19-04-2009 my boring sunday

3:06 AM 

I think i will publish this post on tomorrow night if i got a lots of things to write. I am now downloading few song that i love the most. I already finish reading all Shirley blog post, the post she make is not bad to read with. I am so sleeping now, going to wake up at 8am later or late a bit. Got to hop away, so tired. 

3:47 AM 

Good night and sweet dream, i am going to sleep now, i am so tired, not enough sleep from monday. Bye.. Be right back after few hour. 

7:04 AM 

think of today also sien. Good morning to all. Wash up first. 

7:15 AM 

Feel very weak and not very good right now, only sleep few hours then wake up for whole day online. Feeling sick. I dreamed something, it is very nice but i forget already, what i know about the dream is sweet and happy. You are right, my sleeping time is only few hour but i already dreamed a lots. What i know about the dream is nice, just can't remember how is the dream. Write something later, so tired on phone. 

7:28 AM 

Still didn't do anything for my johor course stuff, what i want actually? Tomorrow Cole say that he is going back to TARC on monday. Write something later. 

7:43 AM 

i am downloading cape number seven to my phone, actually i am thinking of borrowing it but i can download to phone and watch. Downloading it need time because it is 14parts for all in phone format, what should i do now?

8:57 AM

i decided to write my blog post on phone because i can share photo or link very easily if i want, just now i filled up my tarc form for register after getting approve, my mother allowed me but i dont know what my father thinks..

just now my sister throw a chair to me and hit my born part, it is so pain and luckily no bleed, i am so damn mad of course, she end up crying just now. why she throw? it is because i walked near her then she count yat yi sam then throw to me..

see the red part? it look like small problem and pain, a guy like me can hold already very good, i get throwed by  chair okay. try imagine how boy is her. she is just like a boy but she like pretty at very young age already. makeup and what also want. actually i am downloading cape no 7 movie but it failed so i think i have to borrow from Shirley, she say she can borrow me before. i dont know it is nice or not, Shirley seen like very crazying about it so i think it must be very nice, cant wait to watch. after this month and may will tell everyone and solve everythings that bugging me. end my writing here, edit my post later, i will write a post end if i am not going to edit, need to publish it. test some new post way

10:11 AM

x( i dont like to eat porridge and i already scare of eating it because [i got eat porridge everyday for x month] it make me few vomit when i eat porridge T_T i have to eat too because i am so hungry but i can no appetite straight away if it is porridge

see also want to vomit already, edit my post later

12:53 PM

going to bath cold water at 1pm later, offline awhile

4:50 PM

today is so boring!! dont have a lots of thing to do~

Cikgu BM!!

Subject: Cikgu BM

Murid : Selamat pagi, cikgu.
Cikgu : (Menengking) Mengapa selamat pagi sahaja? Petang dan malam awak doakan saya tak selamat?
Murid : Selamat pagi, petang dan malam cikgu!
Cikgu : Panjang sangat! Tak pernah dibuat oleh orang! Kata selamat sejahtera! Senang dan penuh bermakna. Lagipun ucapan ini meliputi semua masa dan keadaan.
Murid : Selamat sejahtera cikgu!
Cikgu : Sama-sama, duduk! Dengar sini baik-baik. Hari ini cikgu nak uji kamu semua tentang perkataan berlawan. Bila cikgu sebutkan perkataannya, kamu semua mesti menjawab dengan cepat, lawan bagi perkataan-perkataan itu, faham?
Murid : Faham, cikgu!
Cikgu : Saya tak mahu ada apa-apa gangguan.
Murid : (senyap)
Cikgu : Pandai!
Murid : Bodoh!
Cikgu : Tinggi!
Murid : Rendah!
Cikgu : Jauh!
Murid : Dekat!
Cikgu : Keadilan!
Murid : UMNO!
Cikgu : Salah!
Murid : Betul!
Cikgu : Bodoh!
Murid : Pandai!
Cikgu : Bukan!
Murid : Ya!
Cikgu : Oh Tuan!
Murid : Oh Hamba!
Cikgu : Dengar ini!
Murid : Dengar itu!
Cikgu : Diam!
Murid : Bising!
Cikgu : Itu bukan pertanyaan, bodoh!
Murid : Ini ialah jawapan, pandai!
Cikgu : Mati aku!
Murid : Hidup kami!
Cikgu : Rotan baru tau!
Murid : Akar lama tak tau!
Cikgu : Malas aku ajar kamu!
Murid : Rajin kami belajar cikgu!
Cikgu : Kamu gila!

Murid : Kami siuman!
Cikgu : Cukup! Cukup!
Murid : Kurang! Kurang!
Cikgu : Sudah! Sudah!
Murid : Belum! Belum!
Cikgu : Mengapa kamu semua bodoh sangat?
Murid : Sebab saya seorang pandai!
Cikgu : Oh! Melawan!
Murid : Oh! Mengalah!
Cikgu : Kurang ajar!
Murid : Cukup ajar!
Cikgu : Habis aku!
Murid : Kekal kami!
Cikgu : O.K. Pelajaran sudah habis!
Murid : K.O. Pelajaran belum bermula!
Cikgu : Sudah, bodoh!
Murid : Belum, pandai!
Cikgu : Berdiri!
Murid : Duduk!
Cikgu : Saya kata UMNO salah!
Murid : Kami dengar KeADILan betul!
Cikgu : Bangang kamu ni!
Murid : Cerdik kami tu!
Cikgu : Rosak!
Murid : Baik!
Cikgu : Kamu semua ditahan tengah hari ini!
Murid : Dilepaskan tengah malam itu!
Cikgu : (Senyap dan mengambil buku-bukunya keluar.)

this is what Raven send me last time, i am still saving it, it is very funny so i think of sharing you all, edit my post later

5:41 PM

i am going out after this post, i dont think i am going to edit my post so i will end it here ;) have a nice day to all and i hope i can have a nice day, bye all~

post end

18-04-2009 What Animal Were You In a Past Life? my answer is

You Were a Dog

You are an excellent companion and a loyal friend.
A good protector, you smell trouble before it arrives.

i get this quiz originally from here, view here before taking this quiz to know your pass, i am a dog ;)

i am viewing her blog, not bad, her post is quite interesting

18-04-2009 my half morning day

8:36 AM
On my way to work, reaching already, write something later.

