02-05-2009 my baby, bye now and forever

01-05-2009 HOO POH KEONG aka DEREK << he create own english name that have been taken

my father
he born in year 1966, april21 is his birth date
he live in kampung place during his child age till he get married and born me
he is a very hard working guy, he start to work at age 13 or 14 because he cant study well
he work with my grandfather before too
my grandfather work as carpenter in a very big company, salary very high too
he work hard for motor and car
he already plan to buy house at very young age too.. i dont even dare to think about it
he marry my mother at year.. forget.. marry because of having me i guess
my parent dont have love and dont know what is love
their first child is me.. i got a lots of baby photo too.. too sad that i can scan it out
i am the first son in HOO's family
he is a very good father at very first.. he work very hard for family too
his attitude is so suck and i am very angry with him..
i want to stay away from him forever!!
his attitude is so worse!! done, end post.. lazy to write my problem

01-05-2009 labour day dream

try guess what have i dream today? it is a very super weird and stupid dream, need to blog it out quick or i will forget it >_< i am a weak in memorize things. last night sheep went to bed before twelve midnight, almost faint in front computer, too tired. meadow must be sleeping very late or early :/ watching movie and TV show. today must jia you!! jia you meadow!!

my dream for today start with going out and wondering, it is a bit blur too.. cannot see any meadow.. my dream is mainly wanted to have meadow in it but dont have. i am still thinking about my work :( i know i can forget my baby with time.. the dream is walk a lot, something like waiting the dream to start about something.. i went to cybercafe.. slowly i walked to a door and a pretty cybercafe cashier guided me to a dark room.. sorry, about the pretty cashier, she is just a pelakon tambahan, nothing to do with her. when i go in the dark room, there are another door behind the room.. when i open it, it is a link to my store ;) thanks to that guide from the cashier.. suddenly saw the boss and he is shock and happy seeing me return and it labour days too!! i am happy to see back all my baby!! when i went to office, i saw the driver, wuahahahaha!! the dream is a bit nice actually, linked from cyber. the pretty cashier i know her from last two year i guess, last time her face so many tou, now no more already. live very near only. stop her thing. dream end, waked up~

i want to make a super post that shows my baby!!

30-04-2009 last day

I am so happy today, half day more till my last day, i don't feel like snapping a lots of photo but i got a bit miss here. All the stock and book is my friend, i am the one that take care all of them, every scratch that they get i will feel sad, everytime when they need to been deliver, i will say bye to them in my heart. All the stock in store is like my child, i take a very good care of them. Today i have to say good bye and please take care, just call me if you need me and i will always be back to help. My favourite stock of all is books, i will miss them a lot and i will not forget them! They are my heart and soul, part of the important things in my life. As long as i know you are still here and safe, i will be fine. Bye to my baby..

Night post start here, the upper part is a part that i write on morning. Didn't really complete my writing at morning because i am busy with sms and work. My day end so simple today, feel like it haven't end yet. My boss offered me for part time on saturday, i don't want anyone to know that i am not going to study. So hard i make a big lied said that i am going to study, now i am not.

Meadow
We are not harmful to any creature
then why they hurt us?
instead of rain
they pour us bombs
from the helpless sky.
Do not forget my friends
under the grass,
Alexander the Great,
Adolf Hitler, Napoleon Bonapart
and so many heroes are quiet
and they are in a deep sleep.

