I LOVE YOU

after a long period of being single.. after a lots of unwilling thing happen.. then in 2010.. sdo.. i meet a girl call zhen.. she appear to be very different from what i observe when we are in sdo and skype. mean the time when we firstly met. hm..i start having feeling to her because she give me a very special feeling.. time long already.. dont know why my feeling to her start have some error.. hm.. error in believing each other.. error of laziness, careless.. mean no care.. too cincai.. not serious in love.. not giving each other enough love.. and dont know what is love.. + bla bla bla and more..
i wish her to be healthy, i want her to be good, i hope she can look nice.. [i feel so selfish for all this request] asking her to be pretty, this is not only for me, it is for herself too.. all girl want to be pretty.. if she become pretty, i dont earn anything. i always feel overweight people is unhealthy.. i am so scare that she not healthy too.. i want her to be fine always, because she dont want me to be care so i lazy to care already

Unbelievable so you never believe

dont know why suddenly fall in love with this song, it is so damn nice, feel like learning this song.. nah.. lets see my mood.. if fine, i will learn it.. cool man.. it is a japan song actually but it is in english version.. i believe!! nice!!

by the way.. i am here to add up something that i have missed..

last time.. long time ago.. i did a very big mistake.. if i am not wrong.. maybe this is the main cause of everything.. hard to explain.. when i feel so down in relationship.. i have a feeling, tell me that.. make the one you love hates you is better that hurting it. i make a post said that i will make someone hate me so that it will leave me.. i am so wrong about it. after someone know about it, its confidence to me, finish.. maybe is this causing the ending.

believe

believing each other in relationship is really important. no matter it is a lies or what, you should believe every word. never make the one that trust you disappointing. dont know why i just keep feeling disappointing.. i always make it last chance to believe. must believe always

love.. i am so sorry for all those previous post, super duper sorry..

haihz..actually i so love my gf.. just i cant accept everything in her..

aw complicated.. bu xiang write liao..