Disaster

 In the years of 1999 , it suppose to be a year that end every living things on earth. So many year before the years of 1999 a guy predict that everything will end on the year but why nothing happen? It passed 10 years from the day that the guy predict. Actually it do have a disaster at 1999 , i think, no one can remember it. If you are a diary writer, please checkout some pages at 1999 , surely you will see some missed pages, thats the day that the earth encounter a very big disaster. I am 9 years old at that year, it is very weird, all people memory of that day have been disappear except me. It is a nightmare, just like a dream but it is true. Not earthquake, volcano explode or else, this disaster make a lots of human turn hopeless, the sky is just like 7 o'clock morning and the wind blow softly.. You can't see any light from moon or feel any heat sun. No night time or morning, everytime is the same, no rain too. Temperature is under 25' huh, it is cold too. All the human start sleep all the time, don't even think of work, all tv program time have change too, 9pm only got show to watch, close at 12am mean nothing to watch. Ya, my story quite silly but wait me finish it. Day after day, week after week, human start to sleep more, it mean can sleep one day. Human appetite have lost, all people become thin, even my friend Thomas is more thin than me. For me, just having some insomnia and no appetite. In my room, i got write down how many day have pass on the wall, you know what, it is already a year. How human can survive that long? Huh, all human sleeps is just like hibernating itself, sleep more that always, they are not dead but sleep like dead. For people that not get infected, much of it is kid. For kid like me on that age, to survive, i have to learn cooking or STEALING food. Wild animal start to disappear, where they go? I am very sad, very very sad. God is just like a rule or living things for human. Two year have pass, plant stop growing, a lots of human already not waking up, you know what i mean. My body health is getting weaker, a bit like leaving this world. I see a lots of kid hunger to dead, sitting at road side, there already already nothing that can be eat. Year 2001 , it is the day that i am going to die. And i have no more idea for this story. Stop it, making nonsense is wasting time, ^^more nonsense next time, i wonder how many of you all have readed. I use about half or one hours for it. Actually i am going to make the story turn back to normal but i am dizzy and silly.. Damn sleepy and tired. Darn, not going to sleep early.. Post end..

Nightmare

do you believe that nightmare create by boring ghost? not those ghost type of dream, it is a dream that is very horrible, sometime you cant get up too, i mean cant get up after a shock. a nightmare is a dream which causes a strong unpleasant emotional response from the sleeper, typically fear or horror, being in situations of extreme danger, or the sensations of pain, falling, drowning or death. such dreams can be related to physical causes such as a high fever, turned faced down on a pillow during sleep most often in the case of drowning nightmares, or psychological ones such as psychological trauma or stress in the sleeper's life, or can have no apparent cause. if a person has experienced a psychologically traumatic situation in life for example, a person who may have been captured and tortured the experience may come back to haunt them in their nightmares. Sleepers may waken in a state of distress and be unable to get back to sleep for some time. Eating before bed, which triggers an increase in the body's metabolism and brain activity, is another potential stimulus for nightmares. i am really very scare that i will get a nightmare. very little post at very late ;(

Dream

Dreams pass into the reality of action. From the actions stems the dream again; and this interdependence produces the highest form of living.

this morning i have a dream, the dream start at school. what!! i am back to school, i miss my school a lot, yesterday pass by my school, thats why i have that dream, so happy best, get nag by teacher again, yahoo.. happy xD o meet back some friend with school uniform too, cool!! not cool also, me more cool x( cheat ownself mieh, i want japanese school uniform :D nice x)

The dream was always running ahead of me. To catch up, to live for a moment in unison with it, that was the miracle.

dream symbolize something, herm, i believe it but i always forget what i dream, important to see future also i dont know. believe me, sometime things that i do, i will feel like do it before, a bit like repeat, only few second flash, can predict a bit o. huh, true..

