very damn shitting bad me.. i am a very bad person, i am and it is real, dont ask me why, i am so damn reality too, maybe my feeling now is normal but i still think it is bad and not suppose to be so bad.
another thing, yes, i am bad but i am not 100% bad, if i want to be bad, i must be in complete 100% bad. darn it, i hate myself for not being so flirtatious, in real feeling type of it ba. say in real, but with other way to someone. can i do it? no.. i hate.. dislike.. argh!!
bad cannot complete bad, half half, go eat shit, training make perfect, if i want, train make me do, lets see how i change, confidences up up!!
i discuss one thing with my friend today about love and myself, now i know actually i am doing a very sohai thing. i am so damn useless and bad, i dont have to mind and care if i like. i like then i wont care anything, otherwise i dont like then it will be okay. things i dislike effect me a lot on how i think on someone, sien..
from now on, start to be random thinking, make everything come randomly, dont repeat my stupidity already.. i am an asshole leh >< lan diu dao yao si. okay la, just note something down only, will i make post after later? maybe.. see i got what i want to say or not. this post de reason is apologize, dont need forgive, i am stupid, i am wrong, i am bad, i am useless, i will change, i wont repeat, i will be good
today what i want to say de is.. topic is about.. annoying feel given to me by human.. it is myself that feeling annoying? lets see, start with SDO game chatting.. no, wait a minute.. tell you what annoys me or tell how make me annoy?
er.. chatting that write = = or oo or zz this is what related, make me feel annoy.. does this make you all annoy? example of chat
Tearious : hi how are you?
example : i am fine
Tearious : how is your day?
example : okay lo
(this is dont feel like chatting with you, only cincai care you) better dont chat, make me sad nia
example : hi
Tearious : yo! =D how are you?
example : fine
(is this people want to chat?) hate this thing happen everytime
Tearious : oi, today how?
example : = =?
(this is a friend, not those not unknown)
example : hi how are you today
Tearious : haih.. today work so sien..
example : oo..
(?? walao.. oo.. work sien.. oo) annoying.. hate
this is human? now only i know.. not everyone i know are like this, but most are like this.. sometime i really mad and dont care them + ignore them, some only come to say hi then when chat thing, they goes oo.. dont even care a damn.
actually sometime i really need and wants someone that can chat with me always, sms with me always, always let me share my stuff and talk my thing, share its stuff to me too, something like sharing our story and heart, feelings and more.. is this soulmate? things i write here no one will read or see de ba? i really hope and want someone that really care my everything, cheer me up always..
one more thing about stupidity and no brain useless reality eat shit me << girl that i like
kind enough
tomboy and playful, kind also
older than me, not mature but very small in heart, feel younger than me
young, cute, dont need to be pretty
age under 17- schooling, younger than me
now? pretty << know how to think
walao weh.. guy eye must sharp and know how to choose leng girl, leng and nice. type of girl i like before is listed up there. cincai say nia, still got more inner things. bad la me, start choosing girl liao, own also not very leng zai, sien hate angry dislike mad myself and everyone.. no good people liao de in this world, all make me upset, this blog is tell all people you all is making me not happy..
i dont care eh eh eh eh eh @@ this song, nice leh.. everytime read my blog remember listen and read >< today is a very very busy day, actually it is a very moody day too but whatever la.. i dont know whats into me recently.. today i have some talk with my friend about girls, he curious and ask, is girl very important? but why? got girl really nice? to me, i need a girl to accompany always, i want to talk everything with her, i am so lonely and empty. wahaha, my friend ask me, why use "kosong" to describe lonely, it feel very emptiness.. sometime like nothing, to me, it is really nothing. until now, i dont see any girl that will tell me anything about her, and i can tell anything to her. no and dont have. sharing is caring, jealous is caring, argue is caring. without this, it is not love.
i wonder, this world still got human that can let me be with or not, love her very much, wont ignore me, making me annoying and very love me. i need a girl to care and a girl to care me, mind about me and let me mind about her. lalala hate dislike.. hate those people that dont know what i feel and wants, hate those that make me mad when my mood is not good. hate.
love my current blogging feel, a very silent blog to my future girl >< will read de ma? maybe no =p argh.. sien de la think this, so fast dream ><
anything else miss liao forget want to write, hm.. yaya i remember now.. human selfish think own only, sometime do wrong thing only know ask for forgiveness, do wrong, do right back, sometime cannot return liao, then do again la, do a better one, dont fail anymore. sien sei, hate kena ignore, better dont choi me
a very nice song that i have share >< haih~ no one will appreciate and listen ba.. today after lunch, i get a type of strength from.. MYSELF of course LOL sorry god, it is myself, i feel that i always show a very weak me to anyone. i wont get someone to admire me if i always get so weak.
