14-04-2009 my new blog template done, today is a bit normal, just silent and bored a bit, sorry for bugging you..

Tuesday, yesterday the lengzai that i say, he is a young amway member, come from melaka for meeting. what the hell. today? nothing much happen.. or there are something happen. sms with kenny today, a guy from kuci, i mean kuching. going to sleep after making this post. so how is my new blog? no people telling me how is it yet.. sorry for some noisy that make by my pets at bottom, you can mute thier voice and i think i will remove it when i find other nicer things to replace. it is a short post for today :D tired!! is there anything happen to me? why am i showing this image for today post? dont worry, it is fine and okay ;)

RAIN, rain will make someone feel sad and sorrow, do you know why? Rain took away sound, took away our freedom, took away our mood and happiness, rain bring sadness and the feeling of sorrow. We will always hope for rain to stop if we are feeling sad or down, no one will hope for the sadness and down feeling maintain. I am sleepy now, good night and sweet dream..

13-04-2009 ELRIC is me

hi all, it is Monday again, how are you. i feel a bit weird today.. don't know why, it is really weird and i feel like there are something wrong. huh, whats wrong then? i am so confuse x( need to find someone to discuss with but i don't have anyone that is suitable for me to discuss with.. it is not any secret actually. not going to say it out. what did i do actually? never mind. lets see what happen today. today i wake up at 7am just like always, i forget to send my morning greeting sms after wake up.. normally i will send to Raven but this few day i got send to Shirley too. sleep very late last night, why must i create such a stupid quiz until so late at night? waste my energy and time. don't care.. it is no reason. now i remember i send a email to Shirley. i am asking her to try msn. how can i forget about this -_- she is busy today i guess. today this morning in office.. mood is a bit weird.. the driver name mazauki come very late today, he get scold by boss, who care? i hope i can be him ;p i am late everyday but not as late as him. his wife is a secondary school teacher aka ustazah, Islam teacher, cool right? i dont even know about it. he is a very good guy actually. he give me a lots of advise, not like my father. mazauki and my father -_- same age.. i hope mazauki can be my father :D Today boss bring a young leng zai come to office, no work or study, huh.. is him the one that going to take over this company in future? i am so jealous that leng zai ;( he is good and kind, manners is so ichiban. thanks me on everything i helped, say thankiu anywhere too. how i hope i can have this type of manners. i use to be very rude to everyone except kid ;) lunch time, time after work. my warm up meal for dinner today is WHOLE PACK of COOKIES and A BREAD, i done dinner quite well but stomach is a bit BIG!! short post today ;) ya, almost forget, there are a video of me at bottom ;p

12-04-2009 sunday in house, online from morning to night, going out few hour at night, chopstick!!

must update my blog quick because i am trying to create a facebook quiz tonight!! today i feel so boring because i am not going anywhere but staying out. don't have any invitation and all. this morning i am so hungry because i don't have anythings to eat!! how i hope there are someone that can treat me eat something :( ya, there are someone that say she can treat me lunch but she is so selfish. i think she just want to dare me to go out so she say that. a guy get treated a lunch by girl -_- i am so hungry at that time, thanks a lot for saying that you can treat me. the photo that i put is old photo.. not much photo update from me nowadays, change new hairstyle and color already..

i am waiting the day that i can go out with a group of friend or out for a date ;p Sunday is a perfect day for outing ;) the things that i need.. a bag.. a bag that i can use to go out.. when am i going to get one :/ i cant see any selling outside.. still searching it.

going to end my short post, have a nice day to all, good night and sleep dream!!

11-10-2009 good morning!! what the hell!! sleep not well, neck a bit @@, then got a bit flu, stomach feeling not well.. :( what did i eat?? forget....