In life, many thoughts are born in the course of a moment, an hour, a day. Some are dreams, some visions. Often, we are unable to distinguish between them. To some, they are the same; however, not all dreams are visions. Much energy is lost in fanciful dreams that never bear fruit. But visions are messages from the Great Spirit, each for a different purpose in life. Consequently, one person's vision may not be that of another. To have a vision, one must be prepared to receive it, and when it comes, to accept it. Thus when these inner urges become reality, only then can visions be fulfilled. The spiritual side of life knows everyone's heart and who to trust. How could a vision ever be given to someone to harbor if that person could not be trusted to carry it out. The message is simple: commitment precedes vision.

end, brain empty

Night

;) saturday sunday make late post, not busy, time a bit spoil. today i wake up at 12pm, damn sleeping, it is too crazy, sleep so late every night, sacrifice for ANIME, can la, never mind. wearing pajamas after wake then chat until get scold only change clothe x( you know.. i got a lot anime download link, still got a lot no download. must add oil to download, save more money for more anime. last week i buy dash bell anime, not complete but i burned it, 100chapters oo, i change six DVD, more worth, all movie version, ^^ love it so much, anime ma. argh, want more not using money for anime oo, just return and change. little post today, oyasuminasai. my new daily word

do not beat tortoise

word to say with sibling, learn from anime^^

Late

i dont have work today but must accept delivery from supplier for few minute, today just spend time on computer a lot, make a late post today ;( give you see some photo that i snap la, short late post

Mix

End

form 4, actually me and my friend going to choose what class we like, we naughty but got think too. And actually i am joining art class, my life will change a lot if i am in art class, possibility that i will be with Shirley is very high, or maybe it is no different. Why am i saying this. Pass thing, don't want to mention la, tell only when got people ask. Haiya, if give me chance to back to pass also, i will never like her back. Back to standard 6, save more money then, anime!! Thats what i want xp.

Tears

I am the oldest in the famous, taking care of brother and sister is my job, teaching them to be good, showing them a good example of a brother. (you know what, i feel geli) The way i show my love to them is by my inner heart, example i worry about my sister, i will never say it out, i will nag, thats my way. Becoming a brother must be strong, can't always ask for help. Actually, i am not a strong person, mean those easy to get hurt, something like feeling, serious will cry but it will never happen. No one can see how soft is my heart, my friend feel sad or moody, i will absorb few percent of his sadness. This morning my boss say to that malay driver (semakin lama, kamu semakin lambat, saya tak suka kamu macam ini) mean do thing slow and late to work. Mazauki is the driver name, i hate malay like hell but i can't treat him my hate way. In game, ragnarok online, malay kid all around the screen, i never scold back then even a pukima even if they say me stupid or what, feel very shit but what can i do. I know give people say then say la but, huh. That driver quite pity, he is a father of few kid, salary not a lot, work as driver, everyday deliver things to far area.. Then he just want to rest but that boss.. Can't understand workers feeling, i can't continue my studying so i have to work, my salary now is impossible for me to do business in future. My heart will feel not well if i think about my future, it is hopeless, zetsubou!! Few post a day, not bad xD this blog a bit spoil

Despair

i don't think i will got a good future, i don't even want to imagine it. There are lot me people can become success like my grade, do you think i can do that too? I don't have experiences on everything, do i? Working in cyber already feel very despair, staying in here i feel like more despair, ya this work is great but i can't stay here!! The more i stay, the more i can't leave because this company need me, without me, a lots of thing will be abandon until the new worker come. Why i care so much, thats my way :( Same like i can't just quit the job in cyber, feel a bit not responsibility. Despair.. Don't care la, go suicide, crazy only go to hell.

Tiredness

Sleep very late last night, try to guess how sleepy am i. My favourite eye also got, those black color one. Huh, luckily i am damn sleepy last like or i will get insomnia because, some problem in heart, must solve it o. A death is just like a sleep. We die, it mean we sleep forever.. Got dream, of course no, brain not active liao ma, mana uh dream ne? I forget something that i want to post, important o.. Shit. Actually making few post a day is better then writing a long list of scroll. Today my song for share is Tobira o Akete by (Anza)

