i have chance?

busy with game and relaxing after work.. finally.. i am writing here..
am i running away from truth? the truth of loving you?
or i am just afraid of losing you? ee.. >.<

yesterday, you suppose to be replying me. i mean, responding me.. haha.. i want to see whether.. you caring me or just treating me like colleague.. this morning you make me feel like you so interest in my leaving.. then.. whatever.. i dont feel like leaving anymore.. reason not because of you.. it is because of my family thinggy.. but for you, i can stay too..

nicoles.. i dont want our relationship go so far, then.. i feel like chasing you already.. is there any chance or slot for me? please give me a chance and dont let me bang your door of heart =( it is suffering.. if you give me a chance.. i will one step into you, slowly.. >.< oh..

today.. i feel so tension and blur + shy and tired.. not really in status.. i will TRY my best and make you dong xin, give me a chance.. k? omg.. i am insane..