Dear Mommy,
I am in Heaven now, sitting on Jesus' lap.
He loves me and cries with me; for my heart has been broken.
I so wanted to be your little girl. I don't quite understand what has happened.
I was so excited when I began realizing my existence.
I was in a dark, yet comfortable place. I saw I had fingers and toes.
I was pretty far along in my developing, yet not near ready to leave my surroundings.
I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping.
Even from my earliest days, I felt a special bonding between you and me.
Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you. Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry.
I heard Daddy yelling back.
I was sad, and hoped you would be better soon.
I wondered why you cried so much. One day you cried almost all of the day.
I hurt for you. I couldn't imagine why you were so unhappy.
That same day, the most horrible thing happened.
A very mean monster came into that warm, comfortable place I was in.
I was so scared, I began screaming, but you never once tried to help me.
Maybe you never heard me.
The monster got closer and closer as I was screaming and screaming,
"Mommy, Mommy, help me please; Mommy, help me."
Complete terror is all I felt.
I screamed and screamed until I thought I couldn't anymore.
Then the monster started ripping my arms off.
It hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain.
It didn't stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop.
I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off.
Though I was in such complete pain, I was dying.
I knew I would never see your face or hear you say how much you love me.
I wanted to make all your tears go away.
I had so many plans to make you happy.
Now I couldn't; all my dreams were shattered.
Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all.
I wanted more than anything to be your daughter.
No use now, for I was dying a painful death.
I could only imagine the terrible things that they had done to you.
I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone, but I didn't know the words you could understand.
And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead.
I felt myself rising. I was being carried by a huge angel into a big beautiful place.
I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone.
The angel took me to Jesus and set me on His lap.
He said He loved me, and He was my Father. Then I was happy. I asked Him what the thing was that killed me. He answered, "Abortion.
I am sorry, my child; for I know how it feels."
I don't know what abortion is;
I guess that's the name of the monster.
I'm writing to say that I love you and to tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl.
I tried very hard to live.
I wanted to live. I had the will, but I couldn't; the monster was too powerful.
It sucked my arms and legs off and finally got all of me. It was impossible to live.
I just wanted you to know I tried to stay with you.
I didn't want to die.
Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion monster.
Mommy, I love you and I would hate for you to go through the kind of pain I did.
Please be careful.
Love,

Your Baby Girl

10-09-2009 some photo about me and my day, got friend too but he is too busy, actually i want more photo but done dare to take a lot la, so weird le..

today i get bullied by two people in facebook, i took a quiz say that i am 100% boy, guy and man but they are still saying me girl!! look at my photo!! girl meh!! i am 100% boy, man and guy!! too self confidence :( i am not sure now.. what the hell la!! i will cry if raven agree with them


today use cream to play my hair. i get the cream idea from using hair conditioner. my hair look okay when my hair is like luan but not very. dont know how to describe, see my in kepong then you know but dont, me no make up de ;p


the weather is really very hot!! it is at morning.  know why i wear sunglasses? i cant raise my head up when i am outside. i am forced to wear that sunglasses, cole say i look like ?? forget what already, negative one. my eye so hard to open leh.. i feel so great when i am on sunglasses. i like wearing it and i will wear it everytime if i go out. dont care what i look la, protect my eye.


sorry ban, i want to say it out, it is my blog. so this is cole, a pervert xD dont want to say any negative things about him la, tell you he is pervert enough. his life is pervert life. he is very open minded type too, tell me if you want to friend him. he is so geng and strong. i am taller than him. dont say him la.


this is another me, photo is a bit dark so i am sorry, hahahaha, i like this type of reveal so much if i be an unknown to everyone, by the way, is it okay? i am wearing sunglasses. i think my PC too dark so i cant see by i think you all can see guar? cincai la, rubbish photo


i love this photo so much, this is a very special photo.. a normal view turn special after snapping it down to my phone!! there, i share this to you all. it is in KL centre, i am just like kampung boy la!! i stay in home too much 


i love underground path until die!! it give me anime feeling!! suddenly got supernatural things happen, GOOD!! i feeling like running around and jumping, it is too childish!! i really want to do no matter what. i love it so much!! 


