08-04-2009 what a tiring day, actually i dont even think to have a try on this, i just want to go and look around, accomapany friend to submit form...

see those stupid things? actually i dont even think to have a try and until now i still get some cold water that pour from my mother, i want to talk with her anymore, thats easy, dont need to care her already. no because of anything, i already fed up with her. my father stop his nonsense already but my mother dont, she is still pouring. dont care about what i upload, what i want to do is quick and dont want to waste time already, Cole ask me to fight with the fate i am having, this is what i am going to do. i want my parent to feel regret on what they do to me, how come my salary can be two month of amount? they use on what? they are stupid, i dont even have a work that really can work long for permanent yet and they already start to say i should share my salary to family. my salary not a lot, what they tell me last time is, save your salary for continuing your further study and now they are so scare because the salary that i am having, CANT support my fees for going there and coming back. Cole is really very good already, dont have nothing to say. this morning Cole chatted with me and tell me that he is going to submit his form so he ask me want to join or follow or not. i skip work today just to go to the place and see, my boss must be very mad already.

i wake up at 7am today, thinking of sending Raven sms but type until half way, forget my phone already :( if i am not wrong, i send it late but never mind.. this morning dont have a lots of thing to do, and driver not deliver things today, and boss not around from morning. [i am trying to be strong for anything 24/7 feel like sending sms but i didnt send a lot today even when i got time on phone. sorry Raven, didnt sms you when you are having tuition today.] Cole called me at 11am something, he tell me that he is going today. i ran home at 12pm and ran to secondary school at 12pm.. he is waiting me at school.. he lie me that the time is not enough and he need to start going at 12.30pm he make me walk to school like stupid, it is under the sun and very hot. so then i reach my secondary school. not even have a rest yet then he tell me his uncle not fetching already. go home first and sit KTM. his home is around KTM area only. i rest in his house awhile before going. his mother cook maggi me curry with egg for lunch, not bad actually. after lunch, i got to KTM with Cole and his mother. sit KTM from kepong to kl centre then switch LRT to wangsa maju. it is quite far actually thoungh that it by train. reach wangsa maju already still need to sit buss to taman melati side straight to the area. [possibility is zero percent, what i do is just some acting] when i reach there.. i think no one understand my feeling, it is a negative feeling. i feel some pressure for going there and mixing them up, scare of passing by them or talk with them, you know what call (ni mei you qualification) . when i think of my parent, i will feel like leave me alone please, i dont want to care them already, they are hopeless and useless for me and to me. i like the things that Cole say, let me change the mean and make it is quotes *FIGHT FOR THE FATE, TRY YOUR LUCK* i know the true so what i care? i cant just cry like yesterday because of my weakness, say of crying, the key that lock my tears from flowing already unlocked so you know what it mean. after going there, i come back home using opposite way to kepong, from wangsa maju to kl centre with LRT, from kl centre to kepong by KTM. after coming back to kepong, i rest awhile in Cole house, he show me a lots of thing. i still cant feel any best of vista.. maybe i will change next time. his driving skill is pro!! i mean in game. after some rest in his house, i feel like going back home already because the sky is DARK and it is about to rain. come back home only, mute, diam, they ask what, i ignore what. time not enough already and i want to fast, like what i say [possibility is zero percent, what i do is just some acting] not even really want to try actually. i will offline after this or i just leave my computer on.

Love is a sweet breeze that tickles your feelings when you have closely shut your heart. Love is an unexpected guest that doesn't even knock on the door and just invades your soul witout asking permission.