i want to find a good girl, i want to find a girl to love, a true love that wont make me feel alone and lonely, can always make me feel that she is on my side >< i know i will find one but not now.. forever love not easy to find la, if easy find also wont very good ba?
true love ar >< so sampat.. too lonely le ba, today only write this, i will become more stronger!!
everyone have its own life, everybody have own living and entertainment, i am so sleepy now.. actually i dont feel like writing blog already but whatever. i dont know what people think recently, they it is so damn selfish until they dont realize, obvious selfish and dont know actually it is upsetting me..
i say, no one will know what i feel "how you know i dont know your feel" dont act that you know me a lot. my heart is so empty, life is so lonely. i wont have anyone that can always on phone with me, online with me, on outing with me, on heart with me, wont have anymore..
sometime i dont get what my friend mean, sometime my friend dont get what i mean. my friend always say "you dont have girl can die?" not this meaning la..
i can die because of suffering, i really cant take my breath when i am having this type of treatment, it is stressing me. i am so damn unhappy and sad for that. love at this age will not last, fuck you!! hate this word. i wont agree this type of thing, so fucking shit. nothing is perfect, even god is not perfect if it exist of course. create SINS? wa lan neh.. tonight i want to accompany Carmen for her project stuff, hope she done it quick and early. pity for me, no apology or thanks. of course i dont expect it but do you think it is a bit stupid? nah.. it is very stupid..
sometime there are no choice but to eliminate.. i hate it so i destroy it, i angry it so i kill it. i love you, so love you
since that i dont know how to be a good boyfriend, i think i have no choice already.. i am not going to waste my time on her already. and i am not going to be in relationship anymore until i become perfect.
22june2010 i have decide, i dont want to let myself suffer in hurt anymore. since that i can make my own girlfriend listen to me, i will let go of her and set her free. i believe in future she will have a greater boyfriend or guy that can treat her well, it wont be me anymore, i choose to surrender..
living like this is very suffering, i dont know whats going onto her at all, and she is not feeling like telling me. relationship is just like.. we are having a net between us. there are still something that we cant share although we together for almost half year or one year.
i hope she will read this someday, to understand what i feel. i cant imagine if i am her, what does she feel. my feeling is so bad now.. she wont know what i feel, never know...
when i feel sad, she will only angry me if i show her i am sad now if i am angry, she wont ask why and she dont want to know the reason, she only will angry me everytime when i mood is down, she will only angry me back she got ask why but just ask, then, nothing..
bu gou guan xin wo
reason is i dont want to feel unhappy anymore i will treat her as cold as i can, let her let me go she wont feel any different of me, she will leave me with hatred she will think i am not good, so she will find a better one in future treat her cold without love, thats all, it will end
my prediction for normal people, they will think, whats wrong with you, you are not like always, but to her, she will angry me and leave me
who should i find.. walao :'( no one else.. i am very lonely, damn lonely, my only dear that i can choose to be with already dont want to accompany me. doesn't wanted to talk my stuff. i am really going to be crazy if i keep on being this way. being treat by cold way, no one cares or apa apa else la. no one care a damn, the only person i choose don't want me..wasai
online time, no chat with me sms time, dont want to sms my thing talk time, dont let me talk mood no good time, no caring word sad time, dont care a damn
when you are online, what i feel is "i am disturbing" or you are busy.. never have a true chat after being together. maybe we only chat when we are playing XDO.. dont treat you like you are online.
in sms.. slowly get influence by someone that treated you in same way. if you are going to reply "then?" "so?" this type of thing, i think i better dont sms you. a simple reply without thinking and caring.
hm.. i already dont know what i should do already.. i want to die, i am suffering, i cant breath, so? then? who cares.. so? i dont care a damn, then? what you want? end post
introduction, this girl call herself as little devil, because she is little and very naughty xD she is 15years old in this year and she born in 1995. she live in klang, study in hin hua high school, currently single in real life and not available in virtual life. good looking, perfect and great, just a bit immature, might change and improve in future after a true relationship. the reason that i am writing here is to "dot dot dot" her email for facebook and msn is winnie7337@hotmail.com, click here to get to her facebook. she tell me that she is a very clever girl, good in studying and much more, very pro in school. top ten in class. very clever in class, or her classmate are weak? she is sdo player also but very .. slow in improving, dont know why, less focus i guess.
things that good about her, dont care it is lying or what la, believe it if you want =D
good girl
clever girl
kind
nice to friend
good to family
never do bad thing
wont do something that people hate
tall
big
good looking
long hair
lala
got a bit meat
like to flirt with boy
honest
cute
pretty
beautifull
attractive
and much more..
