Just lyric

 

 

Lyric, white messenger

dao zui hou wo shen me dou ming bai, shen me shi ai

shi qu le, guo qu he cuo guo, quan bu dou bu neng li bu

zi dao you yi tian wo hou hui, yi qie bian de hei an

mei guan xi wo bu hui zai cuo guo

so looking forward through

my life always in sorrow, never feel to give up

keep on running keep running jiu shi bu dao zhong dian

wo bu rong yi fang qi ni, wo bu xiang xin ming yun

wei le ni wo hui zai ji xu nu li zui qiu ni..

If i can return to my pass, i wish to go

losing it, left it and miss it, memory never exist

scar and wound that leave in my heart, wont be cure in life time

just for you, i repeat just for you, hen xiang yao ai ni

always live in sorrow life, never feeling happy

keep on chasing, keep chasing for you, you getting far

please don't tell me to give up, i know what i want to..

Wo zi xiang yao ni zhi dao the truth, i love you..

Please don't tell me to give up.. I will prove it with heart.. From this time start, i will make some change for you and me

time will make our heart freeze, lets us just be normal friend, i believe future someday, you will touch by me

time will make our heart change, lets us just be friend first..

I believe future someday, you will be love me

new season..

joking.. nothing goes well so far.. and i am getting more chicken.. come.. scold me useless or whatever because i admit everything.. but it doesnt mean i want to be like this.. i really hate myself so much.. why i am so noob..?

today.. actually i have all my planning already.. i plan to ask you.. "are you tired today?" then.. "today we dont ma huan miss liew" then.. "why dont we walk home together" omg.. why cant i just say it?

this is what failure always do.. noob chicken guy me..
nicoles "i love you" so hard to tell?

i sms u le.. dont know got what respond ne..

The End

lets make a full stop and let it end, you request to be friend.. blog dead from now

you know? i am sorry

this is a photo that i take yesterday xP i feel quite sweet and happy at the moment, my first thought is take photo as memory.. i try not to forget you hide it behind, then "yang, catch this" xD and i successfully catch your heart.. woots..

today.. i feel like a very ~.~ day..
lunch time you make me feel that you are so fed up with me
i admit, i am such a failure, i wont fail more my next and other time, you might be a good experience for me. first time so close with the one i love, all time or day.. maybe..

excuse - reason
aw.. i am talking suu much.. i shut up now, ok?

miracle crest from digimon adventure 02

nice lieh~ i like to draw thing at my hand.. no one ask about this at lunch or i will say many thing about it.. ha..

bored.. post done.. currently getting your sms, or sms-ing with you

i have chance?

busy with game and relaxing after work.. finally.. i am writing here..
am i running away from truth? the truth of loving you?
or i am just afraid of losing you? ee.. >.<

yesterday, you suppose to be replying me. i mean, responding me.. haha.. i want to see whether.. you caring me or just treating me like colleague.. this morning you make me feel like you so interest in my leaving.. then.. whatever.. i dont feel like leaving anymore.. reason not because of you.. it is because of my family thinggy.. but for you, i can stay too..

nicoles.. i dont want our relationship go so far, then.. i feel like chasing you already.. is there any chance or slot for me? please give me a chance and dont let me bang your door of heart =( it is suffering.. if you give me a chance.. i will one step into you, slowly.. >.< oh..

today.. i feel so tension and blur + shy and tired.. not really in status.. i will TRY my best and make you dong xin, give me a chance.. k? omg.. i am insane..

Our last or my last..

yesterday didnt make any post, reason lazy? or didnt see you? or dont have anything to write about you? dont give myself so much reason.. "esc"

actually i so wanted to ask you out yesterday, even if you say you are busy, but i still want to know, if you are not busy, will you go out with me?

you know? i really feel like giving up on you already because you really dont give me any respond.. another thing is.. keep treating me so bad.. you didnt know i like you so much? i still believe there are fate, even if i am not with you anymore, i can still be with you if we have <3 joke.. i just like you.. i..

i plan to quit the job already.. after quiting.. we officially no more relationship.. maybe ex colleague.. ^^ feeling quite sad about this.. maybe you never care about it too.. our memory not much but i really like you so much.. you are my decision to stay or leave. i told you with sms already.. currently waiting for your sms reply.. will update another post if you reply..