Today blog type in my phone

Pass

 Do you believe i still remember the time when i am just born to now? Okay then, i born in hospital besar kuala lumpur. Live in a place call sentul pasar from age that i was born to 5 if i am not wrong. I live with my grandfather, grandmother, father, mother, my father brother and.. more la xp Living in sentul pasar is the most happiest ever, so many cousin together, the temperature is always cold de because it is a village house made by wood, my grandfather build i guess. My father ground up there too, do you believe, it is only a very short moment. I remember i take care i wild cat before, a cat that is very free, can go anywhere it like. Don't know why suddenly forget the cat and it because nothing, huh. I remember there got some chicken too, fat and big is for sell, small one is for play xD I still remember the first time i learn clapping, age 2 or 3, i will never forget that.. And put whole tins of soy sauce to porridge, yuck. Before age 4, mean before my brother born, huh, those memory quite blur.. I stop drinking milk and using bottle very early.. I don't like and hate. In memory, i cant see any baby moment of my brother, reason is. My mother take care my brother, grandmother take care of me. Herm. I got a red mickey plastic balloo toys, it stay with me quite long. Actually i don't have much toys when i am small, do i? I got play toy in a table, the table got a lots of toys, thats what i remember. Jump to kindergarten first year, that time my brother age is 2. My first year kindergarten not bad, very happy and nice, got free biscuit, only one piece a day.. Age 6, second year kindergarten, at that time i move to cheras, live there one year. The kindergarten there very horrible, give me nightmare a lot, memory erase. In cheras, i live with my mother sister, her house so big and nice, there got two little cousin brother and a baby cousin sister, i am the oldest. That cousin sister very big already lorr, last time when she is baby, we bath together xD now can't. After kindergarten life in cheras, my father move to new house, still in cheras. There start my primary school life. Making me headache flashing back those. Do you believe, i start to skip class and school at standard one.. No friend, get bully very badly, teachers all no brain. Standard 1 unforgettable bully (glue on hair, girl put de) (long wood ruler, give friend separate to two part, that ruler is my favourite, my mother buy it) (spiderman watches, expensive, give friend . . . make spoil it, cry like hell in class, that watch buy from my mother, newly buy, recess time give, ruin by malay after recess) (my first one dollar for school, malay take it, say me steal, my mother gei wo de) i start to talk malay with malay kid at standard one, huh, special? I got malay best friend, scam my money too. The time when i skip class, i like to hang around at a place, don't know where already, i always go pick up those (red bean) drop from tree. I hate standard one, i hate those moment, nothing good, forced to can talk malay x( people that i didn't mention thier religion, it is chinese. I don't remember all face of the human in standard one. My father move to kepong when i am going to standard two, life change a bit. No more getting bully and others. Study time not bad to, exam and test all got high mark but standard too life is very bored, i remember i get scam by indian girl, she is a new student that sit beside me at standard two, until form 5 she is still around. Standard 3, i got a lot me girl friend.. I stick with a lots of girl, they all is still around until form 5, the day when i am with them is so happy, only in class we together la.. 5 or 6 of them, xp not telling you all what name. One of them live near me, until now still here, so many year lorr. Sit in bus, the driver always ask us to sit together, shy la.. I stop mixing them at standard 4, different class already ma, thats the year i meet a lot of rubbish friend, hamburger Lee Boon Shiang and more, got two people still meet sometime, i start hating hamburger from the first time i meet and befriend with him, is he remember that he lost his ten cents and cry like hell? I am the one that use my ten cents to act that i found it.. -_- He quite popular, short and small, thatst why a lot people like, he almost kill me for few time by choking my neck, no brain or what. He always say we are best friend by itself, i never say ya or yes. I meet Daniel too, he don't know how to speak cantonese de, he know after mixing us. My true friend that i like the most is Hoh Yong Leong o. He is a bit naughty but good friend. Daniel not bad too, cool. Standard four, memories of studying very less, play a lot, lock people in cupboard, run around, bring toys and more la. I remember got one friend ask me to keep his toy, until now i am still keeping, should i return? Standard 5, i get hired and be a librarian, i like this job so much. Got rank de o.. I am a very lazy senior, wearing tie only. Get fired because stupid teacher no brain, say i know the rule but i break it. Damn. Back to standard four awhile, forget something, i got one very normal friend drop from his house roof and turn disable.. At that time i am very sad and form four time we like to bully one indian kid, he is so pity because he give school suspend, my friend lorr. Standard six, last year in school, pearly yap is my form teacher, she teach my brother before too, she treat me special good, make all my friend jealous.. That year is a very happy year.. Separate class and form 1. Standard 6, can remember a lot special moment, just the result taking day get very nice result, pearly yap so happy. Form 1 jorr, grown up already, meet a lots of new friend. I start becoming a prefect at that year, fall in love with Shirley too, pass story.. Love her in dream then turn real life love, so stupid. In dream also can fall in love. TRUE. You watch drama or movie before? When you want to say i love you, you will i i i right.. I try before, mute and stun a lot. Back to standard five, my sister born at standard five year if i am not wrong, at that time a girl give me an envelope.. I straight away fall to her.. That envelop is about my sister or to my sister.. I hate hamburger..! He take the letter and be the first one that read it.. Got one day i buy two anime, one of the anime i like a lot call tactics, about mystical detective la, he beg also don't have, just take and say borrow. So angry, it is okay and never mind, when he return, he say, the anime suck. I say i love one girl in standard five because i receive a letter right, it is a hand by hand letter. The girl attitude rough rough de.. Standard six time, when i want to tell her i love her, pearly yap say she quit her standard six life already. Moody for few week then ba~ form 1, do activities together with shirley is the most happiest. Forget about it, form 1 i am a prefect, got rank at very early years because not enough senior member, so headache so i quit at form 2. Form 2 is Elric bad side years, ponteng and skip class a lot, i even ponteng alone before, cyber cafe lorr stupid. Bad word a lot. Form two year just know i am very naughty, get called by disciplin teacher by a group, get wack. Form three is the most best and good. I love shirley only one year at form 1, fall back to her again at form 3. I join back and become prefect again, morning section prefect so best, (wear uniform only) it can count as a pass too, so free, can go anywhere i like.. No duty.. I mean ignore duty. They don't even care me a lot, don't attend meeting and all. A bit like extra. Ignore it, just tell you i wear uniform from form 3 to 5. I am a bit confuse with form 4 and 3, life is a bit same. If i am not wrong, i meet Raven (bird king) at from 3, Dina introduce gei wo de.. We sms a lot.. One month can reach thousand of sms.. think back also siao. 

