my stupidity to dear, i am childish

i am so damn sucking stupid, i sad for my own mistake without reason. i am going to blame other for my own mistake too. that's why horoscope say that i am not worth being believe. i am not a good person to be with, my personality is so damn negative.. i hate myself so much. being so playful. i don't want to be like this!! being dislike and hate by others!! this is not what i want!!
i want to be people that bring laughter,  i hate unhappiness and reality!! i like to smile and play, hate being serious and sad!!
i am making others feeling bad!! what am i? fuck!!

rei, wo zhen de hen ben, wo fa shi, wo yi hou dou bu hui zhe yang, zi hui ling ni kai xin