i want to give up all

yesterday not posting because i go to work
actually i dont plan to make post for today too but fine.. i make it as my daily now, ok? er.. from my beginning, i say that i will update but not daily.. so now daily lo..

nicoles.. you know you give me such pain?
i dont know whats wrong with you, and we dont even same like friend
what wrong did i do? i really going to fed up soon..
yes, i like you. i dont wish to have any bad thing with you, i just want to make friend
making friend with you is hard?

this morning.. i am seriously happy.. you sms me..
whatever.. keep being like what you be, keep treating me like how you do, give my heart to you die.. after die, i stop my blog post, then everything end, thanks..

today, when in car.. the time you fetch me.. ok i am sorry.. i shouldnt ask you thing, and i shouldnt tell you anything, sorry ok? i just want to ask you, hate me? dislike me? and.. i want to ask for your tomorrow, thats all, habis cerita.

i want to tell you.. wo xi huan ni

feeling sad today.. sorry nicole..

Realized I lost my heart to you that doesn't care.. and found it crying in the corner

this morning, when i was walking to work.. you suddenly call me.. then.. haha.. i told you i was walking and you requesting to fetch me. you know, i feel so happy.. but lack of thing to talk with you..

you know actually you treat me very bad or different.. i feel like you hate me or dislike me.. i am so sorry.. just tell me what to do to make you feel better.. you know today you yell at me and ask me go away.. i so guai go away.. but i feel so bad.. ha..

today whole day you go in production o.. but i keep find a chance to go back office do work.. haha.. but you not around outside >< never mind la..

then fang gong de time.. wo deng ni fang gong.. i so scare you wont fetch me or ma huan dao liew liew.. am i acting very obvious? i will feel so sorry if i really annoy you for letting you ask me for fetching.. [just send a sms give you for telling you that i will tell you if i walk to work, so you dont need to call me and ask me xP haha] stupid me zz

you know.. i feel so suffering.. i feel like smoking because i am so stress.. i dont want to stuck everything in heart.. i want to blow it

tao yan ni!! sorry i am so wu liao..

just about to write this post.. but you replied my sms >< i will be very sad if you dont because.. haha.. i just want your sms respond.. show me that you care about it.. maybe i zi yi wei shi..

you know, today i feel so damn happy because razi say this "saya rasa nicol pun suka awak jugak" my heart feel like <3 zi ji shuang ba.. after all of your sms.. i feel like.. i just.. zi ji yi wei shi ba.. i dont know.. feeling 75% down.. 10% fine because i still having fake hope.. 15% disaster..

Nicoles, i dont know what will our feature be.. i really wont expect anything from now on, but i still not giving up until i really make my last try, i will try not to be shy anymore. overcome it and i will make you shy! give me time.. i am just a bit nervous..

sad.. nicoles good night

qi guai de yi tian..

today, is a bit weird day.. and one whole day.. i am thinking of calling your name. i want to call you Nicoles!! thats all.. i feel like myself dont really call you before. i hope i can call you, at least you can feel that i will find you. let you have secure feeling? haha.. i am stupid..

sorry that i am a bit forgetful.. i will say what i remember.. >.< do you notice that i always find you.. i mean always get a chance to go back from factory to office?

Nicole's SORRY i curi ambik

i love this photo so much.. the most close photo of you =( how i wish i can take your photo directly.. maybe in someday ba.. got chance de.. see the two chair that i put for the container? xP i purposely do that. i even adjust the fan for you too, hope you get enough fan wind.. one more thing.. do you remember what i ask and say when you are there?

• i ask, today cleaner got go back early?
• then you keep wondering about my question
• actually the main question is i want to ask.. you what time back?
• after asking cleaner, i so shy and ask.. you leh? what time back..