did i miss something @@ nah, i am done ;)
things that i write here are 50% real and 50% fake
my dear have change a lot, and i am very happy about it. every outing is not a happy dating but the ending was great, every imperfect matters should have a way to solve, every problem that we have, i believe, we can overcome it. my unhappy outing turns out great in ending because we know our problem already. Carmen realize a lots of problem that she is have already and she is slowing on the path of perfect =) although she still have a long way to go but i will go with her together. by the way, i hope tonight i can solve one thing again, mean help Carmen get more nearer to perfect and greatest, it need time lalala by Elric
sometime i really have a great mood to write diary aka my daily notes.. i write it for carmen, and today actually my mood is very good too, i didnt even have the chance to share it yet, i already dont have mood. my daily thing? i didnt talk it with anyone.. just like i say previously, i dont need friend, i dont need anyone. i only live for myself, own the ability of having a car and a house, this is a common thing to-do in human life. of course dont forget > ENJOY life. dont know why i feel like actually i dont need anything like thing that call ****friend? why? having it make my life heavy and problematic, love = sweet and feel happy + good. what did i have? love = bitter - problem - and **** erm.. actually i already give up or tired of everything, i still will pain and cry? nah~ i think this thing wont happen anymore or i wont feel like this again.
natural feel + effect
hm.. will i ouch T_T or i miss you babe?
urm.. this time if i give up, i really wont be turned back
this is a gift shop, a place that i work.. not even start. when he say confirm!! then i say if got problem then i call back then he say still got what problem? salary is only RM900, if i dont need money, i wont choose to work there.. but working there i can sell things online, not bad, can do thing i like. things selling there i very like too.. just.. the boss i feel like he is a bit yim jim.. mean want you to look perfect, good in speech and manners, looking cannot too clumsy or want sleep want sleep, must jing shen =o= sien.. this is my original look, always look not enough sleep swt.. i need to cut my hair again.. today he is very unsatisfied me for looking > messy (i come from house near near, what for i wear nice nice?) never mind la, i try to look nicer then zz dont know why i am so afraid of work de time cannot relax and enjoy anymore because work time too long, rest time so less and online sunday no work.. why last time me never mind de? now very mind of time.. extra work time no OT i dont want de lo.. and.. nothing liao la, xie xie
Plot Summary:Gon's and Killua's journey through Greed Island continues. Searching for his father, Gon wanders round Grees Island until meeting Bisuke. Bisuke serves as their master and trains Killua and Gon and enhance their abilities. The three encouter many troubles, as well as clues to Ging's whereabouts, and strived to emerge successful.
Opening Theme:
"Believe in Tomorrow" by Sunflower's Garden
Ending Theme:
"Moshimo Kono Sekai de Kimi to Boku ga Deaenakatta Nara" by Sunflower's Garden
Plot Summary:To further his quest to find his father, Gon Freecs and his friend Killua enter the world of Greed Island, a video game which Gon's father helped to create. Once inside the world of the game, Gon and Killua are faced with a combination of new allies and new enemies.
Age rating:Teenagers (May contain bloody violence, bad language, nudity)
Plot Summary:Gon and Killua help Kurapica search for the Spider Gang in order to seek revenge for horrors commited in the past. Continuation of TV Series.
Age rating:Teenagers (May contain bloody violence, bad language, nudity)
Plot Summary:
Gon Freecs, a young boy that lives on a small island learns that his father who he doesn't remember is an extremely famous man and has become somewhat of an amazing hunter. Gon takes the hunter exam to seek out his amazing father, but on the way while teaming up with 3 other candidates, Kurapica, Leorio, and Killua, he learns that there is more to becoming a hunter and the challenges that he must face will be beyond his imaginations.
Twelve-year-old Gon Freecss one day discovers that the father he had always been told was dead was alive and well. His Father, Ging, is a Hunter--a member of society's elite with a license to go anywhere or do almost anything. Gon, determined to follow in his father's footsteps, decides to take the Hunter Examination and eventually find his father to prove himself as a Hunter in his own right. But on the way, he learns that there is more to becoming a Hunter than previously thought, and the challenges that he must face are considered the toughest in the world.
Opening Theme:
#1: "Ohayou" by Keno (eps 1-48)
#2: "Taiyou wa Yoru mo Kagayaku" by Wino (eps 49-62)
Ending Theme:
#1: "風のうた (Kaze no Uta; Song of the Wind)" by Minako Honda (eps 1-31)
#2: "E-Jan - Do You Feel Like I Feel" by Masato Nagai (eps 32-50)