07-04-2009 baka ELRIC zetsubou

i go out with friend last night
their life now are so happy
i can see their future too, it is bright
yesterday they ask me this and that
i don't know how to answer them
what i am doing now is work
they are studying
they ask me why
i tell them
my parent don't want me to study
that's all
i cant do anything because of them
what they want is
ELRIC work
i feel so useless :'(
very useless :'(

i have chicken rice for my lunch today, i eat it and finish it very quick, done it at 1pm, chatting with Shirley in yahoo messenger. my lunch time is from 12.30pm to 1.30pm i am having much problem in my heart until i really cant take it and cried for few minute, it is really stupid that i know actually i still can cry. Shirley is too confidence with her six sense, she say she know i cried. what the hell, her six sense is fake, she is the one that make me cry, that's why she is confidence with it. although the crying is short, it is quite relief.

i hope my parent can understand
i want my parent to understand
do you all think it is possible?
i already try my best to make them understand
my time now is really short already
i already don't have much time
please

06-04-2009 cracked heart

i went out with friend just now, come back early because they are so busy with their private thing, feel like left out already because they are not telling me what they busy with, went to play snooker not more than ten minute, meeting dismiss. all their life is damn good and happy, unlike me, after this month, i will be jobless. i am so angry with my life, why so useless, why cant i be like them? my result is better than them. my parent? hopeless, hate them forever [say anything, i am a bad son] yeayeayea without them i cant blog here, so what? the more i blog, the harder i rub my eye, shit. my life is totally ruined.

my life is end
i have to give up everything
what i need to do is
see what can i do
and do what i can
or just do nothing

life that no direction or
a life that dont have any direction
it is no where that i can go
a parent that is suck
yes, i am a bad son

sien, post end

05-03-2009 the 100post

Time will make you forget me
but time will make me
love you more than before.

My heart longs for you,
my soul dies for you,
my eyes cry for you,
my empty arms reach out for you.

Forget the times
I walked by,
Forget the times
I made you cry,
Forget the times
I spoke your name,
Remember now
your not the same.
Forget the times
I held your hand,
Forget the
sweet things if you can,
Forget the times
& Don't pretend,
Remember now
I'm just your friend.

I had a dream
and it was about you ...
I smiled and recalled the memories we had ...
then I noticed a tear fell from my eyes ...
you know why?
Coz in my dream you kissed me
and said goodbye ...

The way to love anything is to realize
that it might be lost.

Sometimes in love you must accept the fact that
what makes the person you cared about happy
might on the other hand leave you so lonely.

Never say goodbye
when you still want to try.
Never give up
when you still feel that you can take it.
Never say you no longer love a person
when you can't let go..

Love can be trying
and hard to accomplish but
when you have love
always hold it close to your heart
because you never know
when you have to let it go.

Its hard to tell your mind to stop loving
someone if your heart still does.

Sometimes it's hard to love someone
because you're so afraid of losing them

I know in reality we can't be together,
so I just close my eyes and you're right here with me...
in my dreams you're mine forever.

I was reborn when you first kissed me.
Part of me died when you left me.
But now I still live,
waiting for the day you love me.

03-04-2009 you must be very sure to it till it reveal tomorrow

hi, to all blogger, i would like to share you all a very interesting question, this question meaning and answer will be reveal tomorrow night, try ask your friend and other to give response on it if can..

QUESTION
if there are an accident happen and there are only one people that you can save
who will you choose to save

• parent/family father/mother sibling
  
• husband/wife, boyfriend/girlfriend, love one
• choose to die together

. . .

• see them die

i wonder what will you all choose

it is a bit like nonsense, i will tell you all more on next post.

here is my post for today ;)
the long sms that i want to send to her, already been made
my current mood is so damn angry because of my x father
he feel sick, he feel cold, set the fans speed slow and make me feel hot so late he still dont want to sleep!!
nothing to post.. need to cool down, i am hot

02-04-2009 night out alone for air and more, date suppose to be 02-04-2009, late update after 12am

2my letter to resign
my stupid face
another of my stupid face
tired and sleep
see nothing, i am acting
see what? want me to eat you?
dont you ever dare to mess me up
i am so sien, alone only


no one with me
brush brush

SEE THE RED THINGS!!







