Loveless reaction

Loveless reaction
to me, giving some reaction to their love is a very important things. it is okay that you don't give any reaction but, not so dumb type? dont even know it self have a kind of ability call "giving reaction to what people have mention/say" being a human, something we might be a bit careless in feelings.. dont know why i just hate "ignore/dont care/not important" love is caring anything..

sometime, i really start getting lazy in this relationship, no more things that i can do anymore. this is a fail relationship. appear to be strong and calm. actually inside is nothing.

in this world, do anyone know that, a boy and a girl can be together without love? i mean a relationship without love. in old time, there are a lots of people marry without love. we can see it in some parent. a lots of parent, actually they dont really have love. marry is just a human progress, building a family is a responsibility in human, unlike now.

you know what i feel when i see this picture? D= i really dont know how to love already. this is a broken relationship. truth. slowly, we wont have any argue anymore, i believe. starting to get boring already. a boring girl that dont like surprise.


what is surprise?
do you think surprise is just like a normal things? to people that doesnt "think" surprise is only a surprise. you know how a surprise be created? human use heart or love to make it, just to let someone feel happy. this is what i know. in my life, tell "you" i have a surprise [it is a dead word] i never wanted to give any surprise anymore because you never want [you will say, you are not romantic] actually you are a very boring person.

i start to realize that, actually my love doesn't really need love anymore. love or not love, actually there are no different anymore. i dont know what bad thing i have in relationshi. 

 actually i really wanted to have a very sweet love and relationship, not like being cold and nothing. you know how lucky am i because i have a girlfriend and i should cherish it a lot.. but i just dont feel like i am that lucky.. maybe it isn't a happy one i guess.. actually relationship now doesn't have any problem. maybe for now.

giving a like in facebook, this is not any bad thing. seriously.

lets say, make example.. you are a type of person that only keep liking people post. and there are a person that like your post too. one day, in status, you say you are sad, in picture, you show your tears, in status, you write "what to do? i dont know" you wish to have comment by human.. but what you get, is only a spamming of like. human only see you, they dont care you. human only likes your status, dont really wanted to care you.

u nvr 1 2 hv conversation wit me, u only tinks 4 ur nid

Lifeless body without soul

black and white, dark and light, devil and angel

do you all curious, why do the black, dark, and devil start first?

i feel that myself have change a lot after being in relationship last november 17
maybe everything really come too fast and sudden.. after being hurt very deep, i promise myself.. if i have the ability, i dont wish to let anyone feel what i feel before.. but why.. i just make people hurt..

my current girlfriend, give me a kind of feel like i didnt care or mind her a lots. i do care her, i do jealous in short time, but not so much. the time i jealous, who will tell out? only jerk. dont know why i just wanted her to be a bit balance in look.

i really hate the way that i think, everything make me feel so unworthy to care and love. in street, i close my eye and point any random place, i can see a better girl. even if i dont need to choose girl, i am not very handsome, i believe there will have girl that choose me. everything just feel so unworth to care so much. my heart is not locked by my girlfriend yet.

i have unlimited patient to wait my girlfriend, but please dont make me feel impossible.. my confidence to you will change. i feel so bored, i wish to love my girlfriend with the way i am, i want to hug and kiss her in public, but i just cant do it.. every time i see people in love, omg, they are so damn fucking sweet.. but not me.. saying a love word, i feel like "bu xiang"

i make myself have so many reason, i use to tell myself, i dont mind how a girl look, i dont need my girl to be how pretty, i dont mind my girl size..

• maybe this time too big?
• or i have enough critiques by people?
• cant feel "an quan gan" because too big? (i cant make a round shape with i hug.. make me dislike it)
• make me feel unchangable?

aw shit.. listed too hurt? honestly i am not this kind of reality people, i hate people saying itself, but they can change better than anyone, whatever i am too much..


you know what.. the feeling of sdo-ing yesterday is quite nice, cant really say it is happy but i like this kind of feel. a feel of freedom i guess. and something. but nothing ba.. sdo is one of my favorite game before until someone spoil it. i train so hard and well just to compete.. but everything change in the end

hm..i shared a song here.. need to talk with people and some talk with my girlfriend

i am a damn shit fucker

hey everyone..long time didnt make post already..
as you know, the blog title say..
there are no more people that can be as useless as me..


i am not a good guy, i am so useless
i dont know what people think, and i dont want to know what people think..
as someone bf, being like this.. i really should die


want to love, bu gan love, want to do, bu gan do..
i so hate myself, why i want to have this kind of feel
a feel of reject or cant accept.. scare being know
dont want to biao da give people see


this few day, i keep all my feel in heart, i dont dare to express out, i so miss but i dont dare to express, but why? i am so afraid..


no reason..?