(sorry, got to end now) i will write more next time, if got reader, part two will be create

song time

my soul for you

Little

today dont have much thing to write but dont know got a lot of thing to write or not, now it is not the momment for my one special post yet, find one day la. sure got a lot of things to ba~ like yang meh meh

day like always, today got hundred of book come again, haih~ so lazy. today i play a needle pin, i poke my finger, very deep oo, so pain, always scream.. boss around so must hold!! a pin board pin stabbed to my finger deeply and hardly. you know what i dont like, brother spying me write blog, damn, dont like + angry

same like always, going to put some song download link, my brother form4 jorr lorr why still so suck, not i look down on him la, i meet so much of young age people, it is 100% different, my brother so weak, those weak type, dont say i am a bad brother, my parent over manja him already

dont care him, care me. i will make post everynight, 100% everynight will my post new blog. if you cant see new blog post for one day, it mean something bad happen to me, time or pc.

post end, hope i can post my story from infant to now, song time...

Kutsuzure by (Ryouji Matsuda) 

Empty

today is a empty day, nothing special, day like normal, how come my day so bored today, i must make a day special every time, ha! mt blog dress very nice already, i will never maintain my blog look, will change a lot. edit html is too crazy, no one comment my blog yet, dont know nice or not, will it be very luan or not nice? my blog is not like normal blogspot already, hahahaha, or it still look like blogspot. my blog still got a bit problem, right side sometime cant load or see, hope you all dont have problem with it, i am using opera browser for internet.

how to advertise my blog, no idea at all, now i know i dont have much friend actually, now i have deleted all ragnarok file for a moment. i got a lot friend there de o, so many kid, all so childish, actually ragnarok now is not a game, people use to hang around, chatting or get friend, can marry and adopt baby too. -_- i cant get any wife, no girl play, all gay got la, act girl, see how they control only i will know. i will post some image that i am in game next time.