it is near my house, now only i know
are enjoy playing

02-04-2009 i dont know why i feel speechless

going to bath after making this blog and actually i am going to bath right after work but dont know why that i always forget about it.. promise you all and myself that i will bath right after work ;) actually it is not good that i bath so late because i will get too heaty and fall to sick if i am weak. today working is like normal and i am going to write letter to resign, thanks a lot to Shirley because she is the one that help me get the format for writing a letter to resign. actually it is not format and what i do is just copy ;p actually i want to write own essay but never mind then, i can copy, it is more easy.

i think i am not going to online after i off and make this post because i dont have mood to online ;) i am fine, just dont feel like online so i dont want to force myself. i want to change and be mature, confidence and strong. i dont want to be silly and i want to be serious on everything. i feel like a bit stupid when i think of my stupid and silly act when i chat, it is very immature.. i want to go out tonight no matter what, hopefully after bath.

from my blog, i think will be a lots of people know that i am in love with R, i really dont know why i can in love with her.. or actually i just have some feeling that just like love? the feeling that i am having now is just like a lot of things bugging me!! i feel like explode!! house, life, family, work, course, parent, sibling, love and more.. i keep it in my heart and i feel like stupid now!! i hope i can feel better so much!! this problem really making me feel so down.. i have too much problem in my mind already.. how good if i can have someone to share with, lets have some try.

this is my email msn, ym, skype and more..
invite and search for me
hyikyang@yahoo.com
hyikyang@hotmail.com

i am going to think positively and stay happy always.. i feel like wearing a mask when i say that because i cant think and be happy.. i am totally lost and suck. actually i am going to share something to all blogger today but never mind then.

i think have made a big mistake on something.. dont worry, it is okay

R, do you feel something weird happen to us recently? i feel like nothing to sms with you already.. the sms you send, the sms i reply, the sms i send, the sms you reply.. i feel like a bit different and nothing to sms already.. am i having problem? dont worry, i hope everything can be find because i am going to send you a sms and tell you what i feel and think. R.. the feeling that i am having now is so complicated, i am very confuse and dont know what to do and how.

going to end my post, just scolded my sister, so noisy, talk none stop, just like a machine, cant stop talking for one minute.. though that she is alone and play herself but she still can make noisy. no matter how i nag, it is useless, no air at all.. going to explode.. same like my brother and mother, so noisy..

current time 9.15pm end my post here and now


ELRIC HOO YIK YANG

01-04-2009 first of april, day of making fool

it is first of april, a day that i always hope that i can fool someone when i am small. i remember that i always get fooled by friend because they are really pro, try guess who is them? malay and indian of course, their fooling got control when they are disturbing me. i remember teacher get very mad when we are fooling them too, who care, it is a public fooling day. last year, first of april just like dont exist and today i really hope it can be special for me. i really love this day because it is a day that full or happiness and laughter. for me, i must be happy everything, think positive and more, mind must be always open, hope that i can get more friend in real life and try get more social. i never think of going out with friend and get social when i am on secondary school, even if friend request me to go out, i will reject. all this is real so i am not making fool. i hope i can fool someone on first of april, it is not a type like disturbing, i hope i can make them happy with it. my life is getting more boring and nothing but it is okay. so when should i start to get my stuff, after dying and cutting my hair, i still left some cash, not a lot but i think it is still enough use, use wisely.

(@@)
everything is okay
you need sometime
maybe everything will be okay
it is not like what you think
i know you are okay
be happy
hope that you are fine always

31-03-2009 last day in april and tomorrow will be first of april, lets see who will get fool by me

this morning, when i wake up, it is just like always, online. when i am making my blog post for morning, suddenly i feel like i need to have some change for myself. this is what i say always? so lets see whether am i really changing or it is just for awhile. what change did i make for myself? it is my mind, thinking and my personality. this few day i really feel very day because of my stupid thinking. now i feel like i am more fine than last time, i think positively and try make myself happy always.