Two in a row..

lansilanyong

Yesterday, wasn't a nice day.. I hate complicated things. I hate things that is so disturbing my mind. Making me mad and confuse..



Today, this morning wake up.. Feel so.. Then i get up at 8.30am.. The first time i do after get up is sms, then go online, check my pc. Yesterday i put auto shutdown after download complete. Yeah nice.. Hehe. I luf it. Good news, my download complete. Then.. I want to find one empty disc.. Then.. The empty disc inside got other file, then i copy all out, then i . . .



Later afternoon lunch time need to finish my installation quick.. Window xp.. I hope my download file are fine too.. Need 5hours for that download. Shit it.. Haih.. Today late to work.. So long time didn't late to work already, whatever.. Hate coming early so much, no more giving me early work bonus..



Love.. > Dear ar dear.. How do i love you if i don't know what are you thinking ne.. In love and relationship, couple relationship is the most close, mean can talk anythings.. Mean there are nothing to scare, just talk anything straight and honest. Because of your farking heart, i need to keep hide things to talk, slowly it make me feel like nothing more to talk. In our relationship, there are so many problem, maybe you didn't know it because *who care about it* i am not sure about it. I hope i can back to myself and love you like old time. I am sure that you will be more happy. Huhu..



Guan ni pi shi



yesterday, i done my window98 installation already.. That time i am so happy.. But.. Window98 got a very big problem.. Version too old.. Then, i need to download window xp again to upgrade it.. So sien leh keep having this kind of lagging problem.. Whatever..



This morning i buy two pao eat, fresh meat bao. Didn't feel full or hungry. But wanted to eat. Hope can grow fat a bit. Eat eat eat, i hate keep eating.



Wow two post in a row.. Nice.. I hope i can keep up this way.. Yay

lets get up on blogging

Yesterday, is my girlfriend birthday. I admit that i didn't treat her big day seriously yesterday. But i try my best to make her happy althought i know that she is not happy.




I think that, i really love her, and i got heart. But the problem is.. I don't know what is she thinking, and do she understand what i want to tell? Does she try to do something do me? Do she do anything for me?



I don't think that anyone know that i am making post here because i didn't tell anyone about it, no one know i write blog too.. Thats cool, but i should tell some people that i am blogging so that i wont write to myself.



I get so lazy to blog.. Feel so lazy writing here, i have many things to tell but i just can't write here. Maybe those things is so farking so i really can't write here. No feel to write. Not sure. I love my past blogging life..



To my beloved one, i really don't know what to do anymore. How to love you. I feel so uncomfortable in this relationship.. You know i dislike you to eat so much *birthday is special, so can eat* but you still keep eating. You always ask me, *i got thin dao ma?* i don't know how to tell you, i only can say, you no diet how to thin, you didn't eat less how to thin. Basic things. A human, didn't eat a lot, is impossible to fat, include, a human eat a lot, can thin? Common sense.



Question, you believe what you see, or you believe what you hear? I keep listening good thing, but i keep seeing bad thing. Do you think, i will believe what i hear, than i see? Hm.. Natural human thinking, see de, is real de.



I hope i can get bigger, i want to turn fat. Or, actually i hate hungry.. I want to eat anytime, if can. I want to have anything to eat at anytime so that i wont hungry.. Hungry make me feel turning thin..



Thats all i want to write, thank you =D





guan ni pi shi?