30-04-2009

Today is my last day for working, i already tell meadow that i am going to countdown with her but my phone credit finish already. Going to reload on lunch time. Today my boss give me a lots of work to do, it is okay because it is what i like to do, hang is store, check stock. So now, last day, let's say something about my work and more. First day of work, sit in office and sms only.. So boring.. Sms with phoenix. Actually a very first, i thought that it will be a very tough job because of those account things, hard to understand but actually it is very simple. Account and those clerk work, i mean i do all the in this company. My boss is a bit regret for not raising my salary, no one will be as qualify as me that can do everything with low salary. I do so many pose of work with only thousand per month. Honestly, i don't believe all the boss will be same like my boss, maybe my boss is too old or something, normal people will never got this ability to stand him, of course i am no problem with him, i quit my job because of a very hard feeling that make me feel so useless. A lots of my friend like phoenix and meadow support me to quit this job because they know i am suffering from feeling useless. Meadow is the one that give me the most courage on resigning, treat you a cup of coffee okay? By the way, i have made a lots of nickname to friend that don't use to call, for me, i call myself as sheep. Things that i am doing now is a things that i do in first time. Checking chart board. I am wondering how is meadow now, want to sms her so much but i can't send out any sms, must dash to phone shop later. My blog post is a bit overload, write something that not suppose to write, say something that not suppose to say. Get crazy when a meadow turn silent. From tomorrow start, i will wake up late everyday, do you think meadow is free to chat with me from morning? Meadow need to work! Can't wait the end of today. I know i can't send out any sms but i am still clicking the send button ;p I will be dashing to phone shop and reload later. Didn't set any timeline for today post, a bit busy so lazy to write out those time. I want to go home and have lunch.

A post made in work time

29-04-2009 Believe

Unable to find any words, I instinctively reached out to touch your shoulder
And you, without saying anything, coldly broke free
Because of a trivial misunderstanding, our young love is giving way
I don't want to see such a sad face

Even though your dream may be dissolving, just don't abandon that smile
It's what keeps my own heart glowing

We swore one day to build the future with our own hands
At any cost, on this planet, no matter where on it you are
And now the two of us stand with pained eyes and glances diverted,
But I believe we'll be able to meet again

The starry sky we used to gaze up at together, where so much light streamed through
All the memories of that still won't fade away

If you really listen for it, you'll begin to hear that phrase
in the melody of the flute that was played

And behind the sky, in the tomorrow my heart depicts,
In that same place, I'll be right by your side once more
Surely we'll be together from now on, plunging ahead through these days
Because there could be a meaning to all of this after all

We swore one day to build the future with our own hands
At any cost, on this planet, no matter where on it you are
And behind the sky, in the tomorrow my heart depicts,
In that same place, I'll be right by your side once more
Now the two of us stand with pained eyes and glances diverted,
But I believe we'll be able to meet again

29-04-2009

actually i am still thinking about it till now, make me think of it everytime when i sms or online, message in bracket send by a friend in sms [Remember x n x who said that u dun really care about frens when u luv somebody? I can see that u r all into luv, even losing two frens at a time, u r still glad bcos ur heart is full wit luv 4 x, u dun bother anything~ u were like that too when u were into x.] am i really that kind of person or actually i am. Ignore my friend because of something, feel very enough if i got someone? So this is what you think to me. X must be the one telling you that i am ignoring everyone, i don't really ignore people, just chat less, the one that i ignore the most is him, none stop talking rubbish about me, every conversation contain a rubbish word. And another things [U dun get what i wrote...? ... x n i r disappearing :/ Last words 4 u is take care... Next time if u r into somebody, dun neglect ur frens too. Lead a gud life.] i feel like x is the one that cause effect on everythings. Next [No... It's not u hv no time to chat wit us... It's u dun chat wit us... U juz tell us about x... Like no topic between u n ur friends anymore... Just x... Can tell but not all the time. This is what neglect means. I say IF, if u failed to get her, ur friends can b ur support n console... But u lost frens when u were after her, n if u failed, nothing left.] is this what Ron tell you or say to you? or actually i am really having problem Ron already dislike me since from x if i am not wrong, keep only discribing the bad me, example always flirt with girl, always chat with girl, always this and that. He should beware on what his finger type before what he think, i ignore him, i got my reason, i don't really ignore other or say other things to other, did i? Joey don't know about it. Don't want to say a lot, Ron, you are so good, good guy that don't backstabing, good guy that don't say bad thing to friend even face to face also didn't say. Sien.

darkness is always the strongest, this is the true and nothing can change the fate that the world will be swallon by evil. There are no hope and future for everything, what should we do or think now is, pray. When will the light bright out? Baka.