this morning i receive a message from ** at 1151 ** tell me that ** it happen quite sudden. i hope everything will be fine soon. what it mean is time. i dont have any experience for it and i dont really know how. what can i say is, no matter what happen, no matter what you feel, there are someone that always care about you. please cheer up.

today my boss ask me to go fish shop to buy 3 size of aquarium. he want small, medium and large. there are no such size for aquarium so i use quite a long time to get it. fish shop is only beside my working place, only few step. i got see some cute fish too >_< must be happy everyday

31-03-2009 last day on march, tomorrow will be april and it will be my last month for working, work hard!!

good morning

it is a morning post

from now on, i will be waking up at 7am

of course i can wake up and no problem

wake up for?

dont want to sleep a lot

having a very blur dream

i know a bit of my dream

i think i am too tired so it is blur

going to work later

ELRIC work hard for the rest of the day

i know i can do it

it is easy

own text

the world that we are living, everyone have their on living way and problem, i dont believe that there are people will have an happy life that doesnt have any problem. even a monk have to worry about their money for praying things, is it? so why must we always think about the problem that we are having? life can be very short, why dont we just ignore it and be happy or try our best to give ourself a happy day and life, everyday, night or everytime. sometime, when a people will feeling down, much or them will have a feeling like sadness or angry.. this problem can be cure by a laugh, or from friend. every human need a friend or someone to be with. for me? family, friend, and who else? i dont talk a lot with my family member, only work and online more, what they say or ask, i will shake my head or point. in work, i dont talk if i dont have the needed or it, i will point, show or write down on a notes. i dont talk doesnt mean i dont like to talk or dont want to talk. i dont have the mood and feeling to talk. yesterday, i dont talk to anyone.. am i sure? herm.. 

30-03-2009 . . .

. . .

feel so sien liao but never mind la, super big and bold post!! actually i already type a long text, mood feeling not good so i rewrite~

. . .

today? a boring day like normal~ it is raining now and i am so bored and hot, make this post and bath later, temperature raising!

. . .

this feel day, i really feel like very tired and sleep, i feel like no matter how long i sleep, how much i sleep, it will be same, sleep.

. . .

end post, baka elric

30-03-2009 what i want?

chapter 7 hunter x hunter
Trauma × Limit × Sweet Trap
Tonpa has placed Leorio and another examinee near hallucinogenic sap. In a dream state, he explains that he wants to be a Hunter to get money so he can become a doctor who doesn't charge for his services. HOO YIK YANG and Killua bond. At the end of the first stage, a man appears to accuse the examiner of being a fake.

chapter 5 yu yu hakusho
HOO YIK YANG's Back
HOO YIK YANG is told by Koenma that he has one final chance to come back to life, but only if someone close to him kisses him within twenty-four hours. Trying to solicit Keiko's aid, Yusuke manages to have Keiko kiss him just before the deadline.

forcing myself to make post again ;) backbone feeling not well
i already add a lots of friend in facebook, much of the people i see, they are more on pet society game more than facebooking.. i add a lot because i want them to help or give some advise, i hope it work and got some respond. only add chinese only. easy to communicate.
i sleep early last night, i wonder she sleep at what time.
i wake up at 7am herm.. i dont have enough sleep, my mood is a bit not good too.. i will scold people :D
time become longer, i feel like still got, it is just like no action or one more step to it, herm..
going to wash up to work later

feel like

almost forget ;p what i want?
[never mind, dont dream] dont feel like listing out, okay then ;)

29-03-2009 good night and sweet dream

chapter 6 hunter x hunter
Steak × Marathon × The Exam Starts
HOO YIK YANG, Kurapika, and Leorio reach the first stage of the Hunter Exam, a seemingly endless forced run through a tunnel leading by the examiner named Satotz. They are befriended by Tonpa, a man taking the exam for the 35Th time, and meet Killua, another entrant. In the end Tonpa betrays Leorio, as Gon and Kurapika go looking for them.

chapter 4 yu yu hakusho
Requirements for Lovers
A house fire means that HOO YIK YANG has to decide between saving the girl he loves most, Keiko, and having any chance of returning to life. HOO YIK YANG chooses to throw his spirit egg into the fire to save Keiko, and in so doing, earns the right to return to life.



good night to everyone, this is my last post for today. it is a very tiring day.. i am forcing myself to make post. no energy to check the blog that i link. i hope i can have a sleep now but i don't wish the arrival of tomorrow. i am so tired now. i feel so suffering sitting here, my backbone is so uncomfortable..

