. i pass my phone to you.. i feel like >< sweet because you use my phone!! >< i really love the feeling and you smile while passing back the phone to me.. i really like you >< plus you really so cute to me.. by the way.. always wish to tell you that i dream about you.. i dream that you tell we all.. you have been invited for an outing by a guy and the guy hold you hand.. then you got boyfriend.. it is just a dream.. but i still dont feel good.. i feel better after see you back in work but i am still worry..

i think this is all for today post..? hehe!! sorry for this rubbish post

edit : almost forget.. about the title.. yup today i feel sad and so emotional.. today you ignore me a lot.. another thing is.. miss liew scold me and you keep quiet.. i feel like so useless.. and i feel so shame.. liew telling all my bad thing in front of you.. image spoil.. you dont like  me le.. one thing is.. you.. i dont want say le.. ='(