LOL.. my face turn red >.< NICOLES..!! believe me.. before i give up.. i will try to own you.. but most important is.. relationship for me is not a testing or gaining experience.. i wish for permanent and of course not mian qiang if not good.. nicoles.. =( i feel like sms you tonight.. your few reply will be nice

second time dream of you

darn.. i dont remember completely already..
what i still remember is..
i dream that, everyone is still working in old factory, then, not yet shift to new factory de.. then got few time.. lunch break, you leave quick and early without waiting me.. you just leave without caring me.. i feel like.. where are you.. i want to go.. please allowed me to follow.. the first time you went out, i ask and find you after you leave, but the second time.. i being interrupt by albert..

i think i do really miss you but.. "i can see you everyday, telling that i miss you, this is fucking stupid and idiot right?" maybe you feel annoy and i am so sorry.. this blog i believe i will show you one day in right time.. or maybe not.. or i just keep it forever as a memory of my heart to you.. hm..?

ya, another thing is.. you know why i keep evade or feel shy to you? do you know that i have a very complicated stuff in my life? i dont want to cause any trouble before solving a trouble.. this make me feel stuck.. plus.. i am so so afraid of you.. i scare that you will treat relationship same as liew do.. then i will be like oh shit.. prank me?

i wonder.. am i really love you or what? i really scare to admit this but i dare to say i like you, thats all.. i dont want to make you feel uneasy or same like evade me in work.. feel so sorry because of my shyness and more.. i really nervous while i see you.. i will be brave, i cant be the one that shy.. YOU should shy in front of me, and not me

drepression about you.. am i too mian qiang?

keep viewing your facebook profile.. viewing all your post and thing.. i really wish to know much and more about you.. i feel like your life is really good now.. dont have the need for boyfriend.. i dont mean me as boyfriend..

you know.. i see jealous and some hatred from you.. about your friend and more.. where is mine.. by the way.. i really feel so lucky and happy last time.. while with my ex. although me and my ex never go out 2 person, mean she always bring her friend.. her friend is my friend.. i have friend.. all her friend is my friend.. haha.. i am sohai.. whatever.. just some depression.. sorry..

i dont mind if no one understand me.. but please dont ren ding and say about me.. all of you is wrong and not right.. but never mind..

are you waiting my sms.. i wish you sms me, and i hope to sms you too.. bla.. i know i miss you..

day by day..
maybe one day.. my feeling will dead and my mind will stop think of you..

good night =')

feeling so emotional today..

seriously i know this is disgusting and i am so sorry for this because in this kind of disgusting picture got your name in it.. maybe the time you see it wont got feel anymore? lol.. whatever.. i plan to create this, first.. is to test my patient and to test my heart and whatever thing. just like what i usually say.. i dont expect anything because i am afraid of disappointment.. or maybe i do really expect.. but.. fine..

i feel so weird toward you.. i really dont know whats wrong with me.. i starting to lose control.. i wish to see your laugh and smile.. dont like to see you angry and mad anymore.. i try not to disturb you already.. but sometime.. i am so wu liao.. apologize accepted ma?

one time, and one time.. i tell myself to give up my heart to you.. but.. i feel hard.. feel so difficult to let you go.. i wanted to see you all time.. day or night.. dont really wanted so much.. just want to know either you fine or what.. i wish to make call on you at night but.. who am i? why do i do that?

today my mind pop up something that i feel very upset until i feel like crying.. er.. i dont cry.. i feel like i being forgotten by you.. or feel like you dont care me a damn.. just like.. i dont know how to describe.. in my mind keep saying this "you will be more happy than having me in your life" your life dont suit me too.. you life is more on group.. and me.. =( haha.. you will let me join? sorry i no confidence..

one more thing is.. i like you.. and maybe it is very much.. but.. i dont feel safe with you.. it mean.. i feel like you dont take relationship seriously.. it is just like.. have it, then ok, dont have it.. then never mind.. no "an quan gan" be with you.. i will feel like hell everyday.. i am so afraid if you feel bored and leave me.. better dont be like miss liew lee yien.. LOL her full name xD she is a very unstable girl in relationship.. maybe..

today.. i pass my phone to you.. i feel like >< sweet because you use my phone!! >< i really love the feeling and you smile while passing back the phone to me.. i really like you >< plus you really so cute to me.. by the way.. always wish to tell you that i dream about you.. i dream that you tell we all.. you have been invited for an outing by a guy and the guy hold you hand.. then you got boyfriend.. it is just a dream.. but i still dont feel good.. i feel better after see you back in work but i am still worry..

i think this is all for today post..? hehe!! sorry for this rubbish post

edit : almost forget.. about the title.. yup today i feel sad and so emotional.. today you ignore me a lot.. another thing is.. miss liew scold me and you keep quiet.. i feel like so useless.. and i feel so shame.. liew telling all my bad thing in front of you.. image spoil.. you dont like  me le.. one thing is.. you.. i dont want say le.. ='(