very damn shitting bad me.. i am a very bad person, i am and it is real, dont ask me why, i am so damn reality too, maybe my feeling now is normal but i still think it is bad and not suppose to be so bad.
another thing, yes, i am bad but i am not 100% bad, if i want to be bad, i must be in complete 100% bad. darn it, i hate myself for not being so flirtatious, in real feeling type of it ba. say in real, but with other way to someone. can i do it? no.. i hate.. dislike.. argh!!
bad cannot complete bad, half half, go eat shit, training make perfect, if i want, train make me do, lets see how i change, confidences up up!!
i discuss one thing with my friend today about love and myself, now i know actually i am doing a very sohai thing. i am so damn useless and bad, i dont have to mind and care if i like. i like then i wont care anything, otherwise i dont like then it will be okay. things i dislike effect me a lot on how i think on someone, sien..
from now on, start to be random thinking, make everything come randomly, dont repeat my stupidity already.. i am an asshole leh >< lan diu dao yao si. okay la, just note something down only, will i make post after later? maybe.. see i got what i want to say or not. this post de reason is apologize, dont need forgive, i am stupid, i am wrong, i am bad, i am useless, i will change, i wont repeat, i will be good
today what i want to say de is.. topic is about.. annoying feel given to me by human.. it is myself that feeling annoying? lets see, start with SDO game chatting.. no, wait a minute.. tell you what annoys me or tell how make me annoy?
er.. chatting that write = = or oo or zz this is what related, make me feel annoy.. does this make you all annoy? example of chat
Tearious : hi how are you?
example : i am fine
Tearious : how is your day?
example : okay lo
(this is dont feel like chatting with you, only cincai care you) better dont chat, make me sad nia
example : hi
Tearious : yo! =D how are you?
example : fine
(is this people want to chat?) hate this thing happen everytime
Tearious : oi, today how?
example : = =?
(this is a friend, not those not unknown)
example : hi how are you today
Tearious : haih.. today work so sien..
example : oo..
(?? walao.. oo.. work sien.. oo) annoying.. hate
this is human? now only i know.. not everyone i know are like this, but most are like this.. sometime i really mad and dont care them + ignore them, some only come to say hi then when chat thing, they goes oo.. dont even care a damn.
actually sometime i really need and wants someone that can chat with me always, sms with me always, always let me share my stuff and talk my thing, share its stuff to me too, something like sharing our story and heart, feelings and more.. is this soulmate? things i write here no one will read or see de ba? i really hope and want someone that really care my everything, cheer me up always..
one more thing about stupidity and no brain useless reality eat shit me << girl that i like
kind enough
tomboy and playful, kind also
older than me, not mature but very small in heart, feel younger than me
young, cute, dont need to be pretty
age under 17- schooling, younger than me
now? pretty << know how to think
walao weh.. guy eye must sharp and know how to choose leng girl, leng and nice. type of girl i like before is listed up there. cincai say nia, still got more inner things. bad la me, start choosing girl liao, own also not very leng zai, sien hate angry dislike mad myself and everyone.. no good people liao de in this world, all make me upset, this blog is tell all people you all is making me not happy..
i dont care eh eh eh eh eh @@ this song, nice leh.. everytime read my blog remember listen and read >< today is a very very busy day, actually it is a very moody day too but whatever la.. i dont know whats into me recently.. today i have some talk with my friend about girls, he curious and ask, is girl very important? but why? got girl really nice? to me, i need a girl to accompany always, i want to talk everything with her, i am so lonely and empty. wahaha, my friend ask me, why use "kosong" to describe lonely, it feel very emptiness.. sometime like nothing, to me, it is really nothing. until now, i dont see any girl that will tell me anything about her, and i can tell anything to her. no and dont have. sharing is caring, jealous is caring, argue is caring. without this, it is not love.
i wonder, this world still got human that can let me be with or not, love her very much, wont ignore me, making me annoying and very love me. i need a girl to care and a girl to care me, mind about me and let me mind about her. lalala hate dislike.. hate those people that dont know what i feel and wants, hate those that make me mad when my mood is not good. hate.
love my current blogging feel, a very silent blog to my future girl >< will read de ma? maybe no =p argh.. sien de la think this, so fast dream ><
anything else miss liao forget want to write, hm.. yaya i remember now.. human selfish think own only, sometime do wrong thing only know ask for forgiveness, do wrong, do right back, sometime cannot return liao, then do again la, do a better one, dont fail anymore. sien sei, hate kena ignore, better dont choi me
a very nice song that i have share >< haih~ no one will appreciate and listen ba.. today after lunch, i get a type of strength from.. MYSELF of course LOL sorry god, it is myself, i feel that i always show a very weak me to anyone. i wont get someone to admire me if i always get so weak.
i want to find a good girl, i want to find a girl to love, a true love that wont make me feel alone and lonely, can always make me feel that she is on my side >< i know i will find one but not now.. forever love not easy to find la, if easy find also wont very good ba?
true love ar >< so sampat.. too lonely le ba, today only write this, i will become more stronger!!
everyone have its own life, everybody have own living and entertainment, i am so sleepy now.. actually i dont feel like writing blog already but whatever. i dont know what people think recently, they it is so damn selfish until they dont realize, obvious selfish and dont know actually it is upsetting me..
i say, no one will know what i feel "how you know i dont know your feel" dont act that you know me a lot. my heart is so empty, life is so lonely. i wont have anyone that can always on phone with me, online with me, on outing with me, on heart with me, wont have anymore..
sometime i dont get what my friend mean, sometime my friend dont get what i mean. my friend always say "you dont have girl can die?" not this meaning la..