Shit.. Today i download window 98 to install.. I hope my installation will be fine.. 256 mb ram computer, oh fark.. So shit slow.. Then boss pc.. Reformat it jar.. oOo my house got that window7 dvd, original is boss dvd but now it is mine.. Wahaha! Anything else.. Thats all.. Ya and! I hope i can build my boomz character become strong >< but.. Just hope.. Done.. Haha !

sohai

it is for what? and what is it for?

purpose..  what is my purpose.. living like this is for what? honestly i feel so empty, but not all the time of course. need someone to share my thing, can let me tell everything. i repeat this two or more times already in my post, always having this kind of problem, i never find one.

bla!! people like me is not qualified, i say already right. not worth to be care.

hang this blog to draft, fuck!!

Lazy dao..

Long time no write blog le.. now keyboard stick le sticker.. feel "bu shu fu" while typing.. Ouch.. me yi lai dou shi type of people that hate got things "kacau dao" i feel so bu shuang because my keyboard make me cant type freely..

its been awhile since the last day i write something at my blog.. i am so lazy and sien le to blog because.. quit too long i guess.. in this long time, many thing have happen, i miss a lot of thing that i need to write here..

in this long time, i hope i can search for new love.. ya.. finally i found one..

she is from klang again.. leave in bandar botanic, near bukit tinggie and bandar puteri..

honestly, she is not my type i guess.. i need more time to be with her.. cant concentrate much on her.. lack of many feel and things.. huhu

short post =D

low confidence

wo shi yi ge zi xin xing hen di de ren, wo bu hui xiang dao ren hui xi huan wo, you de hua dou shi jia de. wo dui zhe ge shi jie hen xian shi le, xi huan wo de ren yao gen wo hen da de xin xing, rang wo jue de ni de fu chu shi zhen de. wo ke neng ye yi dian ci dun ba ying wei dou bu hui zen yang cha bie zhen jia. wo hen xi wang ke yi de dao ren de ai, hen xi wang ke yi ai, dan shi, wo hen pa qu ai, wo bu gan le.. wo xiang yao yi ge zhen shi de gan ching, wo hen xiang ren guan xin gen kan dao wo de chuan zai. bu xiang zai ji mo, hen tao yan ji mo yi ge ren.. zui jing zhen de hen luan, wo hen xiang bu yao zai xiang le, dan shi mei ban fa.. bu dao wo bu xiang, mei ci yi ge ren, wo jiu hen ji mo le, ru guo you ren pei wo, wo jiu hui gen zhe ta, xi wang you ren pei huo zhe wo pei ren ye yi yang, tao yan. bu neng yi ge ren, hui si ma? bu zhi dao.

short post

i get a mistake after knowing the truth?

i wake up very early this morning just to check my phone see whether am i receiving any message from someone. unfortunately no.. so i went to online at 6am something if i am not mistaken.. last night i have meet a girl in sdo, she give me quite friendly de feel and she is very nice. she told me a lots of thing that make me feel weird and curious. i am weird, how come first time play facebook will know a lots of thing. this is what i weird at first. about her detail and info, i am super curious, things she say is different from what i observe..
morning, i suddenly think of something, yesterday she told me that she added me in msn already. "i saw her email in facebook, it is different from what she use to add me in msn" suddenly, i have two email of her. so then, i use her email to do some research, i found her original facebook account. thats so, i feel a bit sad already. i found her blog too, saw few picture of her, with her dear.. this is not right. just a bit upset about everything

i think i dont want le, what also dont want le, i feel so suffer

people nowadays, i really sad and hurt.. heart breaking

maybe all of this is not a coincidence, give me discover liao is also better than being lie. yesterday, in game, i know one girl from cheras, suddenly got interest with her because she is so nice and friendly. i dont know i should believe her or not so i didnt say anything yet.. i really thing i found one already.. but no.. i want to see you explain. no mood writing here

bo tong, shi hao de ma?

wo zai xiang, xian zai zhe yang, hen zhu gou le ma? zhe shi ni xiang de? wo shi zai xiang, yao bian de, gen jia hao, yi ci yi ci de hao. yao hen jie jing jie jing de. you xie ren shi bu hui ming bai mou xie dong xi. you xie dong xi yao shi qu cai hui zhen xi. hen duo dou hui bian dao tai ci le, too late. everything is too late until you know that it is important to cherish. never want a thing to be normal. a very short post. gan jue bu gou de.