Elric always think of himself on everything, he always ask himself things, he hope that he can answer it but.. he cant. he feel so weak for himself.. in house, parent is the one that making him feel not nice. don't know why his father thinking turn to kind of [omg] hate it so much, cant change anymore. my mother? she cant do anything. Elric need some sleep and rest.

see my photo? i hope i can own original sunglasses.. it is not original at all. i will need a sunglasses in future for driving and more because my eye cant open wide when the light is bright. the contrast and brightness i put for my computer is very low too.. too bright.

have a sweet dream and nice sleep, i will sleep early tonight.. so bored, tired and sleep..

good night

ELRIC HOO YIK YANG

29-03-2009 blog post typed in phone from morning, what a tired day

chapter 5 hunter x hunter
Lies × Truth × Kirikospan
HOO YIK YANG, Kurapika and Leorio continue on the test, arriving at a cabin in the woods. A husband and wife say they have been attacked by beasts, when a beast shows up and kidnaps the wife. Leorio stays to treat the husband's wounds as HOO YIK YANG and Kurapika help the wife. In the end it turns out the couple and the beasts are a family and they find the group worthy of continuing to the next test.

chapter 3 yu yu hakusho
Kuwabara A Promise Between Menspan
HOO YIK YANG discovers that Kuwabara has been forced by a teacher into a policy of strict nonviolence for a week — otherwise his best friend risks losing his job and being unable to support his family. Kuwabara bears the attacks, and when the teacher puts an additional stipulation that he and his friends must get more than 50 points on the next test, HOO YIK YANG helps him study by talking to him in his dreams. The teacher attempts to cheat his way out of the promise by altering Kuwabara's paper, and Kuwabara almost punches him, but HOO YIK YANG calls out for him to stop. The teacher is forced to change the paper back, and Kuwabara's friend keeps his job, with Kuwabara thanking HOO YIK YANG.

i snap this photo from far.. so many stone ;p
what a nice view, i remember Raven say she like this kind of place so i snap some photo from here.. 
this is my relative, not all la, afternoon will be more and easier. i dont know all of them and i dont talk with all of them
this is other family la.. i steal snap. they put flower only. turn christian already.
so smoky.. see the three, i love three
this place is so big and got not a lot people. car got a lot!!
this three so nice >_<
see? i pick it up, i love flower!! smell nice too.. this is for Raven ;p
i wonder where he come from, it is very hot, i hope he is okay. i say the snail la. he is my friend ;)
going back home now, ;) see me in mirror? stupid me
nice view? stop watching me at mirror alreadt xD
15km per hour? damn slow, i will drift!!
on my way back, sien la
until know people, i am in the car, nice?
wuahahaha whats this?
smoke~ making my eye drops tears
remember to give comment to my photo o
nice nice? lazy give caption liao la
kosong? yesterday come liao ma
what it write? huan yin? welcome?
i am driving ;D
stadium!!
you are lucky that you can see my brother, he is lut
you are having bad luck because of seeing me

he is crying? nah~ eye itchy

Good Morning, current time is 5.10am Actually it is really nothing to be scare. Just don't like to go because it is not my own will. I can choose not to go but they will say i grown up already. Great grandfather and great grandmother, this is who i am praying this morning. I don't even know who are them. Every time i will feel very down when i go to those place but i cant choose not to go already, i hate facing those relative, i hate hearing their conversation, i hate them so much! 

