today.. erm.. last night i said that i am going to sleep early already, but i sleep late.. tonight, i said it again, i must sleep early..today, her message come quite slow and simple.. (i get down easily by normal thing) i think i will have a short post for this. sibling, or family relationship, or some kind of relationship under relative or cousin.. getting well with them, and like them, it is normal right? i dont know.. i just get jealous without reason.. i hate myself..
maybe i am childish, or mind and thinking still not stable.. i get wu hui and offend very easily.. my mood can get down with small thing too. i dont like dont like dont like..so easy feel sad if got little bit problem.. jealous king.. i admit i am very easy get jealous..
just back home from eating ABC with friend at petaling jaya, walao.. rain leh.. actually i dont have much thing to write now but i want to write.. love only cure is love because you lose your love so you need to find it back. some wont need it anymore after losing but some no.. whatever.. losing patient again..
recently, and honestly.. there are not reason for me to hide anything here because this is my blog, and this is my world so i will write all my thing in blue word. i am wondering now, does she know that i am trying to get near her? i wanted to understand her more, i wanted to know her more.. or just say that i want to know her everything. fine then, the first night i didnt get her good night greeting or sms reply, it is just like.. damn it.. end already? it mean, our conversation finish? no more? scare.. i felt very upset and i sleep late.. okay then, after realizing that she give me a message at morning.. i am very relief until i sleep until very late.. middle case now.. i hope that i can have someone to guard.. mean, ask me to do something that it is good and i wont do even if i know
bring water to work
finish my lunch
bring empty bottle back to home after work
use heart to work, dont lazy
quick a bit while doing thing
work hard
go to bath after work, dont bath late
take care my face well
save more money
drink more water
sleep early
dont online so much
want someone to memorize me all this, or want her to tell me this. i can give hundred percent confirmation i will do. dont know why, i feel like, i only will listen what she ask me to do.. huh? weird.. i am a very stubborn guy, i dont listen to anyone and i dont do what people say.. i only will listen what she say. weird right.. she can control me. in horoscope, i can count as a hunter and she is a beast. horoscope explanation is very accurate and true. =====hold on a second, searching for horoscope detail=====
These two both have flaming passions, and a sense that life is an adventure to be celebrated. Dating involves play and possibly travel, with (me) drawing (her) outdoors and soon both are glowing with fresh fire in the cheeks. Falling in love makes them feel even more alive. The athletic Sadge stirs the lion out of laziness, and into the game of pleasure.
Trouble begins if (her) suspect that the Archer is an equal opportunity lover. (her) jealousy is a bad fit with the (me) pursuit of varied experience in romance. Their fires burn differently -- (her) is ignited by concentrated attention, and Sadge's sparks cover a lot of ground, in an ever-widening fire zone. In a relationship, both are social, but Sadge travels further afield. Sadge needs to keep moving, and feel free to follow life's lead. If (her) feels lonely and unappreciated by the busy (me), trouble ensues. Sadge's need for freedom conflicts with the (her) desire to be swept up in an epic romance. Sadge can be a loving partner, but can't be totally devoted in the way (her) wants. A player Sadge with the prideful (her) is a recipe for disaster. It works when a commitment is in place that both value, and the bond is kept fresh through shared experiences. When (her) trusts that Sadge will return, the bond deepens through the many comings and goings. Kids, holidays, animals, friends, parties -- the (her)-Sadge household is vibrantly colorful. As long as they keep laughing, and work through their differences, this pair has a good run.
=====i am back from the thing i search===== i am such a fool.. her is her horoscope, me is my horoscope. just simply search and match. i am so dumb and stupid, very easy get infected by people.. i get offend easily on how a people treat me.. red.. serious word and a very .. i dont know whether.. is there really no one reading here? it is good if yes.. i wanted to get another relationship, and my next target, it will be her.. i dont know whether that.. i got wrong choosing her? i start realize that actually distance is not a problem.. the most important is trusting each other and share our feel. share everything even people secret. i dont know about it.. in future who know who am i be with.. maybe i dont have future or i am single.. just try my best to own her. i feel.. there are something very weird.. i start to like her, i like the way she text me or care me. maybe it is friend. i hope to get well and close with her. i want to be another parts of person in her life. cincai la.. write what also no use in here. secret secret..
long time no contact with P already.. i wonder how is her right now.. quite worry and miss her, as friend ;)