live only myself

this morning, i wake up at 8.50am if i am not mistaken.. then i quickly go to brush my teeth and adjust my hair. every morning my hair will be like hell.. huh.. so it is fine.. then, when i want to change my clothe.. oh my god.. now i know all my shirt is very small.. i hate wearing small clothe, it feel uncomfortable.. all because i am poor, thats why. hate to be this. so then, this morning, when i go to work, the boss are like "something wrong" kan wo bu shun yan. this is true, i am not joking. i still havent counter his word, he is so damn fucking shit. next, boss wife, the way she treat me is making me more mad. looking down on me? what the fuck.. i am cursing them to die. the end~

another case.. if it is not necessary, i wont tell my happiness or unhappiness to people already, i hate getting fucking respond

wo hen xiang.. ni xiang ma? hai you qi ta..

1. gen ni yi qi
2. mei tian gen ni xin xi
3. mei tian jian dao ni
4. mei tian gen ni liao dian hua
5. mei tian kan dao ni de xin xi
6. mei tian ting dao ni dui wo shuo wo ai ni
7. hen xiang gen ni qu yue hui
8. hen xiang ban mei mei gei ni kan
9. hen xiang yao ni hen ai wo
10. hen xiang ni mei ci gao shu wo ni de dong xi
11. hen xiang liao jie ni gen duo
12. xiang yao qian ni shou
13. xiang yao bao zhe ni
14. xiang ba wo de ai chuan da gei ni
15. xiang qing ni
16. xiang gen ni qing
17. xiang yao gen ni kan dian ying
18. gen ni tan qing shuo ai
19. gen ni yi qi wan
20. mei ci gen ni yi qi shang wang wan game
21. mei tian gei ni gan wo qu shui
22. xiang yao ni mei ge wan shang dui wo shuo wan an
23. hen xiang mei tian gen ni jiang wo ai ni
24. xiang yao gen ni en en ai ai

jing tian, tu ran xiang dao zhe ge dong xi. xi wang bu hui shang dao ren. ye xi wang mei ren hui kan dao zhe li. wo zi shi xiang shuo chu wo zhen xin gan shou dao de hua. wo mei ci, shou dao yi xie duan de xin xi. zhe zhong xin xi, gen ben dou mei de hui fu de. ran hou. ru guo shi zai tan hua zhong shuo chu hao xiang zai xin xi de dong xi, gen ben dou bu hui you dong xi liao. zai xin xi li, wo gan jue dao, wo de dao de xin xi, bi peng you de xin xi gen jia len mo. zen yang shuo, wo dou shi yi ge hen te bie de ren. bu shi peng you, ye bu shi jia ren, wo shi ni te bie de ren. zuo me wo hui de dao zhe yang de dui dai de? zhe shi dui nan you de hui de xin xi ma? gan jue hen luan o.. yi ju hua shuo bu zhi dao hui shen me.. bu ran jiu bu hui ba.. bu hui wo xin xi, wo gen ben dou mei guan xi de, you xin, yi ding hui you dong xi hui. hao lei o 12.25am le.. zuo wan ci shui, jing tian ci shui.. yao si le lo.. hen duo dong xi hen fu zha, shuo le dou gai bu liao. qu shui lu..

愛のないソウル

zuo wan, you ren gao shu wo, zhe ge shi wo de bao ying..
wo jiu xiang dao.. si le.. zhe ci wo zhen de shi 苦 le..
talking thing about old will remind me a lots about my past. i am so regret on how i did last time. i seriously understand now, why i being hate by her. the deepest you love someone, the hatred you have is more strong.
chen jing you ren wei le wo fu chu le hen duo dong xi, yi qian wo jing ran yi dian dou mei gan shou dao. mei you bei da dong. shuo de mei cuo, wo shi yi ge hen ben de ren. but whatever. wo de bao ying, jiu shi, i wont get any love from the one i love now. huh? it is a very complicated love. not being care or love anymore, or, i cant feel? gosh.. again? zhe shi wo bao ying.. i dont want to love anymore after this.. serious

どのように好きですか？

i have no choices but, i need to hide something in this post, in case that i effect someone. actually yesterday i am going to write something about "what thing will you do when you in love with someone" things that you never know why you want to do. love someone, dont need a reason, do something for the one you love, no reason too. to me, last time i am very stupid, people do something to me, i never feel it. plus i never know how to love. so now, i believe that i have improve, but it is still not enough.

sometime, i really dont know..

