injuries

i can die because of suffering, i really cant take my breath when i am having this type of treatment, it is stressing me. i am so damn unhappy and sad for that. love at this age will not last, fuck you!! hate this word. i wont agree this type of thing, so fucking shit. nothing is perfect, even god is not perfect if it exist of course. create SINS? wa lan neh.. tonight i want to accompany Carmen for her project stuff, hope she done it quick and early. pity for me, no apology or thanks. of course i dont expect it but do you think it is a bit stupid? nah.. it is very stupid..

sometime there are no choice but to eliminate.. i hate it so i destroy it, i angry it so i kill it.

i love you, so love you

live is so unhappy

since that i dont know how to be a good boyfriend, i think i have no choice already.. i am not going to waste my time on her already. and i am not going to be in relationship anymore until i become perfect.

22june2010
i have decide, i dont want to let myself suffer in hurt anymore. since that i can make my own girlfriend listen to me, i will let go of her and set her free. i believe in future she will have a greater boyfriend or guy that can treat her well, it wont be me anymore, i choose  to surrender..

living like this is very suffering, i dont know whats going onto her at all, and she is not feeling like telling me. relationship is just like.. we are having a net between us. there are still something that we cant share although we together for almost half year or one year.

i hope she will read this someday, to understand what i feel. i cant imagine if i am her, what does she feel. my feeling is so bad now.. she wont know what i feel, never know...

when i feel sad, she will only angry me if i show her i am sad now
if i am angry, she wont ask why and she dont want to know the reason, she only will angry me
everytime when i mood is down, she will only angry me back
she got ask why but just ask, then, nothing..


bu gou guan xin wo

reason is i dont want to feel unhappy anymore
i will treat her as cold as i can, let her let me go
she wont feel any different of me, she will leave me with hatred
she will think i am not good, so she will find a better one in future
treat her cold without love, thats all, it will end

my prediction
for normal people, they will think, whats wrong with you, you are not like always, but to her, she will angry me and leave me

i dont want to feel unhappy anymore    





因为我不知道怎样做一个好的男朋友，我想我已经没有其 他选择..我不想浪费我的时间在她的了。我不打算再在关系，直到我变成完美。

22june2010
我已经决定，我不想让自己蒙受伤害了。因为，我可以作出自己的女朋友听我的，我会放过她，使 她的自由。我相信她在未来将有更大的男友或拉索，可以治疗她的 好，它不会是我了，我选择放弃..

这样的生活是很痛苦，我不知道什么会到她的所有，而她 并没有告诉我的感觉一样。关系就像..我们有我们之间网。还有什么我们办不到的，虽然我们一起分享了将近半年或 一年。

我希望有一天她会读这个，要明白我的感受。我言不由衷之词想一想，如果我是她，她是什么感觉。我现在的感觉是如此糟糕..她知道我习惯的感觉，从来不知道...

当我感到悲伤，她只会生气我，如果我告诉她，我现在很 伤心
如果我生气，她习惯于问为什么，她不要想知道的原因， 她只是我会生气
每次当我心情下，她只回我生气
她问为什么，但只得到了问，那么，什么..

布沟关新禾

原因是我不想再感到不满
我将把她作为冷，因为我可以让她让我走
她惯于我感到有任何的不同，她会留下仇恨我
她会认为我不好，所以她会找到一个更好的未来
她没有爱的冷处理，这就是一切，这将结束

我的预测
正常的人，他们会认为，whats你错了，你总是不喜 欢，但对她，她会生气我，离开我

我不想再感到不满

i am so lonely

who should i find.. walao :'( no one else.. i am very lonely, damn lonely, my only dear that i can choose to be with already dont want to accompany me. doesn't wanted to talk my stuff. i am really going to be crazy if i keep on being this way. being treat by cold way, no one cares or apa apa else la. no one care a damn, the only person i choose don't want me..wasai

online time, no chat with me
sms time, dont want to sms my thing
talk time, dont let me talk
mood no good time, no caring word
sad time, dont care a damn

whatever, good night

the way i feel

when you are online, what i feel is "i am disturbing" or you are busy.. never have a true chat after being together. maybe we only chat when we are playing XDO.. dont treat you like you are online.

in sms.. slowly get influence by someone that treated you in same way. if you are going to reply "then?" "so?" this type of thing, i think i better dont sms you. a simple reply without thinking and caring.

hm.. i already dont know what i should do already.. i want to die, i am suffering, i cant breath, so? then? who cares.. so? i dont care a damn, then? what you want? end post

Xiao mo gui RUII "chaur zhe rui "

introduction, this girl call herself as little devil, because she is little and very naughty xD she is 15years old in this year and she born in 1995. she live in klang, study in hin hua high school, currently single in real life and not available in virtual life. good looking, perfect and great, just a bit immature, might change and improve in future after a true relationship. the reason that i am writing here is to "dot dot dot" her email for facebook and msn is winnie7337@hotmail.com, click here to get to her facebook. she tell me that she is a very clever girl, good in studying and much more, very pro in school. top ten in class. very clever in class, or her classmate are weak? she is sdo player also but very .. slow in improving, dont know why, less focus i guess.

things that good about her, dont care it is lying or what la, believe it if you want =D

• good girl
• clever girl
• kind
• nice to friend
• good to family
• never do bad thing
• wont do something that people hate
• tall
• big
• good looking
• long hair
• lala
• got a bit meat
• like to flirt with boy
• honest
• cute
• pretty
• beautifull
• attractive
• and much more..

did i miss something @@ nah, i am done ;)

things that i write here are 50% real and 50% fake

Still have a long way to go till perfect

my dear have change a lot, and i am very happy about it.
every outing is not a happy dating but the ending was great, every imperfect matters should have a way to solve, every problem that we have, i believe, we can overcome it. my unhappy outing turns out great in ending because we know our problem already.
Carmen realize a lots of problem that she is have already and she is slowing on the path of perfect =) although she still have a long way to go but i will go with her together.
by the way, i hope tonight i can solve one thing again, mean help Carmen get more nearer to perfect and greatest, it need time

lalala by Elric

i feel hurt, very hurt

• being treat like a.. the way she treat her friend is better than me
• doesn't care of your living or dead, think only for own
• never believe her love one, believe her friend more
• no matter what i say, it is just like rubbish to her
• never think of me, what difficulty am i having, and more..
• i have tried my best to be a good boyfriend but i fail