leave it and find another one

recently, i found a sms partner, actually i want to write, i find a new sms partner but i dont feel that she is new to me. i know her from a long time, maybe she treat me cold a bit in past but this few day, we sms a lot. i never know that i will have another sms friend other than that "bird" @@
sometime, i am scare, will rei rei treat my sms like very cincai? even my ex doesnt really treat my sms seriously. she is still fine, chatting with her make me feel like i am not myself only. i never tell her that.
previously i meet a net friend that make me feel actually i am not alone too but she go to penang already..
okay then, lets say about her. who is her? i dont know.. lol.. guess yourself
by the way, i am reading her blog now, still not yet finish reading. i see that she have same incidence like me and she know what i feel. there are something same about us too but it is last time. not now.
everyone have own life, and i have mine. mind your own business, i mean my business. there are not reason interrupting other people life. er.. i dont know..
she didnt reply my sms yet, sleeping in the car, on her way back home or busy talking or chatting with others. yesterday, dont know why i suddenly feel like . . . mean speechless.. she tell me that she is chatting with 14years old uncle.. LOL i thought she play those adopting relationship with kids again. actually it was her cousin/relative huh? i feel speechless because i dont want to interrupt them if she really have guy.
i confirm that she is really available only i go after it. just like what i have say, i dont know how to woo a girl, how can i chase people? by time.. knowing each other more.
so what is the reason i am writing here? ya.. see blog title..
in my life now, girl that i can go after dont have much.. got one in facebook, but, she dont really care a damn on me, so i think i will give up her. another one.. "own blog also need to secret:" cant say.
merdeka!!!
aiyo.. what day is this.. sien.. so many people must be having fun now.. i hope i can celebrate with people too.. gathering with friends or lovers are very nice.. i love to be happy, i like to smile and laugh..
another important things. love, is distance really a problem? not very far actually. transportation problem. lala i dont know. important is happy, thats all. i am insane now, think so far already.. whatever..

living in darkness
a knight without princess..
i wonder.. what can a knight do?
is there reason for him to survive? without princess?
or.. is there any princess that is available for me?

dui ni zuo bu dao de shi

bu zhi dao zuo me wo hui jue de hen xin tong, kan dao ni zhe yang wo ye bang bu dao.
qi shi bu shi wo bang bu dao ba, wo jue de bu shu yao wo qu zuo de.
zi i bu shu fu, jiu yao hui zhao gu, bu ran jiu ting hua, ren shuo de ni jiu yao ting.
wo hen pa ru guo ke shou yan zhong le, ying wei zhen de hen xing ku.
wo you xiang dao, mai ke sou yao shui gei ni, dan shi ni mama hui mai de.
hen xiang yao ni hen jian kang de, bu xiang kan dao ni bu shu fu, wo gan jue hen nan guo.
wo bu zhi dao wei shen me wo hui xie zhe ge dong xi ar, dan xin er yi, bie wu hui.
dan shi ye bu hui you ren qu kan de. hao xiang di yi ci xie na li duo de pin yin.
jin tian 16-08-2010 xing qi yi. yi ding bu ke yi you shi >< he duo dian shui, qiu qiu..
ru guo wo zhen de wei ni liu di yi ge yan lei jiu bu hao lo.
shuo zhen de, kan dao ni you yi zhong na me bu zhen shi de guan xi, wo jue de hen ke lian. qi shi zhe ge shi bu zhen de, dan shi jiu liao hui fa sheng gan ching, zui hou de jie guo yi ding hen xing ku. bu zhi dao la, tao yan ni.
mei shen me xiang xie le, qi shi wo xiang.. bu xie le
dui ni zuo bu dao de shi, kan bu hao ni, kan zhe ni zhe wang, walao wo hui beh tahan. xin tong si liao

hope to have a new love, anyone giving me a chance?

it is just like a nonsense, asking people to give a chance for this kind of thing. actually, if you know more about me already, slowly you will understand that i have reason behind this. actually, i am feeling so lonely.. it is already very obvious.. i dont have friend, dont have someone to talk with, dont have people to accompany.. me and my family cant get together, so we dont talk. in my life, i dont talk a lot too. i need love a lot. seriously. i am expecting someone to give me a chance if we can be together.

i am type that treat relationship very seriously, not playing or what. i hope to have a long lasting too [forever] to me, if you know a relationship wont be forever, why still you start? if got problem in relationship. then solve it, sure no problem ma, why want to say a lot..

[in the middle of dont know what to write liao]

feeling dizzy now.. selfish love, hate this a lot. whatever, dont say this ba.. sad only
today actually want to write long de, but i keep jor, finish ba, no mood