HOO YIK YANG or ELRIC, what should i do next, staying in VK WONG ENTERPRISE 100% hopeless, i got chance to be salesman there then so what, salesman very good mieh, i am not those talkative, be salesman? actually my company dont need those talkative specise salesman, just go to school promote then order, sell, very easy job. huh?

http://mp3.funcafe.web.id/Aishiteruze%20Baby/Nennen%20Saisai%20(Yo%20Hitoto).mp3 share you all a song here, Nennen Saisai by Yo Hitotocute right, hahahaha, my choice for song and singer very high quality de, xD i like all song dont care who sing, masami okui my favourite girl singer, or ai maeda, wada kouji my favourite male singer, he is the cloolest guy of all i see, he have a great voice and can singout a cool song. she look more like a hong kong artist or singer, yo hitoto? dont know about it. please download the song to hear oo. not easy to get those link, upload too waste time.

write more thing when i got mood^^ back from work where got mood ne, night time is anime time. please hear that song before posting comment if can, thanks~

http://mp3.funcafe.web.id/Aishiteruze%20Baby/Nennen%20Saisai%20(Yo%20Hitoto).mp3

no text checking so hope nothing write wrong

http://mp3.funcafe.web.id/Aishiteruze%20Baby/Nennen%20Saisai%20(Yo%20Hitoto).mp3

Html

HTML

what lai de, so confusing and hard, so luan, code and more, i cant even understand what can it do, edit save without backup, blog will spoil if wrong code, my blog got a bit spoil too, dont know what to do already, hang half way, need some people to help add oil. planing to create a very unique blog^^ how unique also cant be very nice de la, so many blog nicer then me. i hate and dont like is coding things a lot, so mafam, press already but dont know how is it. checkout my blog always to see some change, sure very unique, i edit HTML. do you all know how? teach me a bit oo, i am very weak with it.

dont want to post a lot, must work hard on blog, (jia you)!!

click and save then hear

Sigh

just come back from night market, not those bad market, it is pasar malam. night market is a place that sell drug and a lots of good stuff hehe, you know what, i feel so high and damn crazy there, it is crowed until traffic light spoil jam, human stick human, hear before. as you know my mind got problem and that time i am very crazy, head got gas xD it is okay. whats make me turn that? am i going to insane? or something else? dont care la, kacau only. my mind is empty much of the time, but now, it fill up with either anime or bla, huh. haiya, i will okay de la.

school reopen, all the negative feeling like sadness send it to me from all people in malaysia, one factory of tissue also cant wipe dry, why do school make student feel that, it is a nightmare, gakuen/school in japan is always the best, dont need to compare, it is totally different. sports day, event and more, hell malaysia, so cheap~ dont want to say jorr.

skip class or school, this what all student do, whats make them do skipping? dont need to say, stupid no brain teacher and fucking rules, i am a student before, huh, what, i am working but i still want to comment, blow me la~ rules, more like a string, controlling, who like to be control, crazy. teacher is one more shit, think that they are so big, cant be disobey, teacher is a guard, same~ guarding. singapore is the most saddiest, one of my friend tell me a lot about it, their rule is a just like a jail chain, you open the log in the chain, you go lokap, ya, you can go free but with a chain, school or normal people also same, rule create by human, can be rewrite -_-

bla a lot, thanks for passing by, please leave comment, lazy to check word

Chaos

what will happen after a minute, a hour, a day, a week, a month, a year or after the day that we are not in the world. god, death god, how do we proof their exist. end of the world, this is what those malay predict, read this, it may happen after a minute, a minute, a hour, a day, a week, a month, a year or we don't know when, nonsense or what, i can say anything with that. Actually a human life not very long, things that we can do is limit, wasting time is the things that killing, for me, i do a lot of thing, all anime~ some will think it is a bit same like wasting my time but i feel that it is worth, really de o, as long i feel happy with it.. it is a very happy de feeling. 

today working so sleepy lazy + tired, same everyday like la. my salary raise~ wuahahaha, laugh what! raise also not a lot, say also give people laugh, anime also not enough, boss too greedy~ hell!! let me say some bad things about people here. my boss, not selfish, he is greedy, what also want, i discover that he keep a lot of good stuff, he is not using it, but keeping it, i saw bird nest too       -_- throw aside de nest, sticker there RM300, keep, no eat, dont event think to give to staff. in my company only got two worker, i am sales clerk then another one is driver that serve me (driver that deliver things) he is same age with my parent, got a lot of kid and his salary is a bit like mine!! damn, i am so pity to him.. school going to reopen, he is dead meat now.. but he is okay, normally malay got their malai way to solve, sure no problem. 