cole is reading magazine, snap his photo when he is concentrating reading but he suddenly look up. he is planning to get a car, anyone that want to know him, tell me.


wa!! i love this so much!! who want to go KL centre with me at night time and hang around in the path!! i want to stay and hang around there so much!! please!! or i go myself but no mood lor.. 


this photo want to delete but forget, not nice, never mind, showed to shirley, hahahaha, so lucky she didnt comment, i show it with the path photo. the blue shirt guy is cole, he need GF 


front, this is my memory and more, i will keep it very well. i steal it from buss and KTM, shh, dont tell anyone, actually it is not suppose to be following me back home. 

back, you can see this two when you come to my house, i am hoping to get this back and i done it. dont come my house. my house so~ not nice la..

page so long already, dont want to write liao. i got one email from shirley about baby abortion, i feel so :( when i read and see, tell me if you want to read and see. it dont take a long time to read so please read it.

10-04-2009 tell you what i dreamed just now and tell you what am i going to go or where i go today, huh, :( so *scare* xp dead la me!! what the hell..

good morning to all, my dream is getting blur?? can i remember?? dreamed something about 2007 this morning, when i wake up, i straight away take the phone and sms what i dream to RAVEN and SHIRLEY they are the first one that know.

go out to shopping with old classmate
ELRIC, MARK, EDISON, THOMAS and JOSEPHINE
they are ELRIC gang of friend
sit behind a group normally

JOSEPHINE is searching a movie
a movie act by takeshi kenoshiro
guy is doing those search
ELRIC is the one that found it
it is ELRIC dream right?

after getting the movie
of course must pay even it is a dream
MARK, EDISON and THOMAS paying
ELRIC just hang around

when MARK, EDISON and THOMAS doing payment
a indian classmate appear
name GILBERT, fat and big
GILBERT bullying and playing with JOSEPHINE
it is my dream
i make MARK, EDISON and THOMAS dont know
just simple bully and playing

after that
snooker? bowling? movie?
gosh, what i know is
i am sleeping on the bed at shopping
i mean i went to sleep
stupid

dream end

later i will be going back to my old secondary school, need some signature from teacher x( guess how long that i didnt back to school? i am walking back to school. tell you what will i do then

wake up
sms raven and shirley
toilet
online
charge phone
write blog
eat
ready everything
change clothe
online awhile more
wait shirley online at work
greet online morning to shirley
chat with shirly awhile
offline
walk go to school
chase by dog
lost my slipper
knock by car
*ding* dead
reach school, search for teacher
get my school SPM result
photostat
sign please!!
then get wack by teacher because dye hair
after done all things
walk to COLE house
standby for KTM, LRT, BUSS
go to KTM
sit to KL centre
lost, omg, dead
from KL centre change to LRT
to wangsa maju
buss to taman melati
throw form
return!!
buss to wangsa maju
go to LRT
sit to KL centre
lost, omg, dead
from KL centre change to KTM
to kepong
reach liao
done everything

wuahahahahahaha i will try to snap some photo of course!! i think i will not be avaible in photo guar? snapping photo will feel weird? wednesday COLE mother follow so i forget about photo snapping, now we two are going so lets see then. have a nice day ;)

09-04-2009 this is what i do today, it is useless actually but i still want to submit it no matter what, i dont care, thanks for your support : )

this is a main form that i need to fill up, read it if you want ;) it is my writing. you will know a lots of things at the picture


i waste quite lots of money for it but it is very worth, Shirley support me for doing this wasting time things :( and Raven is giving me HOPE about it, i feel so touching T_T of course COLE is included on supporting me and accompanying me, all this used RM10 for form


this is a very stupid things, write own address, giving them stamp and wait them post back to us, all this used 75sen for stamp


this pink card is so nice and i like it so much, actually i already make a super big mistake on this pick card, address not capital letter x( all this used 30sen for stamp


today i go to jusco with COLE he is a bit tired so i didnt ask him to walk more.. go to post office, buy stamp and this, cost.. see the amount