Lunch time post.

29-04-2009 MEANINGFUL MSG .........

No Pain No Gain… Accept the Pain, Future will be Fruitful…


Don't feel the work you are doing is pain, because there will be always a reason for that pain or work.


So face the pain, for the pain you face, there will be definitely happiness a head.

29-04-2009

from what have i know from my parent, i can slowly list out a lots of wrong and incorrect way of teaching a child, i even scold them when they dare to nag me, you are right, i am wrong but nag wouldnt work to make me become correct if i am wrong. last night my sister scream and cry for headache, her head is getting serious and more serious. my father say [mai cha liao la] stop crying already!! tomorrow i still need to work, pleased you so many time still keep on crying] isnt crying need comfort? my father or both, scold. they will effect my sister a lot when she grown up. a proper educational for kid is very important, parent is the one that create what attitude that we are having. i have see a lots of kid in my 19years of living, only 18years, make it 19. some kid is really very mature, younger than my sister, the way she talk and move, very mature. kid is still kid, they still need a lots or caring and affection. my brother is a bit corrupted still can help of course. short bla post.

so tired, sleepy and no energy, morning wake up, online one hour, exhausted

28-04-2009 ELric HOO YIK YANG

28-04-2009 ELric HOO YIK YANG
name: HOO YIK YANG, ELRIC, AH YANG, YANG YANG, YOYO, YIK YANG, EL, XIAO YANG YU YANG, MISTER HOO, LIU YU YANG and a lots more
d.o.b: 08th of december 1990
sex: male
location: malaysia, kuala lumpur, kepong, meadow
blood type: O positive
eye colour: brown
hair colour: brown
height: 178 cm
weight: 48kg
hobbies: online, watch anime, sms, singing and more
interest: online, drawing, paper folding, blogging, anime and more
love: meadow
religion: buddhism
race: chinese
speak: english, manderin, cantonese, malay, hokkien, hakka, japanese and more
relationship status: single
flavour: salty
just some boring blog post. I am going to upload a bunch of photo at bottom so please check it out, i will put caption on every photo, photo arrangement is random. Sleep only 3hours from last night. so tired and sleep~
only two people celebrating father birthday, sorry i am not joining it, they sing their own song, blow their own candle, me? eat only
my father very giam siap, cake, one year smaller then one year, opposite~ cincincaicai only la, nothing special, try guess how small is a son cake? wait 08december
my sister cant wait the cake to be potong, she want to eat already, staring at the sweetest part
making wish, [toto, magnum, 3+1D] lai lai lai lai lai, give me a lot money, photo takin on 21april
>_< cute, company de, not mine, cant give you, buy you one next time, it is a puppet lai de o.. got full set, more than 10+ animal i guess
my sister want to play my chatting -_- melayu pun tak tau tulis, mau main chatiing?
alah, dah marah, next time la, next time
see her sui yong, what you want?
you tau malukah? sebagai seorang abang, adik pun tau mop, you tau apa?
so hard working, me how? sit and online only ma >_< i got help
what is she starring at? leng zai?
;p my computer, nothing much to say, rubbish
until now i still cant make it work leh~ haih, how?
my father watching x using my computer, a mouse also dont know how to move, haih, kesian
today i bring this to work, makan la, lu ingat apa
so delicious but not enough. my blog are starting to become dusty even that i update everyday