8:39 AM
Reach office only start to do sweating work, arranging books, continue my yesterday work. Actually i still feel not very good. Write something later.

8:55 AM
Can't write a lot, scare my boss suddenly come in. I add all my TAN sister in facebook already, so happy, don't even know that they are actually online. Write something later.

9:26 AM
Just send a sms to Raven, feel like sending her sms. Quite long time and day i didn't really give her a sms. Continue my work now.

11:04 AM
Is the time passing very slow? I do a lots of things already. Today office hour till 1:00 PM I will bath right away again after get home, after bath i will makeup and do something on my hair. No people asking me go out, no matter how far or how long is it, if someone asked me to go out, surely i will go. Boring saturday and sunday, no invitation to anywhere. It is same, online full day in house. I really feel like joining Shirley activity, it is only once a week and it don't cost me a lot. See how is it first. Boss go out already. Just now i am so happy packing and checking stock with the driver, he is so funny and disturbing. I got to go awhile.

11:55 AM
I love you, this is what i want to tell you. I want you to be mine and you must be mine. I will hold your hand tight, i wouldn't let you go until you say you love me. I will hug you tight until you feel my love or i will hug you forever till you love me. I will kidnap you if you try to stay away from me. I will kill you and myself if you reject my love. I will peek on your every move and step. Give you my affection. If you hate me, if you don't like me, i will kill myself in front of you. I will do everythings you like, things that you don't like, i will not repeat. Be right back, stupid word. This word is for

12:18 PM
So boring! When can i get home and have a cold water bath! I am so hot and sweating now! I like cold water bath so much, it is cold but actually it is really refreshing and nice. I don't really bath a lots of cold water, i will bath with cold water when i feel hot or feel the heat in my body. I wonder what is she doing now, got work? Not sure about it. I will be right back, last pack of paper.

12:56 PM
Saturday office can be nice if a lots of people come, can talk, joke or laugh. I am type of people that smile and laugh easily. Feel like writing stupid things. I want you to be mine so you must be mine, i will tight you up so that you can't run away from me. I will feed you with my mouth. I will bite your lips when i kiss you. Actually i write in on purpose on saying those stupid word, stupid on biting your lip when kiss, tight you up and more. All will make girl hate me. Only girl that like me will not hate or don't like me if they read. I mean ghost girl.

1:13 PM
On my way home to bath, must bath before doing anything or eat lunch, bath first! It is going to rain. Bath cold water. Okay then, on stair now. Bye.

17-04-2009 in facebook world, everyone update can be seen very big and clear, i love facebook

;p i create a name there, can you all see? it is in facebook, i will edit my post if i got something or make new post

17-04-2009 full day story

8:27 AM
Suppose to be on my way to work now but i am still home. I fail to full scan my computer yesterday because got people off the switch when my computer is running. So now my computer is on, will on until i back to home for lunch. I am having too much problem that make me feel like silent. I will try to write out my problem later when i am free. Go to work now.

8:32 AM
On my way to work, my mood is very down and feel not well, i forget i new clerk coming today so i must reach office early. Surely get scold. What a day..

8:43 AM
I like the new general clerk or accountant so much, she will be giving me a lots of freedom at this last few day of my work. What is her name? Her age is around thirty something.

9:01 AM
Away just now so say until her age then stop typing already. Morning will be a bit busy with packing things for delivering so i will be a bit hard to be free. I will write more later, so boring.

9:45 AM
I count this as five day, am i asking how are you and are you fine everyday? Don't really know. Yesterday i have some simple chat with your friend, last night i feel so unhappy. Your friend looks funny but they are serious when they chat with me. I think they will crazy to me if i know them for a long time. Those joke that your friend make really make me laugh out loud, it remind me some old malay classmate. I feel like sending you sms but i scare that you angry. I saw your blog updated yesterday and i ask someone to help me translate, it look like you are having some problem. I hope you are fine. Got to stop my writing awhile.

10:07 AM
I like joking, not fooling. Fooling makes people feel annoying and angry, joking make people laugh and smile. Let's see my joke *my mother always say me view hamsap photo when i see leng lui photo* don't care my joke, it is not funny. I think i am free awhile now. Let me write out my problem. My father is going to announce that he is going to bankrup. My boss is back, write more later.

10:18 AM
He is not back yet. My father is going to announce that he is going to bankrup, he owe too much money until he can't pay back, gamble is the reason. My parent is a bit confuse on what they want and think, they are totally lost. My sister is having a serious headache, always see doctor but it doesn't seen like any change, become worse. People suspect that my sister get disturb by ghost and my mother believe it because my sister cry like ghost screaming for headache. Boss is back.

11:22 AM
Come in store awhile only, see the time! Why the boss not going out! How do i have free time or no boring.. Back to office..

11:32 AM
I take my stuff to store and do because my boss go out already, lazy to face the new staff. Want to be alone. Do my work first. Write something later if can.

1:35 PM
Just finish my lunch and i am on the way to office now. Actually i am really feeling speechless to anyone because the problem that i am having. My parent give a very heavy disagreement to me for study but just now my mother say it is okay and she can let me go. Of course i am a bit shock but it makes me feel any excited and happy. Write more later.