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day

Far away, I'm breathing, as if I were transparent
It would seem I was in the dark, but I was only blindfolded

I give a prayer as I wait for the new day
Shining vividly up to the edge of that sea

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

People's hearts change and sneak away from them
The moon in its new cycle leads the boats again

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

Oh, I can see the shore
When will I see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong

And still the journey continues on quiet days as well
The moon in its new cycle shines on the boats again

I give a prayer as I wait for the new day
Shining vividly up to the edge of that sea

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

We are rowing the boat of fate, but the waves keep attacking us
But isn't that still a wonderful journey? Aren't any of them a wonderful journey?

08-04-2009 what a tiring day, actually i dont even think to have a try on this, i just want to go and look around, accomapany friend to submit form...

see those stupid things? actually i dont even think to have a try and until now i still get some cold water that pour from my mother, i want to talk with her anymore, thats easy, dont need to care her already. no because of anything, i already fed up with her. my father stop his nonsense already but my mother dont, she is still pouring. dont care about what i upload, what i want to do is quick and dont want to waste time already, Cole ask me to fight with the fate i am having, this is what i am going to do. i want my parent to feel regret on what they do to me, how come my salary can be two month of amount? they use on what? they are stupid, i dont even have a work that really can work long for permanent yet and they already start to say i should share my salary to family. my salary not a lot, what they tell me last time is, save your salary for continuing your further study and now they are so scare because the salary that i am having, CANT support my fees for going there and coming back. Cole is really very good already, dont have nothing to say. this morning Cole chatted with me and tell me that he is going to submit his form so he ask me want to join or follow or not. i skip work today just to go to the place and see, my boss must be very mad already.

i wake up at 7am today, thinking of sending Raven sms but type until half way, forget my phone already :( if i am not wrong, i send it late but never mind.. this morning dont have a lots of thing to do, and driver not deliver things today, and boss not around from morning. [i am trying to be strong for anything 24/7 feel like sending sms but i didnt send a lot today even when i got time on phone. sorry Raven, didnt sms you when you are having tuition today.] Cole called me at 11am something, he tell me that he is going today. i ran home at 12pm and ran to secondary school at 12pm.. he is waiting me at school.. he lie me that the time is not enough and he need to start going at 12.30pm he make me walk to school like stupid, it is under the sun and very hot. so then i reach my secondary school. not even have a rest yet then he tell me his uncle not fetching already. go home first and sit KTM. his home is around KTM area only. i rest in his house awhile before going. his mother cook maggi me curry with egg for lunch, not bad actually. after lunch, i got to KTM with Cole and his mother. sit KTM from kepong to kl centre then switch LRT to wangsa maju. it is quite far actually thoungh that it by train. reach wangsa maju already still need to sit buss to taman melati side straight to the area. [possibility is zero percent, what i do is just some acting] when i reach there.. i think no one understand my feeling, it is a negative feeling. i feel some pressure for going there and mixing them up, scare of passing by them or talk with them, you know what call (ni mei you qualification) . when i think of my parent, i will feel like leave me alone please, i dont want to care them already, they are hopeless and useless for me and to me. i like the things that Cole say, let me change the mean and make it is quotes *FIGHT FOR THE FATE, TRY YOUR LUCK* i know the true so what i care? i cant just cry like yesterday because of my weakness, say of crying, the key that lock my tears from flowing already unlocked so you know what it mean. after going there, i come back home using opposite way to kepong, from wangsa maju to kl centre with LRT, from kl centre to kepong by KTM. after coming back to kepong, i rest awhile in Cole house, he show me a lots of thing. i still cant feel any best of vista.. maybe i will change next time. his driving skill is pro!! i mean in game. after some rest in his house, i feel like going back home already because the sky is DARK and it is about to rain. come back home only, mute, diam, they ask what, i ignore what. time not enough already and i want to fast, like what i say [possibility is zero percent, what i do is just some acting] not even really want to try actually. i will offline after this or i just leave my computer on.