not stepping in to classroom for two year, miss the laughing, lazy, and a lots more, i miss mister lim soo sing, forget his real name already, he understand my feeling and tong yee, yong chien, kok siong, kwok weng, jie yong, keng giam~ we all are the most famous big in class xD noise creator, fool maker and a lots more but all of them are shit human~ no use, no brain!! cant relief if scold, need to beat or hear thier pain.. few people that i mention there is going to college!! actually i really wanted to go, (feeling like crying jor) all leave me behind.

actually i like schooling so much, i like anime about school and lazy student naughty student, thats only call school life, when i am a form4 kid, mister lim soo seng give us pass to leave classroom, helping him in computer lab, we are not any club member, (VIP) rank higher than those club member, we are special!! sometime, we are not helping but playing, lim soo sing know we hate staying in classroom so everytime when a teachers is absent, a pass from him will be sent, we can stay in lab to play PC. lim soo seng and headmaster ong boon puah is close friend because thier wife is college mate, huh, not telling anymore ;p make my heart jump out, tears pop out or begging to return.

when will you want to return if a god give you a chance to back to pass, for me, i am scare that i wil lost my brother or sister so i will back to the day after my sister born, wuah (face red) my sister is baby again!! my sister baby moment pass too fast le, i forget all the moment, only memories, tissue eater~ xD she spoil a lot of my things too, aiya, where got different, until now age 8 also a destroyer!! my anime T_T

why so much bla bla bla, i am dirty minded if no anime, only anime cure my mind, lalala, all people sure think about those negative anime, ya i have a lot but not those!! i mean magical girl, magic magic or those fantasy type la.

hahahaha, i am a bit sad and down, the music clip is perfect for my mood, please spare me few minute time and hear it, please @@

endto, i cant upload from pc so use youtube T_T this is not the song too

Huh

what a busy day, so sleepy too, this few bag make me use whole day to arrange and it still not done yet, so tired and sleepy, make me lazy only, all this bag is teaching aids for primary school, damn bored, facing all this make me yawn none stop. For a working person like me, actually don't have nothing much to write.

you know what, this is damn nice, huh, busy mood for today have been cure xD

Raven like this so much, for me, i like those black stone, x( my blog post very long.

My day just pass like that oo, nothing special. Today i steal a fruit from office, that boss is very greedy, keep until dry also don't want to give people, cannot say people bad things. 

huh huh huh huh

New

It is a new year, huh, my post failed, i write this second time because my text lost!! Tomorrow got work, damn, i hate working day like that, no mood for it at all. Today is not bad, the first day of 2009 harvest a lot of link for song and anime, i got a good DVD+BURNER and convertor too, super burning that can feed it a lot of video. Very very happy. From now on, everything online, i will download, hope that shit streamyx don't disturb enough, waste my time. 

Huh, i watch one japanese movie at 8TV, about GAMERA, name TOTO, i surely will get this movie as collection, didn't watch ot completely T_T This movie very famous and nice de o, don't think it is a movie, those kid act very good. 

My brain very dirty nowadays, i will clean it back );

Almost forget to make post, luckily i think of someone^^ guess anyone la, not telling you also ;p 

Started

Blog start finally,  you know what, i don't know what to write, nah~ joke. In 2008, a lots if things happen, can't remember all~ Anime is the worse i guess, i get 100+ anime in 2008 and i get 131 anime now, whats this, work and got money is harder to get anime than schooling time. I sorry, can't write a lot of things in 2008, make me headache only when i think, recently can la. This is a public blog, still got private things can't be write. Let me think . . . 2008~ things that i remember is bitter~ Today got bitter things :( can't go out with Raven.. I know still got more chance, hope she bring more friend with her this time. Christmas night celebrated in ragnarok world.. quite sad and moody. Tonight countdown is at.. same ragnarok world.. Really feel very lonely de le, sleep better you know!! but i will never sleep that early, don't want to waste time on sleeping. I don't like sleep, better say i scare of sleeping. Tomorrow blog will be write, about my new year for 2009 hahahahahahaha, mouth not open, herm herm herm herm.