1:41 PM
Should i accept the offer and go to johor? I will call the college after work later, try the quickest way on everythings. Do you think i can study hard for my future? I am a very weak and lazy student last time, my result is very worse in everyone eyes. After Raven saw my subject, she also felt that it is impossible for me to go TARC. The true is they accepted me. Why must i feel so down on everythings that i am having? It is a time to write malay. Saya tak faham, kenapa cara layanan kamu terhadap saya begitu tak selesa. Adakah kerana kamu ingat saya ialah seorang yang suka bermain tak dan serius? Mulai saat ini, saya memberi amaran kepada semua orang, jangan sesekali fikir benda yang bukan bukan terhadap saya. Continue my writing later, boss is back.

3:01 PM
Feel a bit speechless, i will write something if i want later.

3:56 PM
Actually the time pass quite slow for me because i am doing nothing. The new staff call me mister hoo, see how polite is her. If she dare to call me Ah Hor, i will say angrily, why don't you call me Elric or L instead of that stupid name that boss give. I don't think you will read my blog so i will dare myself on writing you here. Whats wrong with you? Am i doing something that make you angry? Or you feel like i am a bit kepoh like how you say? I am just giving some affection as friend, is this what you don't like? I feel like you are angry with me but i don't know what is the reason. The problem that i am having now actually is a bit okay, only your problem. Sometime i will feel a bit scare of sending you sms because i scare you will get mad or angry of me thats why i didn't send you sms from monday. I will try to have some chat with you in facebook. I want to do my work now, write more later.

4:09 PM
Think too much i guess, actually the problem that i am having will be fine and solve by time so why must i feel so speechless. Nowadays i am quite angry with Ron, his mind and thinking is totally corrupted on me. (i am a very pervert guy, i am a sex maniac, i like to flirt with any girl) this is what Ron think about me, actually he is quite * He confirm his thinking is true and he think i am those, ask him if you want, you will know by asking him, a NO from him will explain everythings. His thinking to me is really worse, i dare to write because he don't visit my blog, this is what i know. He don't care a damn on how is my design and gadget arrangement. I didn't say any of his bad things okay. To Raven, i am so sorry for making you read this lots of nonsense. End my writing awhile.

4:30 PM
This only call work, got things to do. Be right back.

4:41 PM
Curi tulang sekejap, sangat letih. Saya sedang mengunakan bahasa melayu. Tak tau kenapa saya selalu memikirkan seseorang, nak jelaskan apa dah belaku. Masa dah tak banyak, kalau saya sudah membuat kepastian nak pergi ke johor dan belajar, saya harap saya boleh berjumpa dengan kamu. Orang yang saya nak jumpa ialah rahsia, cuba teka. Saya akan menanya. Cuma perjumpaan yang biasa, tak bermaksud apa. Saya memang mahu belajar, cuma tak tau dapat atau tidak. Tak apalah, saya nak teruskan benda yang saya buat sekarang. Saya akan cuba tulis sikit benda lagi sebelum saya menerbitkan blog ini.

5:08 PM
I am so hot and stink with sweat now, i will bath right away before online later so this post will publish very late. I will try to bath with cold water. Actually i am people that bath with warm water, i am not weird that people bath with cold water because my skinny grandmother also bath with cold water even she is thin and scare of cold. I am hot now. I am carrying few box of wood to the highest rack. Squeezing some space for books. I will try to write my last word later before i went home bath and publish this.

5:51 PM
On my way home now, must bath first before online. My body so dirty and stink now, no girl will like so must have some bath. Still walking but almost reach already.

5:57 PM
I am home now, write until half way phone no battery. Make my post in computer later. Go to bath now.

Raven!! cold water bathing is killing me!! i feel so nice and great after bathing >_< it is really nice.

16-04-2009 this is a very special sweet memory post

1:37 PM
On my way back to office after lunch, didn't turn off my computer because i am running a full scan of anti virus. My advise, please run a full anti virus scan in every short time. End my writing here, continue later

2:03 PM
Why can't i sleep early every night? I have been sleeping ter late from monday night. I am so sleepy and tired. I can sleep right away if i want but i can't. Tonight must sleep early. I am checking some work in store now, no one in office. I am really very tired and sleepy. Just now my lunch is not bad, finished successfully. Not online? Just now when i am on my way back to house, i saw two school girl looking at me and it make me think of how lucky is Di Lun and a unknown. Actually there are something i want to comment on how lucky is it but never mind. Saya tak pernah menaip blog dalam bahasa melayu, ini kali pertama. Sebenarnya saya tak beberapa suka dengan kaum melayu kerana saya tahu mereka tak suka saya. Saya tak suka orang melayu tapi ini tak bermaksud saya benci mereka. Kawan saya yang bernama Ron, dia benci melayu sampai bahasanya pun tak suka menguna. Dalam pengetahuan saya, kebanyakan melayu in dunia ini memikirkan kaum cina sepatutnya balik her china dan kaum lain yang sama, sepatutnya balik ke negara sendiri. Pemikiran yang mereka ada ini membuat saya rasa sangat marah. Saya rasa banyak dikalangan melayu memikirkan begitu tapi mereka tak kisah atau fikirkannya. Saya dilahirkan di malaysia, bukan china. Cakap tentang malaysia, malay sia maksud melayu asia? Tempat cuma untuk melayu? Tunggu sekejap, saya bukan nak cakap apa benda tak baik, cuma nak jelaskan sikit tentang perasaan tak puas. Saya tahu dua jenis cara menulis bahasa melayu, jenis yang saya mengunakan sekarang ialah jenis original. Jenis yang kedua ialah jenis yang saya paling tidak suka kerana caranya sangat (how do we say rude in malay?) kurang sopan. Sebenarnya saya sudah rasa sangat bosan terhadap melayu yang saya kenal dan jumpa, jenisnya semua sama, tak terima cina atau sedang berlakon nak berjadi kawan. Kamu rasa dunia ini ada melayu yang tak fikir sebenarnya cina sepatutnya balik ke china kerana malaysia untuk melayu? Menipu ialah dosa, saya percaya banyak melayu yang memikirkannya tapi mereka tak kisah. Apa yang saya mahu ialah (be honest, admit that you think that) Harap saya boleh berkawan dengan lebih ramai melayu. Saya ada seorang kawan yang bernama Shirley, dia bergaul rapat dengan melayu macam rakan class saya dulu. Write too much of malay already, i wonder why Ron hate malay so much, i got my reason of hate but Ron reason is a bit different? He hate malay because malay is the one that rob his uncle or bully him? My school life is a bit complicated, being bully in primary school but not in secondary school life. Like what i always say, you have no choice, either being bully by people or join them to be naughty. I got to do my work in office now, i will continue my writing after i finish all my paper work. I will be right back.

