seriously i wanted to cry.. no one know.. everyone thinks, actually, i am fine, always fine, but, actually i am very hurt already..
just finish having phone conversation with rei, i don't know whether that, she purpose, or.. i don't know how to describe.. i feel like.. why don't we end? because, i am so suffering and unhappy together with you. are you trying to tell me that you don't like me? seriously i am so hurt. i don't want to hear anything about it already. please don't say it anymore..
sometime, own need to know how to understand.. i am so stupid, what i care so much? it is myself that get hurt easily, what people care? this is her talking way. sometime i suspect do she love me? i don't want to tell a lot now.. no meaning..
yala, i am useless.. no people ask me to get hurt, so i hurt myself
i am so pain