ELRIC HOO YIK YANG post end

28-04-2009 a very late post that say about my night outing just now and some story

a night post after going out with friend,
i am very lame. Too silent. Didn't get enough social or actually i have been left out.
Everything's that they talk, everyone that they mention, everyone that is here, WHO ARE THEM, this is what i want to ask. I have been totally left out. I am not feeling good about it, i am too silent and don't know everything's. They wouldn't ask me go out anymore, i am extra, they don't really wanted to ask me out, reason that they asked me out today, i live near. Today before two friend reach, there are another one unknown couple, who are them? What i do is mute. All the people that they mention, who they are? How to i call them? Don't really care. If i get along well with them then it will be okay. First, me and Thomas with one couple. After the couple left, another two friend of mine come. Four person. Actually our heart is linked, very close, a strong relationship already build when me are on secondary. They are asking me out to club, hundred dollar something per entry. If they ask me to pay some share to girl, no thanks. I am thinking, i already lose my job, going to club meet up with a bunch of unknown. I am not rich plus i don't have any work yet. Of course i want to go. Let me think about it first. My meadow ;p nothing much to comment about it, simple and normal ;p secret. Another things that i am so speechless, i don't know what to comment now. Meadow say, i can't do anything already so why must i think so much? Why don't i mix her group if i have leave. Be happy with my life, meadow say don't care what people say because it is my living way, i know myself alright then it is enough. Tell you my current time, it is 1:21 AM now. I hate one person so much now, not because of anything, just it don't treat me as human, example (you see what girl also like la) (you always flirt with girl) (you always watch those porn) (you are a hacker) (don't trust Elric, he can hack) > this effect is enough strong (you got a lot girl msn contact) (you flirt a lot) (you always love girl) you know how lazy am i when i chat with this human? Keep on saying all this stuff to me, i can screen shot a log, don't need copy paste. I feel so lazy to chat with him, i don't ignore him. (you always updating blog) it mean what? I go to club with friend, (you go to pub) (pub sure got sexy dancing) (sexy girl) (drunk people or girl) (dark place, alcohol) everyone know alcohol place don't allowed underage even if you drink juice (ya ya ya, don't allowed underage, this place is so many sexy girl dancing and drunk people) i meet one new friend, it is a girl (you always meet new girl as friend) those bracket word, i already tak tahan reading those that written to me. Every time when i chat nicely, he will say a lots of rubbish in bracket, this is how you say a friend? I ignore you because i am enough of your nonsense. Your chatting way really make me ask you (please shut up) if you don't like me, just don't care me a lot, have some normal chat. What you need is, tell everyone i don't treat you as friend anymore, OR ACTUALLY you must know what have you done? Go to people blog and say every time when i visit random girl blog, i will see HYY. Ignoring you got my reason. AND i don't forget friend when i am in love. Current time 1:40 AM head aching. Just tell me, this (i hate you) done, don't need to say me a lots of things. I am so lazy with you, totally different when i newly meet you. Meadow, what i need to do is leave it? Explanation not work anymore. Meadow, HUGS!! Bye all. Good night and sweet dream.

i have a great time playing counter strike with them, hundred of match till very late, the match improve my skill and almost overtake them. i am weak but actually i am sharpening my skill. this world actually is very reality, only the strongest can survive. what i do, i must be strong on everything.

this world actually is very reality, only the strongest can survive > not for gaming but in real life

27-04-2009 Flame of love

Tell me, do you see it? My broken heart
My eyes, in which the shadow is mirrored, tremble as if they were waves

If I slightly closed my eyes, I would wet your sweet lips
Although I go off or can't help starting to run to flee, I am pulled back

Until the edge of the misleading world
Even a lonely dream delicately shines
Flame of love

I'm still, are you searching for it? The sea profoundly distorted
I see, the future that's been thrown away because you put aside its silhouette

Having donated more light the private space withered
By now throwing away the key of the mystery is as at least it is possible to reach it

Desiring the strength to envelop the misleading world
I sadly embraced it
Flame of love

I'll find out heaven there on this earth
Even a lonely dream delicately shines
Flame of love

26-04-2009 I Can Only Call it Love

This crazy feeling that I can only call love
Can't be stopped by anyone else anymore

Your eyes that looked like a lonely summer knew that I had a lover
But, unawares, we were seeking for each other
As if we had found a fireplace at winter

If you call my name in a delirium...
Why do you say 'Sorry'?