2:46 PM
Back awhile to inform and tell you something. I will try to post up my school photo that take by my friend call Josephine, you all will be able to see me wear prefect uniform. You all can see my classmate too, malay is a lot. I hope i remember to post up. Okay then, have a nice day. I will be right back, write more later if i can.

3:12 PM
I am back but only awhile because i still got a lots of office work to do, just receive some delivering. Language that i can write is only english and malay. I hope to learn chinese and japanese. I wonder what my friend going now, my friend Raven, Joey, Ron and other more. Raven, just want to tell you that i really liked you before. I wonder what is the stressfull girl doing now on this time, she still want some space for herself i guess, didn't see her online IM from monday, didn't chat with her from monday. I do something wrong? Did i? Is she mad with me? Don't think so much and sleep early tonight. Okay then, back to my office work and i will be back on phone to write more. It is a nice way to express in phone.

3:35 PM
An ex salesman from my company come to pickup some stock that he order, his name is Willee, much of the people i know got their own english, for people that are not using any english please create one because it is very lame. I will be right back, help him something and continue my work in office. Hope my boss don't come back first, let me finish all my work and write my blog in phone. Okay then, bye.

5:11 PM
My boss come back already so now only write a bit. Waiting to get home, i white day have passed, i feel so white. I will stop my writing now until i get home. Okay then, have a nice day. Not feeling dark because my day is just like a white paper.

i am home now, i am scanning my computer, my brother go off it, you know what i feel? i feel like taking a stick and wack him hardly, break off his leg and hand, stupid kid, no porn no life? he is watching porn with my computer, make me get virus. my sister is crying for headache, so noisy, i already feel so shit then now got so many problem again, i want to scream and call!! what the hell!! just like what i have say on the post i write, i will post up my classmate photo and me.

16-04-2009 hey, my post from morning

On my way to work now.. Blogging in phone, publish on internet on lunch time. Good morning
8:35 AM

I am searching an electronic project in store now, i know it is not in store but my boss will ask me search in store if i say don't have stock. Continue my search
9:03 AM

Start morning only straight way think of lunch, i am so hungry now and it is only lunch time that can feed my tummy. I will be back
9:24 AM

Stupid people ask me to pack things that i already pack, when i can't search, he say it stupidly *this thing you already pack, it is in store* so what? I am searching it in office. Type more things later when i am free
9:29 AM

There are only me that is so free to be on phone writing my blog post for lunch, i am still thinking the title for this post. When will i have more longer free time. Okay then, i'll be back
9:38 AM

That stupid old man, i stay the stock is finish then it mean finish, i know more than you, my memory about those stock update everyday and you only sit in office, what you know? Don't have mean don't have so no matter how i dig, it is nothing
9:47 AM

I feel like driver job is not bad actually, can drive a lot, more freedom and what driver do is deliver things, taxi driver is a bit complicated, need to drive hard. Actually i like driving a lot, i already can drive well on first time, not lying. Be right back
10:28 AM

My boss just go out, i think he go out awhile only, he forget something that need the driver to deliver i guess. The driver stop by at a place to pickup something thats why my boss can meet him up by driving. Don't care about him, he is stupid. I wonder how are you now. You know what so good about blog? It can express with a straight telling without calling your name, no one can really know who if i am saying if i don't reveal. Actually i got something to do now, packing some bulb holder. I need to stop typing now but i feel like writing this so much. You are the best in my heart, never feel that you are alone because there are someone that always care about you, what a funny sentence. I will continue my typing later
10:43 AM

My boss go out already, sms with Raven. I am so hungry now. By the way, is the feeling that i am having now call emo? Actually i don't really know what it mean, my feeling is like down. I am so hungry and boring now. The song that radio is playing now remind me some school time. The song that my phone is playing now make me feel like crying. Stupid song. The mood that i am having, the life that i am passing, it is really feeling not good. This month feel like may for me, i feel like greeting Raven birthday on 25april too. This is a month that feel like may. How are you? Are you fine now? I am so boring. Last night i meet a new friend call Alan, he is 1987 guy that study in university, he is quite funny, check my facebook friend list if you want to know him. I am thinking of playing back harvest moon in computer, i love this game so much. Actually there are reason of why i want to play it back so much, try to feel happy by playing it. I am unhappy? Don't know. What are you doing now? Are you online? My boss will be back some, it is a bit untidy here, tidy up first. I will try to write more before publishing on lunch time
12:07 PM

This is what i like the most, few more minute till the lunch time. I am so hungry now, by the way, is there anyone that mind to share me some way to become heavy? I am tall and light. My friend say i need to train myself to be strong, thin doesn't matter. I don't want to be thin and small because no girl will like. Faster reach my lunch time please.. I want to eat until i can't breath or walk. I am waiting lunch time is store now while my boss wife doing her work in office. Is your lunch time always that late at 1:00 PM? Are you hungry? Must eat a lot and don't make yourself too hungry okay? Take care yourself well. I am going back home now, publish my blog post that write in phone
12:30 PM