[this post, i write yesterday, because computer got problem, so i didnt complete it, but i still publish it]

de kong mei shi zuo

hen xiang qu shui le dan shi bu xiang shui
ying gai shuo wo hen lei le, dan shi bu xiang shui
gan jue, hen gu dan, hen ji mo o..
zui duan de blog, bu xie le, wan an, xia xia

chen mi zhe zi ji

huhu, jin tian hao lei o.. mei ci qu klang dou bu hui you hao dong xi, guo ran shuo de mei cuo. si ren tou lao ban, wu duan duan sha shang lai klang, hai dao wo mei de gen bao bei yi qi jiu yi dian, hai dao wo gan zhe hui qu zuo gong. wo zui tao yan gei ren gan zhe zuo dong xi de. jin tian dou man shi bai de, qian bu dao bao bei de shou. bao bu dao ta, ye qing bu dao ta. shuo bu gan, bu shi bu gan.. shuo bu hao yi shi, mei ren hui xing wo. lao shi shuo ba, wo hen bu gan qu pong bao bei. wo gan jue hen bu hao. ah nick shuo guo, mei you bao, mei you qian shou, zhe yang shi qing lu?
wo yi jing dui zhe zhong gan jue hen len mo le, shen me gan jue? bu zhi dao leh. ru guo mei you ren dui wo yao jing yi dian, wo kan, wo duo mo xi huan ta, dou bu hui shuo qiang. jin tian, kan dao bao bei de xiao rong, gan jue hen kai xin. hen xi wang wo ke yi de dao gen qiang de you mo gan, gen jia hui shuo hua. zhe yang wo jiu ke yi kong zi dao bao bei. bu xiang zai ba bao bei fang de tai zi you le, xiang yao ta kao zai wo shen shang.
ti pa, wo zhen de ai shang le bao bei. mei you xuan zhe le. gan jue bu dao fu chu, gan jue bu dao fang chu. shen me dou gan jue bu dao. hao xiang zai zi ai zi lian de, xD zhen hao xiao de wo. ben si le. wo xian zai hen lei, wo shen me dou bu xiang zai xiang le. wo zai chi zhe fan. gang hui lai, dou hen jiu le, hen xiang zhao shui. deng xia jiu qu shui le.
ping chang dou hui yong ying wen xie blog de wo, jing ran yong pin yin.. jin tian de xie blog mood ba. mei xin qing yong ying wen xie blog. wo zui ai wan le. shen me dou yao wan cai ke yi. lian zuo gong dou yao wan. wo bu shi bu ren zhen. wo tao yan ren zhen. dong xi ke yi zuo, dan shi, dou yao wan. bu kai xin ye yao wan, kai xin ye yao wan. na bu shi hen hao ma? hen duo dong xi dou shi zi ji zhao lai de, hen duo bu kai xin dou shi zi ji zi zuo de. quan shi jie zui ben de jiu shi wo.
gan jue zui ling wo shi bai de jiu shi. wo bu neng gai bian yi ge ren. gai bian bu liao ta de que dian. gai bian yi ge ren de que dian, erm, que dian jiu shi bu hao de xi guan. wo de yi shi, da gai shi zhe yang. gang huan le keyboard. yi dian bu xi guan, dan shi dou man hao yong xia de. ji xu xie.. wo yi jing wang le hen duo dong xi lu.. zuo ren ye kai xin duo le, kai xin de shi, wang le bu kai xin de dong xi. quan dou shi bao bei de gong lao. ta kai jie le wo hen duo. ta dou man hao. wo bao bei hor, ta shi man ben de ren lai de. zuo ta de dada, zhen de shi hen qi o.
bao bei, dui wo lai shuo, shi yi ge hao nv shen. hen xi huan ta o.. dan shi =) zai mou xie wen ti shang, chu le xie zhuang kuang. dou shi jie jue de shi hou lu. wo zui tao yan ye man de nv shen, tao yan ba dao de nv shen, tao yan bu xing wo de ren. bao bei dou bu shi wo tao yan na zhong. ta hen hao, ta zui hao. ke neng shi wo wen ti huo zhe shen me ba. wo bu neng zai yun lai dong xi le, yun lai zi ji hao le. wo que shao yi zhong dong xi. ling dao bao bei bu hui zen me dui wo, erm, zen yang shuo. jiu hao xiang qing lv, wu xiang liao zi ji de dong xi, wu xiang fa biao zi ji de dong xi. bu hui shuo mei yi wen. wo hen xian mu ah nick gen ta nv peng you, ah nick zuo gong de shi, ke yi gen ta nv peng you yi qi tan. xi huan yi ge ren jiu shi hen xiang gen ta fen xiang suo you dong xi ba. ran hou, hen xiang qu zhi dao gen li jie. peng you ye yi yang. wo gen bao bei yi qi kai xin de dong xi, wo hui gen ah wen feng xiang gen shuo. ta ye hui gei wo yi wen, bu hui shuo o, zhe yang ar?
wo zhe ge bai liu yao qing jia, shui yao gen wo chu qu? bu xiang liu zai jia. zuo gong ya li zhen de hen da le, mei de shu jie mei guan xi. mei de fang song jiu shi da wen ti.