Love is a sweet breeze that tickles your feelings when you have closely shut your heart. Love is an unexpected guest that doesn't even knock on the door and just invades your soul witout asking permission.

07-04-2009 baka ELRIC zetsubou

i go out with friend last night
their life now are so happy
i can see their future too, it is bright
yesterday they ask me this and that
i don't know how to answer them
what i am doing now is work
they are studying
they ask me why
i tell them
my parent don't want me to study
that's all
i cant do anything because of them
what they want is
ELRIC work
i feel so useless :'(
very useless :'(

i have chicken rice for my lunch today, i eat it and finish it very quick, done it at 1pm, chatting with Shirley in yahoo messenger. my lunch time is from 12.30pm to 1.30pm i am having much problem in my heart until i really cant take it and cried for few minute, it is really stupid that i know actually i still can cry. Shirley is too confidence with her six sense, she say she know i cried. what the hell, her six sense is fake, she is the one that make me cry, that's why she is confidence with it. although the crying is short, it is quite relief.

i hope my parent can understand
i want my parent to understand
do you all think it is possible?
i already try my best to make them understand
my time now is really short already
i already don't have much time
please

06-04-2009 cracked heart

i went out with friend just now, come back early because they are so busy with their private thing, feel like left out already because they are not telling me what they busy with, went to play snooker not more than ten minute, meeting dismiss. all their life is damn good and happy, unlike me, after this month, i will be jobless. i am so angry with my life, why so useless, why cant i be like them? my result is better than them. my parent? hopeless, hate them forever [say anything, i am a bad son] yeayeayea without them i cant blog here, so what? the more i blog, the harder i rub my eye, shit. my life is totally ruined.

my life is end
i have to give up everything
what i need to do is
see what can i do
and do what i can
or just do nothing

life that no direction or
a life that dont have any direction
it is no where that i can go
a parent that is suck
yes, i am a bad son

sien, post end

05-03-2009 the 100post

Time will make you forget me
but time will make me
love you more than before.

My heart longs for you,
my soul dies for you,
my eyes cry for you,
my empty arms reach out for you.

Forget the times
I walked by,
Forget the times
I made you cry,
Forget the times
I spoke your name,
Remember now
your not the same.
Forget the times
I held your hand,
Forget the
sweet things if you can,
Forget the times
& Don't pretend,
Remember now
I'm just your friend.

I had a dream
and it was about you ...
I smiled and recalled the memories we had ...
then I noticed a tear fell from my eyes ...
you know why?
Coz in my dream you kissed me
and said goodbye ...

The way to love anything is to realize
that it might be lost.

Sometimes in love you must accept the fact that
what makes the person you cared about happy
might on the other hand leave you so lonely.

Never say goodbye
when you still want to try.
Never give up
when you still feel that you can take it.
Never say you no longer love a person
when you can't let go..

Love can be trying
and hard to accomplish but
when you have love
always hold it close to your heart
because you never know
when you have to let it go.

Its hard to tell your mind to stop loving
someone if your heart still does.

Sometimes it's hard to love someone
because you're so afraid of losing them

I know in reality we can't be together,
so I just close my eyes and you're right here with me...
in my dreams you're mine forever.

I was reborn when you first kissed me.
Part of me died when you left me.
But now I still live,
waiting for the day you love me.

03-04-2009 you must be very sure to it till it reveal tomorrow

hi, to all blogger, i would like to share you all a very interesting question, this question meaning and answer will be reveal tomorrow night, try ask your friend and other to give response on it if can..

QUESTION
if there are an accident happen and there are only one people that you can save
who will you choose to save

• parent/family father/mother sibling
  
• husband/wife, boyfriend/girlfriend, love one
• choose to die together

. . .