15-04-2009 after lunch at work and after work in home

You are right, i am writing this blog in phone now. I forget to charge my phone in lunch time so my battery now left one bar only. Just back to office, boss ask me to search for something in store. You know what am i thinking now? It is.. Choose johor or metro prima? Which one better? Honestly i like johor more, it is one year only, i can stay there and change a new living life. It is impossible that i can go, imagine a bit is enough. For the fees, i think johor will be more cheaper i guess, free eating and stay?? Must read more about it later when get home. Stop typing awhile, time now is 2pm I am back to phone again, boss just went out for tea with supplier, they will be back. The stock in store only will increase, he asked me to arrange those new item, it is crazy. I don't know when will my phone battery finish, i hope i can write until i get back. I so so tired and sleepy now, sleep very late last night. Wash my face awhile, stop my writing here and continue my work current time is 2:25 PM I feel like going back to online now, if i unsubscribe my streamyx and online in cyber, do you think it is cheaper? Of course, it is quite worth if i don't online everyday. I am still thinking about it. Still don't really have time for my blog yet, need to make post and set those gadget. How good if i can sms now, i set my phone to offline mode so that it save more battery. My boss just come back suddenly, he ask me to search edition plus invoice, he say ediden plus, LOL whats wrong with him? Stop my writing awhile, current time is 2.53 PM Actually i am feeling a bit wu liao now thats why i am blogging in phone. My mind is a bit stupid now, thinking of someone. So sleepy! Lets have a nap, arrange things first, current time 3:05 PM boss just go out, now i am alone in office. My phone battery is really drying :( My boss give me some work to do, same like always, arranging.. I am so boring and no mood already! Can't sms now and not sms now. I want to online.. If my boss come back and see i didn't do all the work, surely get scold very badly. Having some daylight dreaming now, do my work first, i will try to back to phone and write something after doing all my work and i hope my boss and her wife will come back late, current time 3:17 PM Just finish all my work, time pass quite slow.. Boss and his wife not back yet, my phone battery really very low now. I feel like playing back HARVEST MOON game.. This game is very meaning full and must work hard on planting things to harvest. I love HARVEST MOON game a lot. *how are you now, didn't sms you for a long time already, didn't see you online too, are you fine? Are you okay? Not going to ask you why and more, i hope you will be back* RAVEN! I send you email yesterday, lets keep on emailling each other okay? Actually i am thinking of mixing my blog with some unrelated post because it will be easier to be manage but i think my blog will be very confuse.. Never mind then, i am not going to mix post. FOR PEOPLE THAT LIKE MY BLOG TEMPLATE, YOU CAN REQUEST ME THE CODE BY ASKING ME IN CHATBOX, I WILL SHARE YOU MY BLOG TEMPLATE BUT YOU MUST RE-EDIT YOUR OWN. I hope my blog will got a lots of visitor, i don't mind that they don't read, i hope they will pass by and give me some message at chatbox, pass by and look around some interesting arrangement. I want to sms you so much but i can't. What time do you think my boss will come back? I am hiding in store now. Each time when i see my phone battery bar, i will feel :( why am i that stupid, why must i hug my phone to sleep. Stop writing awhile, current time is 4pm I am playing basketball just now ;p too bored le la.. Look like my boss went out quite long today ;) i like it. Workers need free time and air, i like this type of boss that go out and leave worker alone. Last two month if i am not wrong, my father say there are an outdoor type of activity learning course that only take three month, i can't go, do you think i can go to johor TARC branch? I hope my boss can come back late a bit because i can sense that they are returning to office. Yesterday COLE suddenly get mad when i blog him out, what the hell going into him? Don't care.. COLE actually is a very funny guy, mature or immature i don't know. His attitude and way in house is really funny, same like me i guess, very playful and talkative. Hope that he can have a happy day and life on TARC, add oil or refuel to him. I am so boring facing phone and think a lots of thing now.. How are you how are you how are you? I can't wait to go home and online, didn't see you online from monday! Uwah T_T my phone say battery low already. My boss is about to come back, current time is 4:25 PM end my phone writing post now. Post will be continue and made in computer. LOL my boss not back yet, current time 5:07 PM got to stop touch phone till i go home now.

i am home now ;) back home only, plurking and blogging!! back home only i hear my parent is having problem already, you know what feel suck the most? back home cant rest and parent got problem.. i dont know how is it, i just know they are having a big financial problem. i need someone to discuss with, i dont know whats wrong with them, what i want now is big problem already.. gamble.. if they dare to effect my life and living, i will run out from house and create my own new life. find a good place that i can work and stay with. the problem is very worse already.. so now.. where is my chance for studying already? no more.. short post.. end it now!! stupid!!

15-04-2009 a post that made in lunch time, it is for.. fun of course

I am typing my blog post in phone now because i don't have anythings to do and boss just went out for his breakfast. Actually i already feel there are something wrong since that you silent or something like lost.. It is quite scary and and making me anxious. It is just a short post for today, i hope i can start promote my blog and ask for people to come visit, give some comment about my blog edit. Although that i don't trust on what i am praying but i am still hopping or praying for everyone. *work hard, don't think a lot of things, be happy and make yourself smile more, don't think that you are kosong without anyone, rest more, take care, eat full a bit* i am typing my blog in phone, will be publish it on lunch. I will edit a bit at lunch time, my lunch post will be write at bottom. Sleep very late last night because i don't feel like sleeping but i am so tired, there are surely a reason that i don't feel like sleeping. Got to stop my typing on phone.. Continue at lunch time, my current time is 11:22 AM current time is 12:08 PM you are right, i am on phone again. Feel so.. boring! Boss just went out, waiting for lunch time now. So many bill that need me to arrange and file in, i am so bored and no mood for it. *how are you? Are you fine now?* current time is 12:15 PM waiting lunch time and.. PHONE NO BATTERY! Continue my writing on PC.

back to home, on PC now.. lunch.. eat rice -- just get OFFERED by TARC

14-04-2009 my new blog template done, today is a bit normal, just silent and bored a bit, sorry for bugging you..

