know, or dont know?

LOL i have mistaken that this week is not a school week :p it is a holiday week.. i always hope to know at least a bit thing about my dear, dont need all, i just wanted her to tell me a bit of some daily life stuff. example i forget it is a holiday week, my dear never really tell me much about her school life. so i never know, i always hope to ask, how is her how is him but.. nah..

last night raven suddenly come to find me in msn, pop-up and say "oi babi are u busy again" because i am setting my status to online.. i am a but opposite.. busy de time set online, online de time set busy =o= wtf.. i dont like to be feel alone when i am busy, like being kacau, thats all.. so sien de if busy de time busy alone..
haha, got one new friend tell me, she want to know more about me but i think next life ba.. no one really know about me, even myself.. even raven start to get far from my thinking already, maybe i have change? or no change? .. i hope someone can really understand me..

carmen, my girlfriend, my beloved one~ in ranking, she is only someone that i love the most, and someone that love me the most, doesnt stack with someone paling understand me or know me. i always feel like she didnt think of my feel me at all for what she wanted me to fulfill de, but i always think of her, hoping her to get the best. current situation, i am very afraid that i cant do dao. okay la~ if i say, i will try my best, if i try my best also, if i fail it, still same..

see the photo? it show a girl scolding a boy, girl look very huge and the boy is tiny, in my mind, carmen and me is like that

i always feel like .. this is us.. very problematic de, sometime if i get fed up..

see? i fed up, this is what it will be like.. mostly, it will same like the first picture de la.. this is my image of we both now.. i never know when will we have peace.. we all have de.. someday..

lala~ i copy something give you see

elric:	must find girl go give me kao kao
Raven:	no need la... u are very into carmen dy. dun pretend la..
elric:	xD so confirm
Raven:	for now, yes. but in the future, dont know.

haha.. so funny =o= she say i pretend because she know i very into carmen liao wont find others LOL recently SDO have a lot but i ignore, i dont into any girl except .. who else? carmen la of course, kakaz

whatever la, i hope she can rasa my post and i dont hope she can rasa ... zzz

it is my another update ;)

everyone will think, it must be something wrong again, or i will not update my blog.. yea, this time, it is a very complicated one, everything is my fault for not getting a suitable job. okay the, dont say about this first. the reason that i want to write this blog is.. my dear wanted to do some small business by finding supplier. she want to do it online and in school. thing is not that easy like i say, find supplier and do? there are a lots of thing that we still need to understand and realize. first, know there progress on how they get customer or sales. we cant just say "oh, i want to do, then let's get it started" i dont even know how can i do it? it is only a small business that dont really earn. small business on net..

don't know why la, every time, i will firstly think about someone first, after that only me so everytime i will be the one that kena squeeze until cant breath. example, i want people to happy so i agree to help, i cant say sorry i cant do it because you will receive a "chou lian" or whatever la, i try my best to help, then can already.

okay now.. i don't feel like i can fulfill her wished for what she want, if me, still have the possibility that i can do it. i still have a bad feeling about this, just like a disaster will happen or what de.. lets pray for it to be settle sooner and quick, by the way i don't believe in god, helpless de when we pray for it. will have more post afterward guar

turning sadness into kindness

turning sadness into kindness
your uniqueness into strength
it's okay to get lost so begin walking
once again, once again

do you like to be praised by
answering everyone's expectations?
will your smile always be beautiful
even if you hide your true self?

just dreaming the beginning then waking up
the continuation can be reached someday by myself

the most important thing is always
without any shape
even if you have it or lose it
you'll never know

turning sadness into kindness
your uniqueness into strength
it's okay to get lost so begin walking
once again, once again

unfair adults are always
giving lectures every time we meet
being unable to show their true selves
they get grouchy as they get hurt

getting the new wind on your side
it's now okay to search for the blue bird

the most important thing is always
without any shape
even if you have it or lose it
you'll never know

turning sadness into kindness
your uniqueness into strength
it's okay to get lost so begin walking

it's natural like the rainbow
that somehow appears after tears
the rain stopped

so the most important thing is always
without any shape
even if you have it or lose it
you'll never know

turning sadness into kindness
your uniqueness into strenght
believeing that you should be able to do it
once again, once again
once again, are you ready?