hai you, mou xie dong xi
wo men shi ren lei, ru guo you ren ling dao zi ji fan gan, hen zi ran jiu hui tao li ta
ru guo ting dao mou xie fan gan ge, hen zi ran hui bu ting
dui peng you zuo le fan gan de dong xi, peng you hen zi ran hui tao li
dui shui ye yi yang, wo gan jue fan gan, huo zhe you dong xi bu xiang zai yu dao, ye hui tao li

jing tian xie de blog, bu hui you ren kan de dong le, xie xie, wo xie le hen duo dong xi lu.. shuang, chi hao fan le lu.. qu chong liang

love short story

06-09-2010 (first day of love) my lovely rei confess on me because she scare that i will be stolen <3

07-09-2010 my night confession.. so nervous.. >< i want to tell you, i love you

08-09-2010 i promise to be her that i will be her!!

09-09-2010 plan to talk with her tonight before sleep.. wish to tell her.. my feel (cant get to call her) sad

10-09-2010 hope to see her in webcam ><

11-09-2010 want to call her tonight, promise myself to be brave

12-09-2010 a day that i worry about out meet, another promise, i will meet her on this tuesday

13-09-2010 my mood is very bad today, i want to call her, i want to talk with her

14-09-2010 meet dear today, love her, but not enough strong

15-09-2010 must listen to her and sleep early today, everyday

16-09-2010 i talk a lot with dear at phone, a lot, but not very

17-09-2010 rei not very happy and fan, yang hope she everyday can fine

18-09-2010 want to tell and teach rei how to comfort and help people (we talk phone until very late^^)

19-09-2010 sms very less but very nice too, cookies and chocolate, i will make for you

20-09-2010 talk phone with her again, hehe

21-09-2010 tell her that, if my life restart, i will choose her

22-09-2010 she study so hard until not enough sleep, talk phone with her until 1am ><"

23-09-2010 talk phone until very late at night with rei >< sweet

24-09-2010 got little mistake about her and ex but it is fine already

25-09-2010 a very busy day, didnt sms rei a lot =(

26-09-2010 tell her something, hm.. try ba.. my old thing (say about i love you now) old thing next time 

27-09-2010 a very worse night 

28-09-2010 i want to cry 

29-09-2010 i make my dear cry.. =( 

30-09-2010 i love you i love you i love you (treat you seriously) 

01-10-2010 super weird rei da

02-10-2010 angry worry, phone expired cant contact me.

03-10-2010 sad, didnt tell me anything, hate you!!