Tuesday, yesterday the lengzai that i say, he is a young amway member, come from melaka for meeting. what the hell. today? nothing much happen.. or there are something happen. sms with kenny today, a guy from kuci, i mean kuching. going to sleep after making this post. so how is my new blog? no people telling me how is it yet.. sorry for some noisy that make by my pets at bottom, you can mute thier voice and i think i will remove it when i find other nicer things to replace. it is a short post for today :D tired!! is there anything happen to me? why am i showing this image for today post? dont worry, it is fine and okay ;)

RAIN, rain will make someone feel sad and sorrow, do you know why? Rain took away sound, took away our freedom, took away our mood and happiness, rain bring sadness and the feeling of sorrow. We will always hope for rain to stop if we are feeling sad or down, no one will hope for the sadness and down feeling maintain. I am sleepy now, good night and sweet dream..

13-04-2009 ELRIC is me

hi all, it is Monday again, how are you. i feel a bit weird today.. don't know why, it is really weird and i feel like there are something wrong. huh, whats wrong then? i am so confuse x( need to find someone to discuss with but i don't have anyone that is suitable for me to discuss with.. it is not any secret actually. not going to say it out. what did i do actually? never mind. lets see what happen today. today i wake up at 7am just like always, i forget to send my morning greeting sms after wake up.. normally i will send to Raven but this few day i got send to Shirley too. sleep very late last night, why must i create such a stupid quiz until so late at night? waste my energy and time. don't care.. it is no reason. now i remember i send a email to Shirley. i am asking her to try msn. how can i forget about this -_- she is busy today i guess. today this morning in office.. mood is a bit weird.. the driver name mazauki come very late today, he get scold by boss, who care? i hope i can be him ;p i am late everyday but not as late as him. his wife is a secondary school teacher aka ustazah, Islam teacher, cool right? i dont even know about it. he is a very good guy actually. he give me a lots of advise, not like my father. mazauki and my father -_- same age.. i hope mazauki can be my father :D Today boss bring a young leng zai come to office, no work or study, huh.. is him the one that going to take over this company in future? i am so jealous that leng zai ;( he is good and kind, manners is so ichiban. thanks me on everything i helped, say thankiu anywhere too. how i hope i can have this type of manners. i use to be very rude to everyone except kid ;) lunch time, time after work. my warm up meal for dinner today is WHOLE PACK of COOKIES and A BREAD, i done dinner quite well but stomach is a bit BIG!! short post today ;) ya, almost forget, there are a video of me at bottom ;p

12-04-2009 sunday in house, online from morning to night, going out few hour at night, chopstick!!

must update my blog quick because i am trying to create a facebook quiz tonight!! today i feel so boring because i am not going anywhere but staying out. don't have any invitation and all. this morning i am so hungry because i don't have anythings to eat!! how i hope there are someone that can treat me eat something :( ya, there are someone that say she can treat me lunch but she is so selfish. i think she just want to dare me to go out so she say that. a guy get treated a lunch by girl -_- i am so hungry at that time, thanks a lot for saying that you can treat me. the photo that i put is old photo.. not much photo update from me nowadays, change new hairstyle and color already..

i am waiting the day that i can go out with a group of friend or out for a date ;p Sunday is a perfect day for outing ;) the things that i need.. a bag.. a bag that i can use to go out.. when am i going to get one :/ i cant see any selling outside.. still searching it.

going to end my short post, have a nice day to all, good night and sleep dream!!

11-10-2009 good morning!! what the hell!! sleep not well, neck a bit @@, then got a bit flu, stomach feeling not well.. :( what did i eat?? forget....

Dear Mommy,
I am in Heaven now, sitting on Jesus' lap.
He loves me and cries with me; for my heart has been broken.
I so wanted to be your little girl. I don't quite understand what has happened.
I was so excited when I began realizing my existence.
I was in a dark, yet comfortable place. I saw I had fingers and toes.
I was pretty far along in my developing, yet not near ready to leave my surroundings.
I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping.
Even from my earliest days, I felt a special bonding between you and me.
Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you. Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry.
I heard Daddy yelling back.
I was sad, and hoped you would be better soon.
I wondered why you cried so much. One day you cried almost all of the day.
I hurt for you. I couldn't imagine why you were so unhappy.
That same day, the most horrible thing happened.
A very mean monster came into that warm, comfortable place I was in.
I was so scared, I began screaming, but you never once tried to help me.
Maybe you never heard me.
The monster got closer and closer as I was screaming and screaming,
"Mommy, Mommy, help me please; Mommy, help me."
Complete terror is all I felt.
I screamed and screamed until I thought I couldn't anymore.
Then the monster started ripping my arms off.
It hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain.
It didn't stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop.
I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off.
Though I was in such complete pain, I was dying.
I knew I would never see your face or hear you say how much you love me.
I wanted to make all your tears go away.
I had so many plans to make you happy.
Now I couldn't; all my dreams were shattered.
Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all.
I wanted more than anything to be your daughter.
No use now, for I was dying a painful death.
I could only imagine the terrible things that they had done to you.
I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone, but I didn't know the words you could understand.
And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead.
I felt myself rising. I was being carried by a huge angel into a big beautiful place.
I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone.
The angel took me to Jesus and set me on His lap.
He said He loved me, and He was my Father. Then I was happy. I asked Him what the thing was that killed me. He answered, "Abortion.
I am sorry, my child; for I know how it feels."
I don't know what abortion is;
I guess that's the name of the monster.
I'm writing to say that I love you and to tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl.
I tried very hard to live.
I wanted to live. I had the will, but I couldn't; the monster was too powerful.
It sucked my arms and legs off and finally got all of me. It was impossible to live.
I just wanted you to know I tried to stay with you.
I didn't want to die.
Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion monster.
Mommy, I love you and I would hate for you to go through the kind of pain I did.
Please be careful.
Love,