• see them die

i wonder what will you all choose

it is a bit like nonsense, i will tell you all more on next post.

here is my post for today ;)
the long sms that i want to send to her, already been made
my current mood is so damn angry because of my x father
he feel sick, he feel cold, set the fans speed slow and make me feel hot so late he still dont want to sleep!!
nothing to post.. need to cool down, i am hot

02-04-2009 night out alone for air and more, date suppose to be 02-04-2009, late update after 12am

2my letter to resign
my stupid face
another of my stupid face
tired and sleep
see nothing, i am acting
see what? want me to eat you?
dont you ever dare to mess me up
i am so sien, alone only


no one with me
brush brush

SEE THE RED THINGS!!







it is near my house, now only i know
are enjoy playing

02-04-2009 i dont know why i feel speechless

going to bath after making this blog and actually i am going to bath right after work but dont know why that i always forget about it.. promise you all and myself that i will bath right after work ;) actually it is not good that i bath so late because i will get too heaty and fall to sick if i am weak. today working is like normal and i am going to write letter to resign, thanks a lot to Shirley because she is the one that help me get the format for writing a letter to resign. actually it is not format and what i do is just copy ;p actually i want to write own essay but never mind then, i can copy, it is more easy.

i think i am not going to online after i off and make this post because i dont have mood to online ;) i am fine, just dont feel like online so i dont want to force myself. i want to change and be mature, confidence and strong. i dont want to be silly and i want to be serious on everything. i feel like a bit stupid when i think of my stupid and silly act when i chat, it is very immature.. i want to go out tonight no matter what, hopefully after bath.

from my blog, i think will be a lots of people know that i am in love with R, i really dont know why i can in love with her.. or actually i just have some feeling that just like love? the feeling that i am having now is just like a lot of things bugging me!! i feel like explode!! house, life, family, work, course, parent, sibling, love and more.. i keep it in my heart and i feel like stupid now!! i hope i can feel better so much!! this problem really making me feel so down.. i have too much problem in my mind already.. how good if i can have someone to share with, lets have some try.

this is my email msn, ym, skype and more..
invite and search for me
hyikyang@yahoo.com
hyikyang@hotmail.com

i am going to think positively and stay happy always.. i feel like wearing a mask when i say that because i cant think and be happy.. i am totally lost and suck. actually i am going to share something to all blogger today but never mind then.

i think have made a big mistake on something.. dont worry, it is okay

R, do you feel something weird happen to us recently? i feel like nothing to sms with you already.. the sms you send, the sms i reply, the sms i send, the sms you reply.. i feel like a bit different and nothing to sms already.. am i having problem? dont worry, i hope everything can be find because i am going to send you a sms and tell you what i feel and think. R.. the feeling that i am having now is so complicated, i am very confuse and dont know what to do and how.

going to end my post, just scolded my sister, so noisy, talk none stop, just like a machine, cant stop talking for one minute.. though that she is alone and play herself but she still can make noisy. no matter how i nag, it is useless, no air at all.. going to explode.. same like my brother and mother, so noisy..

current time 9.15pm end my post here and now


ELRIC HOO YIK YANG

01-04-2009 first of april, day of making fool

it is first of april, a day that i always hope that i can fool someone when i am small. i remember that i always get fooled by friend because they are really pro, try guess who is them? malay and indian of course, their fooling got control when they are disturbing me. i remember teacher get very mad when we are fooling them too, who care, it is a public fooling day. last year, first of april just like dont exist and today i really hope it can be special for me. i really love this day because it is a day that full or happiness and laughter. for me, i must be happy everything, think positive and more, mind must be always open, hope that i can get more friend in real life and try get more social. i never think of going out with friend and get social when i am on secondary school, even if friend request me to go out, i will reject. all this is real so i am not making fool. i hope i can fool someone on first of april, it is not a type like disturbing, i hope i can make them happy with it. my life is getting more boring and nothing but it is okay. so when should i start to get my stuff, after dying and cutting my hair, i still left some cash, not a lot but i think it is still enough use, use wisely.

