tao yan ni!! sorry i am so wu liao..

just about to write this post.. but you replied my sms >< i will be very sad if you dont because.. haha.. i just want your sms respond.. show me that you care about it.. maybe i zi yi wei shi..

you know, today i feel so damn happy because razi say this "saya rasa nicol pun suka awak jugak" my heart feel like <3 zi ji shuang ba.. after all of your sms.. i feel like.. i just.. zi ji yi wei shi ba.. i dont know.. feeling 75% down.. 10% fine because i still having fake hope.. 15% disaster..

Nicoles, i dont know what will our feature be.. i really wont expect anything from now on, but i still not giving up until i really make my last try, i will try not to be shy anymore. overcome it and i will make you shy! give me time.. i am just a bit nervous..

sad.. nicoles good night

qi guai de yi tian..

today, is a bit weird day.. and one whole day.. i am thinking of calling your name. i want to call you Nicoles!! thats all.. i feel like myself dont really call you before. i hope i can call you, at least you can feel that i will find you. let you have secure feeling? haha.. i am stupid..

sorry that i am a bit forgetful.. i will say what i remember.. >.< do you notice that i always find you.. i mean always get a chance to go back from factory to office?

Nicole's SORRY i curi ambik

i love this photo so much.. the most close photo of you =( how i wish i can take your photo directly.. maybe in someday ba.. got chance de.. see the two chair that i put for the container? xP i purposely do that. i even adjust the fan for you too, hope you get enough fan wind.. one more thing.. do you remember what i ask and say when you are there?

• i ask, today cleaner got go back early?
• then you keep wondering about my question
• actually the main question is i want to ask.. you what time back?
• after asking cleaner, i so shy and ask.. you leh? what time back..

LOL.. my face turn red >.< NICOLES..!! believe me.. before i give up.. i will try to own you.. but most important is.. relationship for me is not a testing or gaining experience.. i wish for permanent and of course not mian qiang if not good.. nicoles.. =( i feel like sms you tonight.. your few reply will be nice

second time dream of you

darn.. i dont remember completely already..
what i still remember is..
i dream that, everyone is still working in old factory, then, not yet shift to new factory de.. then got few time.. lunch break, you leave quick and early without waiting me.. you just leave without caring me.. i feel like.. where are you.. i want to go.. please allowed me to follow.. the first time you went out, i ask and find you after you leave, but the second time.. i being interrupt by albert..

i think i do really miss you but.. "i can see you everyday, telling that i miss you, this is fucking stupid and idiot right?" maybe you feel annoy and i am so sorry.. this blog i believe i will show you one day in right time.. or maybe not.. or i just keep it forever as a memory of my heart to you.. hm..?

ya, another thing is.. you know why i keep evade or feel shy to you? do you know that i have a very complicated stuff in my life? i dont want to cause any trouble before solving a trouble.. this make me feel stuck.. plus.. i am so so afraid of you.. i scare that you will treat relationship same as liew do.. then i will be like oh shit.. prank me?

i wonder.. am i really love you or what? i really scare to admit this but i dare to say i like you, thats all.. i dont want to make you feel uneasy or same like evade me in work.. feel so sorry because of my shyness and more.. i really nervous while i see you.. i will be brave, i cant be the one that shy.. YOU should shy in front of me, and not me