leave it and find another one

recently, i found a sms partner, actually i want to write, i find a new sms partner but i dont feel that she is new to me. i know her from a long time, maybe she treat me cold a bit in past but this few day, we sms a lot. i never know that i will have another sms friend other than that "bird" @@
sometime, i am scare, will rei rei treat my sms like very cincai? even my ex doesnt really treat my sms seriously. she is still fine, chatting with her make me feel like i am not myself only. i never tell her that.
previously i meet a net friend that make me feel actually i am not alone too but she go to penang already..
okay then, lets say about her. who is her? i dont know.. lol.. guess yourself
by the way, i am reading her blog now, still not yet finish reading. i see that she have same incidence like me and she know what i feel. there are something same about us too but it is last time. not now.
everyone have own life, and i have mine. mind your own business, i mean my business. there are not reason interrupting other people life. er.. i dont know..
she didnt reply my sms yet, sleeping in the car, on her way back home or busy talking or chatting with others. yesterday, dont know why i suddenly feel like . . . mean speechless.. she tell me that she is chatting with 14years old uncle.. LOL i thought she play those adopting relationship with kids again. actually it was her cousin/relative huh? i feel speechless because i dont want to interrupt them if she really have guy.
i confirm that she is really available only i go after it. just like what i have say, i dont know how to woo a girl, how can i chase people? by time.. knowing each other more.
so what is the reason i am writing here? ya.. see blog title..
in my life now, girl that i can go after dont have much.. got one in facebook, but, she dont really care a damn on me, so i think i will give up her. another one.. "own blog also need to secret:" cant say.
merdeka!!!
aiyo.. what day is this.. sien.. so many people must be having fun now.. i hope i can celebrate with people too.. gathering with friends or lovers are very nice.. i love to be happy, i like to smile and laugh..
another important things. love, is distance really a problem? not very far actually. transportation problem. lala i dont know. important is happy, thats all. i am insane now, think so far already.. whatever..

living in darkness
a knight without princess..
i wonder.. what can a knight do?
is there reason for him to survive? without princess?
or.. is there any princess that is available for me?