I forget to reload my phone yesterday, so regret that i don't care and forget it, can't even give morning message greeting when i wake up. I can't sms too.. I don't know what am i thinking.. 

Current status, i am so angry, my father always purposesly open abit the car window for making my hair turn to just wake up but i already wetted it and make it look okay. Why don't he open it wide if he is cold. I force to lower down my head but still fail to evade those wind. I always look so stupid to my relative and more, all is because my of parent. Can i say it is all their wrong or it is also because of myself No idea. Blogging in phone quite easy. Current time 5.21am 

My hair still get blowed by strong wind, surely look very stupid later, it is not easy for the hair to obey me this morning but my father spoiled it. Still on the way, to a place call hokkien mountain. Almost reach. It is very crowd and a lots of people, the mountain wet and slimy too. Reach the place now, current time 5.25am Got to keep my phone to pocket. 

Back, current time 5.35am phone will be in pocket after few minute. Praying at main place first. My father and others is the type of lame people, i can't snap any photo at the place. Can't say anything, i must like this place, i must like them or i can't stay. Okay then, got to go.. We are the first HOO aka LIU that reach first. 

5.53am waiting all people to reach here, quite lots of youngster come, from LIU relative. Didn't see them before. they should call me big brother 

6am only, so many car! I wonder, are they all hokkien or not really all Here is selangor hokkien cemetry 

7.07am done everythings, got few kid so clever leave the place and come back after everythings ;)

7.28am so hard to snap photo, all so lame, think like i am weird. Of course i will snap some photo. There are few teenager here that will understand i guess. Their education level is high and will be very high. My parent is the most worse, my father mind so lame, he quarrel with my mother because he SCARE to body check then he hear so many relative say they body check every month. He is so shy or must shy to himself of being so childish. 

7.52am going back to home, what a boring day but it is okay la.. Not so bad after all because they have successfull kid to talk. Maybe i will be the one that they talk at afternoon. My father oldest brother ask, still studying I say working then he laugh and turn around say bo siao eng. It is not my fault or it is my fault. Just jia you la, i am still young. Back to home to edit and post blog now. 

8.15am at my house area, searching for reload card.. Suppose to be home, i run out and search for it.. Don't have.. Walking back to home now.

[my own post here]
i am back, want to use a special personality writing here. it is morning, my time now is 9.23am When i walking at the place that i go in morning, suddenly my mind think about myself and life, what should i do, how am i going to make my life feel happy. from now on, i will start to think everything in positive way, try not to feel anything that is not nice. there are nothing that despair right? i must always be happy. i will go out later, hope i can get a reload card later. i cant wait to sms ;)

28-03-2009 working half day at saturday, back from work and bored until now but i am going out at 5pm something or late a bit

chapter 4 hunter x hunter
Decision × Shortcut × Detour
The ship's captain recommends they go towards a tree on the top of a mountain instead of directly at their goal. Leorio takes the bus and the rest head towards the tree. The bus is a trap, so Leorio abandons it and catches up with HOO YIK YANG and Kurapika. Mashu, an examinee they meet, travels with them and then betrays them. They successfully answer a riddle asked by an examiner and move on to the next test.

chapter 2 yu yu hakusho
Koenma Appears
HOO YIK YANG meets Koenma, son of the ruler of the Spirit World, and is given the task of raising a spirit egg that, when hatched, may return him to his body. HOO YIK YANG possesses Kuwabara's body to inform Atsuko about his attempting to come back to life so that his body will not be cremated.

hey, how am i today? it is just like normal. for some post mistake about my day for working.. never mind la.. just a month more. today work half day only.. wuahahahaha nicole scold that stupid boss and i feel so best!! how good if i can scold his stupid act and more, it is my dream..

i have two weird dream today, dont know why or actually i know why? every dream that we have, actually it is what we think. dont know la..

online full day in house after work, so tired and boring~ not playing any game already, feel so boring.. internet so slow and i cant download anything..

going out later, dont know how to use mousse..

shit!!