Your Baby Girl

10-09-2009 some photo about me and my day, got friend too but he is too busy, actually i want more photo but done dare to take a lot la, so weird le..

today i get bullied by two people in facebook, i took a quiz say that i am 100% boy, guy and man but they are still saying me girl!! look at my photo!! girl meh!! i am 100% boy, man and guy!! too self confidence :( i am not sure now.. what the hell la!! i will cry if raven agree with them


today use cream to play my hair. i get the cream idea from using hair conditioner. my hair look okay when my hair is like luan but not very. dont know how to describe, see my in kepong then you know but dont, me no make up de ;p


the weather is really very hot!! it is at morning.  know why i wear sunglasses? i cant raise my head up when i am outside. i am forced to wear that sunglasses, cole say i look like ?? forget what already, negative one. my eye so hard to open leh.. i feel so great when i am on sunglasses. i like wearing it and i will wear it everytime if i go out. dont care what i look la, protect my eye.


sorry ban, i want to say it out, it is my blog. so this is cole, a pervert xD dont want to say any negative things about him la, tell you he is pervert enough. his life is pervert life. he is very open minded type too, tell me if you want to friend him. he is so geng and strong. i am taller than him. dont say him la.


this is another me, photo is a bit dark so i am sorry, hahahaha, i like this type of reveal so much if i be an unknown to everyone, by the way, is it okay? i am wearing sunglasses. i think my PC too dark so i cant see by i think you all can see guar? cincai la, rubbish photo


i love this photo so much, this is a very special photo.. a normal view turn special after snapping it down to my phone!! there, i share this to you all. it is in KL centre, i am just like kampung boy la!! i stay in home too much 


i love underground path until die!! it give me anime feeling!! suddenly got supernatural things happen, GOOD!! i feeling like running around and jumping, it is too childish!! i really want to do no matter what. i love it so much!! 


cole is reading magazine, snap his photo when he is concentrating reading but he suddenly look up. he is planning to get a car, anyone that want to know him, tell me.


wa!! i love this so much!! who want to go KL centre with me at night time and hang around in the path!! i want to stay and hang around there so much!! please!! or i go myself but no mood lor.. 


this photo want to delete but forget, not nice, never mind, showed to shirley, hahahaha, so lucky she didnt comment, i show it with the path photo. the blue shirt guy is cole, he need GF 


front, this is my memory and more, i will keep it very well. i steal it from buss and KTM, shh, dont tell anyone, actually it is not suppose to be following me back home. 

back, you can see this two when you come to my house, i am hoping to get this back and i done it. dont come my house. my house so~ not nice la..

page so long already, dont want to write liao. i got one email from shirley about baby abortion, i feel so :( when i read and see, tell me if you want to read and see. it dont take a long time to read so please read it.

10-04-2009 tell you what i dreamed just now and tell you what am i going to go or where i go today, huh, :( so *scare* xp dead la me!! what the hell..

good morning to all, my dream is getting blur?? can i remember?? dreamed something about 2007 this morning, when i wake up, i straight away take the phone and sms what i dream to RAVEN and SHIRLEY they are the first one that know.

go out to shopping with old classmate
ELRIC, MARK, EDISON, THOMAS and JOSEPHINE
they are ELRIC gang of friend
sit behind a group normally

JOSEPHINE is searching a movie
a movie act by takeshi kenoshiro
guy is doing those search
ELRIC is the one that found it
it is ELRIC dream right?

after getting the movie
of course must pay even it is a dream
MARK, EDISON and THOMAS paying
ELRIC just hang around

when MARK, EDISON and THOMAS doing payment
a indian classmate appear
name GILBERT, fat and big
GILBERT bullying and playing with JOSEPHINE
it is my dream
i make MARK, EDISON and THOMAS dont know
just simple bully and playing

after that
snooker? bowling? movie?
gosh, what i know is
i am sleeping on the bed at shopping
i mean i went to sleep
stupid

dream end

later i will be going back to my old secondary school, need some signature from teacher x( guess how long that i didnt back to school? i am walking back to school. tell you what will i do then

wake up
sms raven and shirley
toilet
online
charge phone
write blog
eat
ready everything
change clothe
online awhile more
wait shirley online at work
greet online morning to shirley
chat with shirly awhile
offline
walk go to school
chase by dog
lost my slipper
knock by car
*ding* dead
reach school, search for teacher
get my school SPM result
photostat
sign please!!
then get wack by teacher because dye hair
after done all things
walk to COLE house
standby for KTM, LRT, BUSS
go to KTM
sit to KL centre
lost, omg, dead
from KL centre change to LRT
to wangsa maju
buss to taman melati
throw form
return!!
buss to wangsa maju
go to LRT
sit to KL centre
lost, omg, dead
from KL centre change to KTM
to kepong
reach liao
done everything

wuahahahahahaha i will try to snap some photo of course!! i think i will not be avaible in photo guar? snapping photo will feel weird? wednesday COLE mother follow so i forget about photo snapping, now we two are going so lets see then. have a nice day ;)

09-04-2009 this is what i do today, it is useless actually but i still want to submit it no matter what, i dont care, thanks for your support : )

this is a main form that i need to fill up, read it if you want ;) it is my writing. you will know a lots of things at the picture


i waste quite lots of money for it but it is very worth, Shirley support me for doing this wasting time things :( and Raven is giving me HOPE about it, i feel so touching T_T of course COLE is included on supporting me and accompanying me, all this used RM10 for form


this is a very stupid things, write own address, giving them stamp and wait them post back to us, all this used 75sen for stamp


this pink card is so nice and i like it so much, actually i already make a super big mistake on this pick card, address not capital letter x( all this used 30sen for stamp


today i go to jusco with COLE he is a bit tired so i didnt ask him to walk more.. go to post office, buy stamp and this, cost.. see the amount

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day

Far away, I'm breathing, as if I were transparent
It would seem I was in the dark, but I was only blindfolded

I give a prayer as I wait for the new day
Shining vividly up to the edge of that sea

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

People's hearts change and sneak away from them
The moon in its new cycle leads the boats again

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

Oh, I can see the shore
When will I see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong

And still the journey continues on quiet days as well
The moon in its new cycle shines on the boats again

I give a prayer as I wait for the new day
Shining vividly up to the edge of that sea

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

We are rowing the boat of fate, but the waves keep attacking us
But isn't that still a wonderful journey? Aren't any of them a wonderful journey?

