two in one post [@@ forget it, i can stand for it] and [i am so wrong]

1st
there are something i want share, am i right for it or actually i am fully wrong? same like old time post, i cant make it obvious, need to make clear by secretly..

example: i done something wrong (do it mean WRONG mean WRONG no reason and dont explain?) the more you explain, the more rubbish you and splitting, same like my situation, i EXPLAIN why.. then.. all rubbish, like not being accept. okay, i ignore it, fed up, everyone my fault, then if i done something wrong again, i will just keep quiet, thats all, dont blame for my quietness, i dont explain my wrong anymore "fed up"
[ but actually also not IT's fault lar.. cant blame, because still **** ma~ forgive lor ]


2nd
haih.. i dont know whats going into me, i am just like 20years old liao lor dont know how to think? haih.. i need more changing, act more adult and know how to think, my problem is not because of childish, it is something like what guy need but i have to think too, how can i let my beloved young one ... haih, i am so stupid, so guilty liao, so now please know how to think

i hate myself leh!!