04-10-2010 we sing song at night >< sweet~


05-10-2010 cant sms or call rei liao =(

06-10-2010 rei no sms me a lot =(

Elric Tearious Unsatisfactory (facebook)

speechless? actually, i don't know what to say anymore, if you are really speechless, i think there is really problem between you or us. maybe i don't know how to manage a relationship, that's true. i am wondering, why cant i make her friend accept me or like me? is it because of my ex? spreading my bad thing?
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i cant promise you to go to bath early, er.. reason, i don't feel like want to bath yet, things you say cant move me. i am confusing and disliking those speechless attitude, actually there are so many thing that you can say. keeping continue being like this, really killing my mood and feel. i might give up someday, seriously
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by the way, i am going to bath now, maybe writing this is my night homework i guess, unsatisfied with my current relationship and status, i am so damn unhappy with this. but whatever, i don't have the right, or wrong plus it is same to her. today i get a very hard feel. i don't think you will be how if i give up. or yo...u want me to treat you like the way you treat me? you will hate me, this is sure. be right back..
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just come back, damn stupid internet browser having error, i think this must be that anti virus fault. i went out to buy a reload card for my girlfriend, her phone out of credit. i am still very unsatisfied, is everything about you, or from you, are not necessary letting me know? anything are not necessary telling me?
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i wonder.. does she really go through my post? maybe we're really in love with each other. you feel it is no problem, nothing wrong in our relationship? i told you everything, everything, not anything. you told me nothing, i feel like i don't know you much now. how many time i explain, you still cant get what i mean about letting me know your status.
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want to cry already, but, am i suppose to do so? i don't know. so fine then. she don't really get where is the problem is. i mind that i know something suddenly because, if i don't ask, i will never know. sometime even if i ask, she wont tell, so what? sharing me your thing, not necessary to do that? so, you are asleep now..
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going to sleep at 3am later, so excited playing dragonica, my last post for today. who having problem here? people that should have problem is me, not you, so what you think so much? or it is actually, you got problem, so you infect me? is it? i don't know. dont disturb me, i want to play dragonica =D good night 3am sleep later
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wake up very early today, wake up by [ Daii Ruii ] i wonder how is her now, worry.
zuo wan de shi, mei guan xi, wo hui xiang de, bu xiao xin shui le, wo ye xiang ni zao shui. wen ti bu shi zhe ge, wo ye bu hui jie shi. ren zhen wen xi kao shi jiu dui le. wo bu shi ge ye man ba dao nan you ;)
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offline, get ready to work now, going to buy redbull later, or i am really going to collapse.
problem : actually what i want is, i wanted to know more about you, hope that you will tell me anything or thing about you. everything is necessary to let me know, plus i tell you everything, right? off to work now, bye
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just back home from lunch, didnt bring bottle to work, no water drink >.<" actually i want to buy kopi + milo but ah nick ah wei didnt come to work, so jia lat. today [ Daii Ruii ] sms me at morning, i think got 3 or 4 already =) i feel like, she is trying to sms me only, still dont really get what i mean. my phone will be active tomorrow
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my loving feel

wo dui ai zui pa de shi. zui zhen shi de shi

i believe in love, same as i believe i will lost my love

[wo xiang xing ai, tong yang de wo ye xiang xing hui shi qu ai]

in this world, guy that is truthful got how much?

[zai zhe ge shi jie, zhen xin nan de you ji duo?]

know each other, loving each other, suspecting each other

[ren shi, xiang ai, xiang fang hua yi]

break and together back, both dislike

[fen shou, he hao, xiang fan ge tao yan]

 only want to love like normal

[zi xiang ai dao zi ran]

i scare in love, same to i scare i cant get love

[wo pa ai, tong yang dou pa de bu dao ai]

in this world, girl that is straight, got how much?

[zai zhe ge shi jie, zhen xin nv you, you ji duo?]

 together, live together, both wasting time

[yi qi, zhu yi qi, wu xiang lang fei shi jian]

i am bored with fate and destiny

[men le yuan fen gen ming yun]

dont want to simply love

[bu xiang ai dao hen cincai]

it is better that we dont know each other

[zui hao shi chong lai bu ren shi dui fang]

dont want to give you think

[bu xiang yi zi ling ni kao lv]

dont need to know each other is who

[bu shu yao zhi dao dui fang shi shui]

dont want to let you cry

[bu xiang ling ni sha lei]