It is another day.. again.. =)

everyday i see you, i see you always, and i am so happy because i always see your smile.. i love your laughing and i love you =) i wont force my feel to die, or struggle to own you. i will let everything goes normal, hope nothing bad will happen.. i just wanted to be with you, be beside you.. or somewhere near you.. dont make me worry, let me know you are always okay.. i dont like to see you sick or feeling uncomfortable.. i will always pray for you.. be fine and happy ya?

i really dont know what to do le..
i am your friend.. we always meet.. we talk everyday.. smile and laugh together.. but.. sometime i still feel that you dont really care me at all.. although we meet everyday but i always miss you and think of you.. i really cant stop my love for you.. it get deeper each day too.. be happy, cheer always.. if you are happy.. i am happy.. maybe.. but i really dislike seeing you talking or having fun with other guy.. it make me worry and feel jealous.. most reason is i know you dont have feel to me.. and i cant do anything to make you got feel to me.. this really so depressing.. i always have something to talk with you.. i always think of something to do on you, or talk on you.. but it just cant get reality.. imagination always not real xP i should get reality more.. right?

if i have chance to talk with you right now, and it is a chance that i can talk everything.. i hope i can tell you or talk to you this.. : -

Nicoles.. do you know that i love you so much? i feel sad daily, but i never get depress.. i am sad, because i feel like you dont really care about me lots.. you just treat me like so normal.. but i am the only one that treat you with heart.. i just want you to treat me more better than normal.. i hope you can smile always too when we together.. i really wish to care you de.. but i am so afraid that you reject.. whatever..

suddenly dont feel like writing that anymore..

Some miracle.. just happen

Miracle things that happen..

• injection machine, pvc material

today, i leave the machine run without people taking care of it, i notice that i have been away for more than 1 hours.. and the machine alarm have been rang for around 1 hours too.. pvc material should be burn already when i am away.. but it didnt.. no different and it is so fine like normal.. this is miracle xP

• my lonely sad lunch day

actually, i planned to eat myself today.. i asked someone to buy me two piece of chocolate waffle and bring it to me on lunch.. i will have it myself in factory.. but.. when i am going to be lonely.. something miracle have happen.. my lunch time for today changed!! i went out with my lovely Nicoles >3< we go out together.. just normal outing but i like the feeling so much.. and back time.. she asked me to fetch her back, and before that.. go bank first >< okay she is not my girlfriend.

for me, this is really a miracle thing.. maybe only myself can feel that.. and i know this is god give me de.. maybe god want me to stay strong, dont give up because it is not the time yet.. sometime.. i just dont feel like want it anymore.. it is enough.. i i.. T.T