08-04-2009 what a tiring day, actually i dont even think to have a try on this, i just want to go and look around, accomapany friend to submit form...

see those stupid things? actually i dont even think to have a try and until now i still get some cold water that pour from my mother, i want to talk with her anymore, thats easy, dont need to care her already. no because of anything, i already fed up with her. my father stop his nonsense already but my mother dont, she is still pouring. dont care about what i upload, what i want to do is quick and dont want to waste time already, Cole ask me to fight with the fate i am having, this is what i am going to do. i want my parent to feel regret on what they do to me, how come my salary can be two month of amount? they use on what? they are stupid, i dont even have a work that really can work long for permanent yet and they already start to say i should share my salary to family. my salary not a lot, what they tell me last time is, save your salary for continuing your further study and now they are so scare because the salary that i am having, CANT support my fees for going there and coming back. Cole is really very good already, dont have nothing to say. this morning Cole chatted with me and tell me that he is going to submit his form so he ask me want to join or follow or not. i skip work today just to go to the place and see, my boss must be very mad already.

i wake up at 7am today, thinking of sending Raven sms but type until half way, forget my phone already :( if i am not wrong, i send it late but never mind.. this morning dont have a lots of thing to do, and driver not deliver things today, and boss not around from morning. [i am trying to be strong for anything 24/7 feel like sending sms but i didnt send a lot today even when i got time on phone. sorry Raven, didnt sms you when you are having tuition today.] Cole called me at 11am something, he tell me that he is going today. i ran home at 12pm and ran to secondary school at 12pm.. he is waiting me at school.. he lie me that the time is not enough and he need to start going at 12.30pm he make me walk to school like stupid, it is under the sun and very hot. so then i reach my secondary school. not even have a rest yet then he tell me his uncle not fetching already. go home first and sit KTM. his home is around KTM area only. i rest in his house awhile before going. his mother cook maggi me curry with egg for lunch, not bad actually. after lunch, i got to KTM with Cole and his mother. sit KTM from kepong to kl centre then switch LRT to wangsa maju. it is quite far actually thoungh that it by train. reach wangsa maju already still need to sit buss to taman melati side straight to the area. [possibility is zero percent, what i do is just some acting] when i reach there.. i think no one understand my feeling, it is a negative feeling. i feel some pressure for going there and mixing them up, scare of passing by them or talk with them, you know what call (ni mei you qualification) . when i think of my parent, i will feel like leave me alone please, i dont want to care them already, they are hopeless and useless for me and to me. i like the things that Cole say, let me change the mean and make it is quotes *FIGHT FOR THE FATE, TRY YOUR LUCK* i know the true so what i care? i cant just cry like yesterday because of my weakness, say of crying, the key that lock my tears from flowing already unlocked so you know what it mean. after going there, i come back home using opposite way to kepong, from wangsa maju to kl centre with LRT, from kl centre to kepong by KTM. after coming back to kepong, i rest awhile in Cole house, he show me a lots of thing. i still cant feel any best of vista.. maybe i will change next time. his driving skill is pro!! i mean in game. after some rest in his house, i feel like going back home already because the sky is DARK and it is about to rain. come back home only, mute, diam, they ask what, i ignore what. time not enough already and i want to fast, like what i say [possibility is zero percent, what i do is just some acting] not even really want to try actually. i will offline after this or i just leave my computer on.

Love is a sweet breeze that tickles your feelings when you have closely shut your heart. Love is an unexpected guest that doesn't even knock on the door and just invades your soul witout asking permission.

07-04-2009 baka ELRIC zetsubou

i go out with friend last night
their life now are so happy
i can see their future too, it is bright
yesterday they ask me this and that
i don't know how to answer them
what i am doing now is work
they are studying
they ask me why
i tell them
my parent don't want me to study
that's all
i cant do anything because of them
what they want is
ELRIC work
i feel so useless :'(
very useless :'(

i have chicken rice for my lunch today, i eat it and finish it very quick, done it at 1pm, chatting with Shirley in yahoo messenger. my lunch time is from 12.30pm to 1.30pm i am having much problem in my heart until i really cant take it and cried for few minute, it is really stupid that i know actually i still can cry. Shirley is too confidence with her six sense, she say she know i cried. what the hell, her six sense is fake, she is the one that make me cry, that's why she is confidence with it. although the crying is short, it is quite relief.

i hope my parent can understand
i want my parent to understand
do you all think it is possible?
i already try my best to make them understand
my time now is really short already
i already don't have much time
please

06-04-2009 cracked heart

i went out with friend just now, come back early because they are so busy with their private thing, feel like left out already because they are not telling me what they busy with, went to play snooker not more than ten minute, meeting dismiss. all their life is damn good and happy, unlike me, after this month, i will be jobless. i am so angry with my life, why so useless, why cant i be like them? my result is better than them. my parent? hopeless, hate them forever [say anything, i am a bad son] yeayeayea without them i cant blog here, so what? the more i blog, the harder i rub my eye, shit. my life is totally ruined.

my life is end
i have to give up everything
what i need to do is
see what can i do
and do what i can
or just do nothing

life that no direction or
a life that dont have any direction
it is no where that i can go
a parent that is suck
yes, i am a bad son

sien, post end