Only love is the answer! In this intense affection,
My feelings aren't only a game
I want you now, I want to lock up
Your body and your destiny on my arms

I made a small rose bloom with my lips on your chest
But as the perfume vanishes soon,
This rose will probably wither someday

Even after when you say "See ya"
I plunge into eternal nights... even tonight

Such a secret passion that I can only call love
Even if all the world became my enemy,
I'd snatch you for myself, prying open the future,
And holding you along with all the pain

25-04-2009

9:08 AM
Done something stupid, do you know? Things that you do is wrong, do you know? Do you know, you done something that is very wrong? Sorry. Things that i do, i really don't mean to make anyone feel offend. Things that i have do, can't be erase just that way. Elric, please.

10:13 AM
just knock my forehead on a very hard steel, just a bit scratch, it is okay. If i can repay what have i done by knocking my head now steel, i will knock it as hard as i can but the problem is not that easy to be solve by hurting my own body. It is too much, TOO MUCH! Again, sorry.

10:45 AM
there are too much things that i have done, i don't feel hurt for it, really, just a bit disappointed to myself. This is not the first time but second time, making you feel very offend with a lots of matter that create by me. I am a bit scare that i will done the same thing to the one i like now. I wouldn't let it happen to her and anyone.

11:37 AM
last night i send a message to S, it is just a simple good night greeting sms, i know she is having some difficulty on typing sms so i am not expecting her to greet me back, just hope that she can sleep well and have a good night sleep. The sms that i send her last night got some mistake on word and i don't know about it, i am so sorry for that. Sometime things that i want to write comes up with wrong word. I am quite happy last night because of receiving a bunch of sms from her, each sms tickled me a lot. I wonder is she awake now? She must be sleeping very late last night. I hope she can sleep well. Going to send her sms later. End my writing awhile, got something to do.

24-04-2009

2:11 PM 

just checked S blog on lunch time when i am about to offline. What can i do is, be confidence to myself and don't think something that make me feel down, i don't think it is that difficult to be owned. 

It is impossible for someone to forget something other than we let go of it because things that we already forget, doesn't mean we wouldn't remember it 

3:30 PM 

i am exhausted right now, last night i sleep early then last two night but it is still a very late time. I will get ready to sleep on 11pm every night so that i can have more energy on the next day. It is for the good of my face and health too. I am really very tired now, will collapse very soon. 

3:53 PM 

i really can't hold my tiredness. I am resting myself on the floor now, too tiring. I am thinking of working with my friend, he say he is straight and follow the rules well. He is store manager. I like his style when working because i can be very serious when working too. He is a young successfull guy. I will think about it. 

4:14 PM 

i will not wait you for that long, i don't know whats make you think that you need that long time to let go a problem, there must be some kind of reason behind everythings so that you will think it that way. I have read all your blog post, i remember what you have write, of course i don't expect any answer from you for now. What you need is time. Sometime i try to tell myself that actually the feeling that i am having is not real BUT i just can't stop myself thinking of you. The you in my mind is not a picture, it is a type me feeling that make me think of you. (what i am saying) time can't make my feeling fade, just like what have i posted up before, a week without any sound from you, i am still having the same feeling. (how i write this all out? :/ it s a bit weird) 

5:22 PM 

didn't write a lots of things after lunch. A bit tired and sleepy. I will back right away after get home, splash with cold water. Six day more to go. I am so hot and sweating now. I am stink x( must bath quick after get home. Okay then, got to end my writing now. I will be back on first of may.

24-04-2009 huh? [4440555666888330999666880777744.44477755533999]

9:09 AM
it is a very busy morning for today because i have to pack a lots of thing for school and get ready to be deliver. This morning happen a very silly thing and i just discover it. Tell you what happen and whats wrong in next timeline. Going to do my things now. Work hard.

