who get what i mean?

i am a bit confuse and.. sweat for something.. darn it.. lets make an example with some other unrelated thing.. okay, i am a vampire, i know myself cant appear during daylight time, why still still coming out? want die? i am thirsty, i dont want to suck human blood, so why still getting near to human? avoid la!! if you know yourself will like this, why still not making change? it is easy right if you know? so hard to understand, sometime i am very fed up with i hear vampire say to human "i dont want to suck any human blood anymore" but vampire still sticking with human.. zzZ i cant write it too obvious, ask me to know the true meaning ;) lets make another example, i am a guy that is very bad temper.. i know myself get angry easily, so i try not to angry anymore (NOT JUST TELL YOU I AM BAD TEMPER GUY, SO DONT MAKE ME ANGRY)  i will change, not only say and warn, fuck la, hate this speech, so hard to accept someone that say it zzZ very stupid.. nah.. i just want to split a bit only, my feel lai eh.. fine de >_< i scare i will .. haha..