wtf so **** recently

i don't know what's going into me, what bla bla rubbish feel stuff, i am just like getting insane!! more and more into those stuff, am i getting old or what? i feel like needing it lots!! huh? i shouldn't think to have it or want to have it, i can use to it to lose some tension.. shit shit shit.. my day is so awful now, i should stop this and get normal quick.. be more positive and stop being naughty, it is bad!! but i want it T_T

swt~ can anyone know what am i talk? LOL i dont think so but good lar!! i need to control myself already, more drama and music, more anime's and movie, less negative thinking and less **** everything will be just fine, will it?


we will be meeting next week, i hope that day i will be 100% normal guy, dont think to want this or that, dont think want to have this or that!! i am so abnormal now, argh!!

darn it..