9:46 PM
I am back :) Tell you what happen this morning until when i discover it in work :p My sister is sick, she caught a cold and having a very serious headache so she is not going to school. Every morning i will give her a kiss because she is so pity :( i give her a kiss on face and hope that she will get well soon, i don't mind that she pass her sickness to me. Today is special a bit, my sister is getting better, she is playing with me too, this morning when i go near and hug her, huh, she pull up the zip on my shirt, want to know how it look like after she pull up?

it is so embarrassing, i don't know how i look like until i feel very hot then only i discover that my sister pulled my zip. Try imagine how i look like and what everyone will think? By the way, i suppose to feel shy but i don't? No one tell me about the zip when i am in home, thats why my sister laugh until so silly. My zip suppose to be this way

never mind :( my sister is pro in disturbing people. Go shopping complex want to bao or sit trolley. Next timeline. 

10:19 AM 

just know that my shoes need to change a new one. The work that i am doing spoiling every shoes that i wear. This is my right shoes.

throw this rubbish away and get a new one!

my left shoes seen to be nothing wrong but still got some spoiled part.

so this is what we called cheap stuff don't last long? I can't change any shoes yet, it still can use. Continue my writing on next timeline. 

10:35 PM 

from now on, i will make myself eat more than what i eat daily. I don't want to be a thin guy. It don't suit anyone. Try guess what i bring to office today.

you are right, i bring egg tart to work. The egg tart look a bit spoil already :( i like to eat it when it is round. Now i have to eat piece by piece. Lunch must eat more. You know what S tell me yesterday? She say she eat only 3 tomatoes for lunch :( is it enough for you? Is it okay? Your lunch time is only three tomatoes, you will be very hungry at early time :( hungry is really bad plus you are working. I can treat you dinner for a very short time but not everyday. Are you making joke and lying me that you eat only that few things? Don't joke please T^T continue my write on next timeline. 

10:53 AM 

yesterday, the things you tell me. Actually it is not because of you so that i say i like older girl than me. Girl that is boyish and older than me is always the type of girl that i like from last time, don't you know? Falling on you create me a test and exam, i have to pass. Be the one you (admit with) thats what i will do. 

11:06 AM 

just have some arm muscle training.

thin is thin, no matter how hard i train, i am still thin. Have you ever heard of paper bone wrapping? Thats me xp This can't be long or much. Staying in home always is really a bad bit, going out alone is better, at least i am not in the cage right? I am thinking of buying a basketball and play it. My three point ball is very accurate, don't play with me. Show you on video if got chance. Few minute length of 100 % accurate three point shot. Sorry for my arm photo. Can you all see my two tahi lalat on my muscle? That mole. Continue next timeline. Want to do some pumping. 

11:34 AM 

[4440555666888330999666880777744.44477755533999] what did i write? It is not the time now, never mind then. Just snap one photo and changed its effect.

How is it? It is a very ugly photo. I will work hard and stop my daily timeline post next week. Next week is my last week in this company. Having some soft cough x( drink more water. Write some later on next timeline. 

11:58 AM 

i am going to spent a long time on this blog post because i got a lots of things need to upload and set. The word soon and set always remind me of her. She got online later? Who will buzz who first if she got online? I am not going to buzz her. I like acting in photo, it is so different from real life. 

see this photo? By my acting skill

eye with anger, full of hatred and the feeling of revenge, LOL childish word.

an emo act, it shows the emo Elric when he is feeling down and more. There will be tears if he is weak.

 i want my lunch time to be now and quick please! Quickly post this up and chat, i got some question want to ask her. I will run out from office later. Stomach feeling weird pulak. One more things, don't judge the me on text, don't compare the attitude of my text attitude in real world. 

12:08 PM 

didn't send any sms to S x( actually i got a lots of things want to chat with her but i scare that she is busy. She might look free on computer and online but it is different when on phone. I use too much time on phone too, got to stop my writing awhile. I will publish this later. I will write something after this timeline if can. 

12:31 PM 

it is time to go back now. Office clock on walk is a bit slow so i can't go out yet, need to wait few more minute. Actually i am not expecting anyone to read my blog because i am not asking anyone to read too. This post is like writing to someone but i don't mind if no one read, this is what i want to write. Okay then, got to go now. Post end, publishing it :p