(@@)
everything is okay
you need sometime
maybe everything will be okay
it is not like what you think
i know you are okay
be happy
hope that you are fine always

31-03-2009 last day in april and tomorrow will be first of april, lets see who will get fool by me

this morning, when i wake up, it is just like always, online. when i am making my blog post for morning, suddenly i feel like i need to have some change for myself. this is what i say always? so lets see whether am i really changing or it is just for awhile. what change did i make for myself? it is my mind, thinking and my personality. this few day i really feel very day because of my stupid thinking. now i feel like i am more fine than last time, i think positively and try make myself happy always.

this morning i receive a message from ** at 1151 ** tell me that ** it happen quite sudden. i hope everything will be fine soon. what it mean is time. i dont have any experience for it and i dont really know how. what can i say is, no matter what happen, no matter what you feel, there are someone that always care about you. please cheer up.

today my boss ask me to go fish shop to buy 3 size of aquarium. he want small, medium and large. there are no such size for aquarium so i use quite a long time to get it. fish shop is only beside my working place, only few step. i got see some cute fish too >_< must be happy everyday

31-03-2009 last day on march, tomorrow will be april and it will be my last month for working, work hard!!

good morning

it is a morning post

from now on, i will be waking up at 7am

of course i can wake up and no problem

wake up for?

dont want to sleep a lot

having a very blur dream

i know a bit of my dream

i think i am too tired so it is blur

going to work later

ELRIC work hard for the rest of the day

i know i can do it

it is easy

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the world that we are living, everyone have their on living way and problem, i dont believe that there are people will have an happy life that doesnt have any problem. even a monk have to worry about their money for praying things, is it? so why must we always think about the problem that we are having? life can be very short, why dont we just ignore it and be happy or try our best to give ourself a happy day and life, everyday, night or everytime. sometime, when a people will feeling down, much or them will have a feeling like sadness or angry.. this problem can be cure by a laugh, or from friend. every human need a friend or someone to be with. for me? family, friend, and who else? i dont talk a lot with my family member, only work and online more, what they say or ask, i will shake my head or point. in work, i dont talk if i dont have the needed or it, i will point, show or write down on a notes. i dont talk doesnt mean i dont like to talk or dont want to talk. i dont have the mood and feeling to talk. yesterday, i dont talk to anyone.. am i sure? herm.. 

30-03-2009 . . .

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feel so sien liao but never mind la, super big and bold post!! actually i already type a long text, mood feeling not good so i rewrite~

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today? a boring day like normal~ it is raining now and i am so bored and hot, make this post and bath later, temperature raising!

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this feel day, i really feel like very tired and sleep, i feel like no matter how long i sleep, how much i sleep, it will be same, sleep.

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end post, baka elric

30-03-2009 what i want?

chapter 7 hunter x hunter
Trauma × Limit × Sweet Trap
Tonpa has placed Leorio and another examinee near hallucinogenic sap. In a dream state, he explains that he wants to be a Hunter to get money so he can become a doctor who doesn't charge for his services. HOO YIK YANG and Killua bond. At the end of the first stage, a man appears to accuse the examiner of being a fake.

chapter 5 yu yu hakusho
HOO YIK YANG's Back
HOO YIK YANG is told by Koenma that he has one final chance to come back to life, but only if someone close to him kisses him within twenty-four hours. Trying to solicit Keiko's aid, Yusuke manages to have Keiko kiss him just before the deadline.

forcing myself to make post again ;) backbone feeling not well
i already add a lots of friend in facebook, much of the people i see, they are more on pet society game more than facebooking.. i add a lot because i want them to help or give some advise, i hope it work and got some respond. only add chinese only. easy to communicate.
i sleep early last night, i wonder she sleep at what time.
i wake up at 7am herm.. i dont have enough sleep, my mood is a bit not good too.. i will scold people :D
time become longer, i feel like still got, it is just like no action or one more step to it, herm..
going to wash up to work later

feel like

almost forget ;p what i want?
[never mind, dont dream] dont feel like listing out, okay then ;)